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This page is dedicated to poetry about abuse

The poems on this page have all been contributed by Natalie McDonnell (nee Price), herself a survivor of abuse.
In her poetry, she expresses the pain of abuse and her release from that abuse.
Through her poetry, she endeavours to encourage victims to seek the great help she has found in Christ.
Natalie,  may be contacted through this web site by using the CONTACT form.

Natalie's poems have now been broken up into multiple pages so as to reduce the size of each page.
Each page will now contain a maximum of 20 poems.
You can move from page to page by clicking on the page links to the left.

MY CHOICE IS TO REJOICE

Another beautiful day
Thank God you are
Lord in my life to stay
The sun is rising
As a new day dawns
When I think of my Lord
I feel so warm
Today I want to do
Something nice
Maybe cheer someone up
With some of
My home made rice
I look at life
So differently now
Gone are the days
Which were so foul
By changing my attitude
My heart became renewed
I live for each day
Because I have the comfort
In knowing Jesus is with me
All the way through
And there is always
Something new for me to do
Even just having chat
With someone like you
Time goes by very rapidly
So I try to make the
Best of it, very happily
All my sad experiences
Are gone and buried
I have a future
And I intend to be merry
My mind is
So much stronger
Without the stress
I will live much longer
Because I’m blessed
We do have a choice
And mine is to rejoice

© Natalie Price May 2009

SO MUCH TO THANK YOU FOR

Oh my Lord
I have so much
To thank you for
You called my name
When I was in the pit
And held out your hand
You told me not to quit
More determined
Than ever
With you by my side
There was hope at last
So I got rid of my pride
Breaking down
The barriers that stood
Between you and me
Releasing me
From my burdens
Your grace and mercy
Set me free
The kind of love
That you give
Is so amazing
In the way
You forgive
Almighty God
Your love for us
Was given
Through your Son
My gift back to you
Is my heart
That Jesus won

© Natalie Price May 2009
LEAN ON JESUS

There are times
When we do not
Feel at ease
Our worries
And concerns
Seem so heavy
It’s like we are
Being squeezed
Your home may
Not be a sanctuary
Of peace
And everything
Is closing in on you
And all you want is
Your freedom
To be released
We must take
Our first step in faith
It’s either that
Or we break
Courage to do
What is best for you
Means you are making
A positive move
Why allow yourself
To be persecuted
By the scum of the earth
So evil and polluted
The Bible teaches us
To be strong
And of good courage
Don’t stay
In a situation
Where you are
Being discouraged
Don’t be afraid
You will not be
Betrayed
If you lean on Jesus
And let him have
His way

© Natalie Price May 2009
WHY SHOULD I CARE

Hey mum I want to go
Late night shopping
Don’t say no
Because there
Is no stopping
My friends
Want me there
No matter
What you say
I don’t care
How about
Some cash
If you don’t
Hand it over mum
I will go and get
Smashed
Dad is a drunk
He smells
Like a skunk
Why would
I want to stay home
I rather be
On the streets
And roam
I get better food
When I steal
The filth I get here
Is not even a meal
My clothes are stiff
And pong that much
You sure wouldn’t
Want a whiff
The house is
Full of rubbish
And it stinks like
Rotten old fish
No wonder I want
To get out of here
And live a new life
And disappear
Why should I care
All you do is
Yell at me and swear

© Natalie Price May 2009

EVERLASTING FATHER

I am deeply shocked
My life turned upside down
I wish the earth would
Swallow me
Under the ground
How did this happen
And why
This is so hard to except
Now all I do is cry
My foundation
Has been shattered
Life for me
Does not matter
The Dad
That I thought was mine
I found out today was a lie
Part of me has died
All these years gone by
I have been denied
Of being told the truth
Until now
That I’m a youth
My Mum
Refuses to answer
She says it’s all in the past
It’s eating within me
Like a cancer
It’s so hard for me to grasp
Where is my real Dad
And where can I find him
I’m am so sad
I feel really bad
Some one told me today
About my true heritage
In heaven
One that could never
Be taken away
Praise God
My everlasting Father
Will never go away

