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This page is dedicated to poetry about abuse

The poems on this page have all been contributed by Natalie McDonnell (nee Price), herself a survivor of abuse.
In her poetry, she expresses the pain of abuse and her release from that abuse.
Through her poetry, she endeavours to encourage victims to seek the great help she has found in Christ.
Natalie,  may be contacted through this web site by using the CONTACT form.

Natalie's poems have now been broken up into multiple pages so as to reduce the size of each page.
Each page will now contain a maximum of 20 poems.
You can move from page to page by clicking on the page links to the left.

YOU NEED TO COMMUNICATE

Having a good relationship, is about communicating
If you stop speaking, it can be very frustrating
And can end the relationship, in divorce or separation
Out of your despair, you succumb to temptation
Your need to be loved, becomes your obsession
A loveless life is causing your depression
The danger in that can be very destructive
When you become so lonely and seductive
When you’re ignored, or given very little of their time
It hurts you deeply, and they’re way out of line
They can be so selfish and tied up in themselves
And they fail to see, that you have needs as well
When they lose all interest in what you do
And snap at you, when there is no reason too
Or criticize everything you try to say
So you try to please, and ask them out for the day
They turn around angrily and say no way
Feeling betrayed, you start wishing they would go away
In tears not knowing which way to turn
Your heart is broken, because you’ve been spurned
From my own experience, I’ve suffered this pain
I called out to Jesus, praise God He came
Great is thy faithfulness, His mercy and His grace
I know now I’m so loved, I feel God’s embrace

© Natalie Price March 2009

NEIGHBOURS FROM HELL

The bible says love thy neighbour, easier said than done
We’ve all had neighbours that are not so nice, or a lot of fun
It’s nice to greet them with a smile, and be pleasant to one and other
After all the bible says, we’re all sisters and brothers
Neighbours’ from hell, if I can apply that term
Are not always so gracious, so I’ve learned
Cigarette butts thrown over the fence
I wish it was a classed, as a neighbourhood offence
Dead branches, cans and even their beer bottles
I don’t know about love, they nearly got throttled
Parents yelling and swearing at their kids
A trashcan would’ve come in handy, with a very strong lid
Worst to come; trying to talk them around, to have some peace
They threaten you with violence; you end up calling the police
Offensively angry, hot headed and unspeakably abusive
They’re now on your property and very intrusive
Obnoxious, badly behaved beings, is what I call these
If I was a pest control man, I’d get rid of these fleas
Don’t get me wrong, I do believe in love thy neighbour
But sometimes you need God to do you a very big favour
Pray for those that persecute you, as it’s the only way
Just keep on smiling and have a beautiful day

© Natalie Price March 2009
ALCOHOLISM IS A CURSE ON THE FAMILY

So you like having a beer hey, normally nothing wrong with that
It’s nice to relax, with friends and have a social chat
There is a time for everything and a place
So long as you keep it all in balance
And don’t get drunk and become a disgrace
For many years of living, with a very abusive alcoholic man
The years went by quickly, as you know they can
He use to smoke about fifty cigarettes a day
There was not much money in our house by the way
They can become very selfish in their own way of thinking
And they don’t care, about you or their drinking
It was very difficult to pay all our bills
I had to learn some good money management skills
The children suffered under his influence
Especially in his lack of incompetence
He spent money without taking any responsibility
We had arguments galore; he was in a rage of hostility
I tried so hard to advise him and hopefully he would understand
Resenting me even more, he was a very hateful man
He cursed and swore, he didn’t want his family anymore
Often he would make accusations and call me a whore
Whatever you do please think before you place a curse
Words are so powerful, it can happen to you, or even worse
Consequently our marriage did come to an end
Praise God it did, otherwise I would have been around the bend
My ex husband is now in a nursing home for the rest of his days
And he is only sixty two; I now feel sorry for him and pray
His health deteriorated at a very fast pace
He’s suffered many heart attacks, he is a bad case
Lying on his bed now and dreaming of what use to be
He loved to restore his cars, and the feeling of being free
Sadly he needs help now, both with toilet and showering
As he cannot walk at all, and finds this overpowering
I cannot help but feel, very sad in his situation
Every day he has to live, with this constant frustration
This is a warning; take heed of my words before it’s too late
Or you may be really sorry afterwards, if this is your fate