© Natalie Price May 31st, 2009

SCARED TO LOVE AGAIN

I’m so sick
Of being heartbroken
Time after time
When will it ever end
I have to move on
And get my life
On the mend
I’m almost to scared
To love again
I’ve met so many
Unscrupulous men
They only want
A good time
Usually sex
And some wine
None of them
Take me seriously
And can act
Very maliciously
They think
It’s their right
To use
And abuse you
Then take
What they can
With all
Their demands
Being strong
In saying no
Is probably the only
Way that I should go
I must learn
To stand up for myself
Or it will
Affect my health
Somewhere out there
There is a man that cares
I just have to be patient
And give it to the
Lord In prayer

© Natalie Price June 2009

CONNECTING IS WHAT IT’S ABOUT

Cherishing your loved ones
Their worth is priceless
Every day is precious
And you are blessed
We are like a puzzle
So beautifully connected
And when one is hurting
We all become affected
Love is given freely
No cost involved
I thank God very dearly
For all my
Family and friends
They're such a blessing
Without them I would
Go around the bend
Even though at times
We all step out of line
It gives us an opportunity
To work together in unity
But at the end of the day
We have each other
And in God’s eyes
He says, we are all
Sisters and brothers
No one is really alone
There is always someone
That will make you
Feel at home
Even if you think
Life is not fair
We are here
And really do care
God’s love is a gift
A blessing that is shared

© Natalie Price June 2009
DON’T LET FEAR CONTROL YOU

Don’t let fear control you
No matter what your
Circumstances are
If fear controls
Everything you do
The devil has full
Control over you
My youngest son
Feared going to jail
As there are
Many sick males
He believed he would
Be sexually attacked
This happens in jail
And that is a fact
For two years
He hid himself in fear
And did not work
Or claim the dole
He sure was
Stuck in a hole
His self esteem
Went down the drain
In his world
He was going insane
I tried hard to talk
Some sense into him
His life was
Full of hopelessness
Misery and sin
Eventually he was caught
His life was over
So he thought
The judge was kind
My son was only fined
Fear destroys and robs
You of your joy
Turn to Jesus
And you will see
Satan has no power
And will definitely flee

© Natalie Price June 2009

THINK BEFORE YOU DO THE DEED

A new baby on the way
But you’re not happy
And it will not go away
Taking responsibility
For this new life
May involved
In you taking
A new wife
This is something
You did not expect
But it’s not fair
On the child
If you have any regrets
How would you
Like to feel rejected
Without being loved
And accepted
Your baby has needs
If you did not want
The child in the first place
You shouldn’t have
Done the deed
A new baby is a joy
Not something to stuff
Away as a toy
From the moment
Of conception
Your baby
Needs affection
A seed of love
Is planted in the womb
Nurturing your baby
With love
Will grow and bloom
This is well away
From the gloom and doom

© Natalie Price June 2009
BE CAREFUL DON’T GET BURNT

Flaunting your body
Is not a good idea
People start looking
At you very weird
You may think you’re secure
But you could be in danger
Of being lured
And before you realize it
You’re running in fear
Be careful don’t get burnt
Hopefully this is
Something you’ve learnt
Wisdom comes with maturity
Or you could end up
Losing your purity
In today’s society
It’s become fashionable
To bare it all
But the danger in that
Is you’re most likely to fall
Your body is precious
And your true beauty
Is within you
This is a reflection
Of the real you
Self respect gives honour
To your body
But acting brazen
You become shoddy
Putting yourself in a position
To be sexually molested
Causes others to sin into temptation
This is a serious violation
Think about the way you dress
Who do you really want to impress
We also have an obligation
And that is setting an example
For the next generation

© Natalie Price June 2009

PROTECTION IS BETTER THAN INFECTION

A nasty rash
What could it be
It’s so sore and
Inside of me
I feel so sick
It hurts so much
I wonder
If it happened
When I was touched
I should have listened
What I’ve been taught
These look awful
Horrible looking warts
My boyfriend refuses
To take any advice
He says it’s like
Wearing a raincoat
And it’s not nice
Protection is better
Than infection
If I become pregnant
I can pass it on
To my baby
And it just
Goes on and on
I know there are many
Serious diseases
I’m sick of
My boyfriend’s attitude
Wanting unprotected sex
As he pleases
He just laughs at me
And sometimes swears
Consideration
Shows that you care
I need to get rid
Of this guy
Because sometimes
These diseases
Can cause you to die