© Natalie Price March 2009

RELIGION SHOULD NOT BE FORCED

Religious beliefs can often cause conflict within the family
Often enough they are forced to believe unwillingly
Naturally parents take their young children to church with them
They need to learn about God, but not to be condemned
The bible says he who believes and is baptized will be saved
Forcing your children or anyone to believe is not okay
Individually we have to make that decision ourselves one day
If you force someone into doing something they are not ready for
Don’t be at all surprised, if they turn away from God forever more
Religious wars start, because of that mentality
In some countries overseas, you would feel their force of brutality
You must think that God is so narrow minded
That he needs your brutal force, which causes each one to be divided
God wants us to believe and have faith from own hearts
He doesn’t compel or used violence to impart
That should tell you something, not even God forces us to believe
He wants our love, so that we can receive
People did try hard, to force things down my neck
It got my back up, and I thought what the heck
I knew exactly when God was calling me
He made that very clear to me, you see
At that time, I was a very rebellious young lady
His Holy Spirit was working overtime, I said maybe
Very patient and kind, His gentleness reached my mind
Love and patience may take its time
But you will achieve much more, by being kind

© Natalie Price March 2009
MALICIOUS TREATMENT

Some malicious people can be very discriminating
If they had their way, you would be on their list of eliminating
You maybe a different colour, or a different race
They spit at you, as if you’re despicable disgrace
Sadly some people have learning and severe disabilities
Mocked and laughed at, with no regard to their sensitivity
This kind of cruel treatment can be very distressing
Not to mention demoralizing, but to their families depressing
It doesn’t matter if we’re different; God loves us all the same
And nobody has that right, to make anyone feel ashamed
Now days they would kill you, for having different beliefs
The atrocities they commit today, is almost of disbelief
Why would anyone want to be so rotten and full of evil?
There is only one answer to that and he is a weevil
The devil has no power, unless you give in to him
He’s a ruthless murderer, and tempts people to sin
Each time you speak out cruel and spiteful words
Remember God knows all things and He has heard
The mouth speaks, what overflows from the heart
If you’re friends with the devil, you’re not very smart

© Natalie Price March 2009

PEACE AND CONTENTMENT CAN BE YOURS

Most people don’t know what true peace can be like
But if you surrender to the Lord you will be alright
Contentment is something I never had, let alone peace
My mind was in turmoil, it just never ceased
Constant abuse can make you very sick in mind and body
Everything I tried to do was slapdash and shoddy
For some reason, nothing ever came together
I was always making changes like the weather
My state of mind was in confusion, and in bad shape
And I certainly wasn’t thinking at all straight
I quit before I could stick to any one thing
Backwards and forwards, I was like a swing
Stress was something I could not handle
My nerves were shot, I felt twisted and mangled
I got pretty angry one night with the Lord
It’s a wonder I didn’t end up on the floor
I cried, why should I believe you
Look what my life has been through
Not a very nice way to speak to any Father
But I was mad; I could have been Arthur or Martha
I had enough of feeling miserable day after day
And I was like a spoilt brat, I wanted my own way
Then I said; if you really do love me then prove it
That was truly stretching the relationship bit
I wanted true peace and contentment
And what I had in my heart was full of resentment
I gave my all and laid it down at the foot of the cross
My peace and contentment I have now, I’m no longer lost
He put on righteousness as armour
And the helmet of my salvation on my head
I only look in one direction now, and that is ahead

© Natalie Price March 2009

OUR CHILDREN HAVE A RIGHT TO BE LOVED

All children should be protected nurtured and loved
Not punched, kicked, criticise or shoved
Rejected as a child can affect all future friendships
Children need encouraging, too build healthy relationships
Constant criticism, causes self doubt and condemnation
What hope do they have, growing up on a rocky foundation?
Lack of self confidence, in your own abilities
Can stop you from advancing in your capabilities
As a child I was not encouraged to do well in school
My parents never had any time for me, at all
I went to eight different schools, that was not at all cool
Trying to catch up on lessons, I felt I was a fool
Making new friends did not help in anyway
They thought I was dumb, and would not let me play
Sitting in the play ground looking miserable and alone
I had given up, and I wanted to go home
When my parents moved to another state
They thought educating me, was a total waste
My self esteem went right down to the bottom of the barrel
I lost all my confidence; I felt no better than a feral
If you give your children praise, you’ll be amazed
They will thank you later for the way they were raised
God didn’t create a dud, when he made me who I am
Determined little madam, I never gave up; I’m part of a plan
I know longer say I can’t, because I know I can
The Lord gave me strength and a powerful boost
And the devil is shaking; I’m now on the loose

© Natalie Price April 2009

JEALOUSY IS A POWERFUL FORCE

Jealousy is a power force, some consider it a petty emotion
But when it gets out of hand, it does stir up a commotion
Some people suffer tremendous anguish, they become enraged
It can drive them to kill and go on a rampage
Letting your jealousy show, is a sure way to lose your dignity
Dismantles your self esteem, and you don’t function effectively
You ask of yourself, how do I get rid of the green eyed monster?
And stop your face looking like an angry red lobster
Take a good look at yourself, something needs to change
There is no point in becoming deranged and causing others pain
It will get you nowhere, except maybe put away
I know what it feels like, to be hurt by rejection
But dwelling on it, is like a nasty infection
You have to tell yourself to get rid of the attitude
It may save you’re relationship and you’ll be full of gratitude
Being possessive will only drive them away
Don’t be suspicious all the time, it’s not the way
Seek some help, before it’s too late
This will eat you away and will only breed hate
If you fear being alone, start to pray, and be sincere
Perfect love casts out all fear; you’ll feel His love as he comes near

© Natalie Price April 2009
STALKING IS A CRIME

Have you ever felt like you’re being watched and not alone?
It’s a dark old gloomy night; you stay close to the phone
Stalking threats can be phone calls and sexual innuendos
Or intrusive neighbours who tread on your toes
Network sites, text messages, and notes on your car
Nobody has the right to continually go that far
It may be a work colleague who constantly pervs
Hopefully they’re dismissed, they get what they deserve
Are you ever aware that you’re being followed?
It’s a scary thought, feeling full of sorrow
And wondering if you’re going to be around tomorrow
Threatening remarks, informing you to watch your back
Especially when you go home, along your dark old track
If you believe that you are under threat and suspect you will be harmed
Try and get some kind of protection, so at least you’re armed
Keep all emergency phone numbers close at hand
Advise the authorities and make some plans
A person being stalked often feels a sense of loss of control
It’s a dreadful feeling and it does take its toll
You feel like you have to change your behaviour
What you need is your Saviour
For God has not given you a spirit of fear
But of power, love with a sound mind and a keen ear to hear

© Natalie Price April 2009

ANY FORM OF CHILD ABUSE IS UNACCEPTABLE

Child abuse is a major concern in our society
Children suffer severely with many different forms of anxiety
Home is a place they like to bring friends
Not apologizing for all the rubbish, and odds and ends
Some homes today, are in disgraceful dirty mess
A home like this puts them under stress
Too embarrassed, to bring friends home
They make excuses, so they go home alone
Children have the right to be fed healthy meals
Some children are so hungry; it can force them to steal
Daily showering, clean clothing should be part of their every day care
Neglecting to do so, may result in them being taken away, in despair
Every child has the right to a be educated and must be sent to school
Failing to do this is illegal and breaking the school rules
Set an example and do not swear in front of your child
Why yell and scream it’s so vile, no wonder they end up going wild
God has given us a duty of care, do not fail them or beware
What you sow you will reap, and His laws we are to keep
Neglecting his children, is not good idea
In the end it will be you that will  be in fear

© Natalie Price April. 2009
MY MUMMY DOESN’T CARE

Mummy I’m hungry, but there is nothing in the fridge
The fruit is all rotten, except for the yucky old cabbage
There is nothing in the cupboard, except tomato sauce
And I’m so hungry, I could eat a horse
Mummy said there is no money left, to buy any food
Daddy spent the last we had on buying some booze
My clothes are all dirty and some need a mend
I’ve got no decent shoes, maybe I could get a lend
Our house it really smells, and I don’t  know why
It looks so dirty, and there are so many flies
Our toilet is messy and it’s got a yucky stink
The bath is always dirty and so is the sink
It looks like spew, it’s hard to tell
But it’s very green and it really smells
Daddy brings home ladies, that he calls chicks
And tells me not to say anything or I will get kicked
And when he is drunk, he gets really mean
He swears at me a lot, and tells me I’m not clean
Sometimes, there is this weird smell of smoke
And strange looking pipes, it makes me want to choke
I don’t know where my mummy goes
She doesn’t tell us, so nobody knows
My Mum has no time for me anymore
She gets all dressed up and goes out the door
So I spend most of my time alone
Until my Daddy decides to come on home
Nobody cares, I wish I had some friends
 I’m always in tears, I wish it would end

© Natalie Price April 2009

LOST IN HIS OWN WORLD OF SADNESS

His little eyes are full of anticipation for his daddy’s visit
So many promises are broken; because of the words he has spoken
His big brown eyes open wide; there is a knock at the door
When he runs to open it, his little heart sinks
Where is my Daddy, he starts to think
With tears in his eyes, rolling down his cheeks
It’s been a so long, and so many weeks
He misses his Dad, who he adores
But his Daddy does not feel the same, anymore
The weeks, they start to turn into many years
This little boy is all grown up now; he has shed all his tears
Lost in his own world of sadness
His love turned to anger and madness
As a grown man, he has become very hard
He has no love in his heart, he is scarred
This pitiful cycle in his life has carried on
His own kids suffer; they have no one but their mum
He finds it very different to have any emotion
All he does these days, is work to get a promotion
There is no love in his heart, for members of his family
His heart has hardened, and it breaks my heart sadly

© Natalie Price April 2009
SUSPICIOUS MIND

My parents had no trust in me, they always were very suspicious
Thinking you’re always up to something nasty or malicious
I guess I was not always completely honest; I had taken a few things
Most kids knock stuff off; I felt the hand of my Dad’s sting
Praise God I was not always like this, I felt very ashamed
It took me a long time to forgive myself, I had only myself to blame
In my life, I did many things; I can’t say I’m proud of
And for many years, I felt I was evil and unloved
My Dad molested me at an early age
This is no excuse; I rebelled and decided to rage
I’m not sure, if I was trying to pay my parents back
The darkness that surrounded me, looked so black
My mind was all mess up; these dark clouds would not go away
I certainly had no confidence, and nothing seem okay
Because of the lack of trust, my parents had in me
I was always trying to defend myself, nobody ever agreed
Being so defensive, you always feel under attack
Some people walk away and wonder where I’m at
It’s not good to be constantly suspicious of some one close to you
The damage that has been done, is in what you go through
This can be harmful and have adverse affects
The one thing you lose is you own self respect
It destroys your confidence in your own ability
You think you’re not untrustworthy, which breeds hostility

© Natalie Price April 2009
JUSTICE WILL BE DONE

The Lord is not too weak to save you
And he isn’t too deaf to hear your call
But you have closed the door
And don’t talk to him at all
The problem is in you
As you don’t hear him anymore
So God has turned the other way
Because you’ve refuse to listen and obey
You spend your time and energy
In plotting evil plans
You prey on small children
Defenceless little lambs
Cunning as a fox
You work out your evil plan
To catch these small children
Unaware if you can
Their pitiful cries
You’re so unaffected
And your mind is a blank
Completely defective
You roar like a hungry lion
Your victims mauled, in pain
Their innocence has been taken
And their tiny bodies have been slain
Violence is your trademark
Your teeth are like a shark
Devouring deep into their flesh
You are a despicable evil soul
And you will never find your rest
You will be repaid for your evil deeds
Along with devil and his miserable breeds

© Natalie Price April 2009
MALE RAPE

My heartbeat is racing, oh please not again
Leave me alone, where is your brain
This is hell man; I don’t want to be maimed
I trusted in you, as my companion and friend
Here I am handcuffed, this I cannot comprehend
You turned on me like a slimy snake
For crying out loud this is rape
We are two guys, how sick is this?
You miserable pimp, I will give you my fist
Kicked and punched to the floor
This rotten beast, then locks the door
When I first arrived, he gave me a drink
There must have been drugs, in it I think
My head was spinning I felt so sick
As I fell to the floor, he hit me with a whip
And then dragged me into his room
He forced himself on me, he felt like a broom
Incidents like these happen all over the world every day
Its abomination to God, to be this way and live life as a gay
Perverted and evil minded, disturbed human being
This wickedness will be destroyed, and he will be fleeing
The fury of the Lord, will obliterate this kind of scheming

© Natalie Price April 2009
THE BABYSITTER

Mummy I don’t like that new babysitter
She treats me horrid, and says mean things
Why does she look at me so strange?
And she watches me undress and change
I don’t like the way she touches me
When she sits me on her knee
And tells me a little story, it seems very rude to me
I was given something to eat, she said it was yummy
But it made me feel yucky in my tummy
Then I felt giddy and my head went funny
She takes all her clothes off around the house
Makes me do the same, and plays cat and mouse
I don’t like her games and the way she plays
Mummy, stay at home and send her away
Leaving your children with unregistered babysitters
Could be exposing your children to some pretty evil critters
Paedophiles have an easy access this way
Cold blooded and hard hearted, they should be put away
Predators can be very cunning and can give you fake references
Make sure you investigate them well, before making your preferences
If your child starts to freak out every time you go out
There could be something sinister going on, without a doubt
Your children have a right to be protected, loved and hugged
Leaving your child unprotected, is no way of showing your love
It leaves them wide open to sexual molestation, and the use of drugs

© Natalie Price April 2009

YOU DON'T HAVE TO CLAIM THE BLAME

Having a partner cheat on you
Is like getting kicked in the stomach
This act of unfaithfulness, it hurts you like crazy
And you wonder why, they've done it
Naturally I blamed myself for the infidelity
We often clashed, in our personalities
No matter what I did, it was always wrong
I knew I had to get over it, and become strong
I did feel angry, betrayed and emotionally gutted
You have to get rid of these feelings, it's just like clutter
Remember it's not always your fault
And you don't have to claim the blame
But it does affect you, and you never feel the same
I was made to feel guilty, and I just wanted to squeal
But really and truly, I was given a raw deal
In this act of betrayal, you lose all your trust
And it does take time to get over it, but you must
No one deserves to be treated this way
Love has to go both ways, if its not there say hooray
Do not let hate brew and fester inside of you
It's not at all healthy, for what you've been through
Forgiveness is not easy, as I know
But believe me for your sake; it's the only way to go

© Natalie Price April 2009
REJECTED, NEGLECTED AND SHOVED
SURELY THIS CANNOT BE LOVE


Life for this poor girl, is not good at home
She seeks friendship, because she is very much alone
Her mind in turmoil, and discarded by her friends
This young sad lass, wants to bring her life to an end
With the pressure of meeting the standards, of her school
She feels she has failed, and she thinks she is a fool
Struggling with grades and trying to do her best
She thinks her life is worthless, its one big mess
Her parents are so ashamed of her attainments
And sometimes they ridicule her as entertainment
Worst still, when friends or relatives, were invited over
Her parents use to tell them, that she was a no hoper
Feeling illiterate, really stupid and dumb
It was no happy party, or a lot of fun
No matter where she turns or where she goes
It’s the same old story she feels so low
In the school grounds, she pretends she is reading
Peeping over her book, her heart is bleeding
Watching all the other children laughing and playing
She sits alone and thinks of praying
Dear Lord, please can you make people like me, she pleads
I feel so lonely; they just walk away from me
My parents think I am pretty useless
And most of the time they think I’m a nuisance
My grades at school are very poor
I think that’s the reason, I am not liked anymore
Could you do something to help please, my life is shattered
And no one really cares; my life doesn’t really matter
Do you know what it feels like not to be loved?
It’s like you’re an infectious disease
Rejected, neglected and shoved
I pray dear Lord, please be there for me
Because I need a friend, my name is Natalie

© Natalie Price April 2009

PATHOLOGICAL MANIAC

You call you self a Christian,
But you’re more like a toilet system
Revolting in every sense of the word
You are one disgusting repulsive nerd
Your sexual behaviour, is deemed pathological
And your thinking is certainly not very logical
This is extremely abnormal, sexual desire
You’re enough to put out any fire
Your quote below, has left me in tears
Your brains must have rotted between both ears
“I know quality; half measures are not the same”
I dare you to say that in Jesus’ name
You pay lip service and have become so vile
Your heart is so corrupted and full of bile
As you stand in church and worship your God
Remember He knows you well, look out for his rod
Despicable in your perverted mind
You truly are one, of the devil’s kind
As you sit and prey on vulnerable women
Sweet talking them into believing, in your venom
Like a snake ready to strike your first victim
Your bite really sinks in, it wounds their heart within
You show no remorse, you speak with an evil tongue
For you it’s just a game and so much fun
It really amazes me, how people don’t see
The kind of man, you really have turned out to be
You used God to conceal your evil activities
Sexually perverse, with no sensitivity
Your heart is full of evil, watch out for your time is near
The wrath of God is coming, and then you will know fear

© Natalie Price April 2009
IT’S NOT RIGHT

It’s not right for us, or our parents to fight
Most times it can give us a horrible fright
Sadly most of us are guilty of this action
Unfortunately it’s not a good reaction
We raise our voices and sometimes scream
What it does to our children, is pretty mean
Constant arguments, is violating our kids
Then we try to teach them to forgive
Hypocrisy, start acting, instead of lip servicing
No wonder they turn into delinquents
They learn by example, so watch your speech
Remember they listen to what we preach
If you want their respect, we also have a duty to be
A good role model for them to see
Instead of obscenities, which they’ve heard
Give them a peaceful home, which is what they deserve

© Natalie Price April 2009

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