© Natalie Price June 2009

I’M NOT YOUR POSSESSION

You don’t own me
I’m not your possession
I may be your wife
But this is an obsession
Everywhere I go
You have to know
My life is not my own
And I don’t feel
This is my home
Jealously is a curse
You even go to the
Great lengths
Of checking my purse
I feel I’m being watched
Even when I go out
It’s so depressing
I just want to shout
My friends you interrogate
And my family you hate
This marriage will end
Or I will go
Around the bend
Partners should
Trust each other
And be there for
One another
But you make
My life a misery
And my decision
To leave will be
Done very easily
Don’t intimidate
Me anymore
And don’t ever again
Call me a whore
Or I will go out
Through that door
Never to return
Forevermore

© Natalie Price June 2009
CHANGE YOUR LIFESTYLE
BEFORE IT DESTROYS YOU


It’s not cool to do drugs
The types you meet
Are usually thugs
Marijuana
Affects the brain
And can lead to
Far more Serious
Drug use like cocaine
Your confidence
Is affected
Then you start
To feel rejected
Society shuns you
Your family suffers
For what you put
Them through
Your health is under
Serious threat
Anxiety sets in
And you really
Start to sweat
Long term
Drug use
Is serious
Many users
Become delirious
It can lower the
Sperm count
In males
And increase
The risk
Of infertility
In females
Reduces
Your sex drive
And you
May not survive
Change your lifestyle
Before it
Destroys you
Your life
Can be worthwhile
You need
To make changes
It’s well overdue

© Natalie Price June 2009

TIME GOES VERY FAST

In my quite time
Reflecting over the past
My tears of joy and sadness
I realized time
Was going very fast
My life has changed
Since I gave
My heart to the Lord
God fills my days
So I am never bored
My children I love dearly
But I do not see
That much of them really
They have their lives
And they’re growing in size
I know they care
But they have
Their families to rear
But as you grow older
And you’re on your own
It can be a lonely life
I don’t like being alone
I think about
All the precious
Times we shared
And also all the times
My kids were scared
The Lord has made
Me strong and taught me
Where I was wrong
Many mistakes I’ve made
And I’ve felt really afraid
God gave me a purpose
I’m certainly not worthless
I think back to the time
When I was lost
If it wasn’t for Jesus
Dying on the cross
I can’t imagine
What my life would be
Praise God he set me free

© Natalie Price June 2009
GOD WAS WITH US ALL THE WAY

My Dad walked out
When we were kids
My Mum fell to pieces
She turned to alcohol
The pain and suffering
Increases
Mum was beside
Herself and didn’t
Know where to start
All she knew was
That her family
Was being destroyed
And torn apart
Mum couldn’t handle it
I was the oldest of
Five brothers but
Thank God we did
Have one another
It was hard going
As money was scarce
But I knew I had to
Keep things flowing
My family was
Depending on me
I could not let them
Down you see
I now look back
On the past
The responsibility
Was a big task
And my Dad still
Does not have
Much to do with us
But I thank God
That my family
Still had me
That they could trust
I believe to this day
That God was with us
All they way
His purpose and plan
Made me into a
Responsible man
My family means
Everything to me
And that is how
All families should be

© Natalie Price June 2009

PLEASE DON’T HATE ME DAD

Dad why have you
Rejected me because
I’m a sick child
It’s not my fault I was
Born like this
You treat me so vile
I feel I’m useless
With no worth at all
You smack me around
The head and throw me
Against the wall
Please don’t keep
Telling me how much
You hate the way I am
I do try to please you
Anyway I can
But the more I try
You call me bad names
Tell me it’s my fault
And I’m to blame
Growing up this way
Is so hard on me
I pray for the day
That you will go away
Then I’ll feel safe and free

© Natalie Price June 2009
BE AWARE OF THE WARNING SIGNS

Sometimes in a relationship
A partner does not share
Their true feelings
And can be very secretive
In their dealings
They appear that they care
But in fact behind your back
They’re having an affair
Be aware of the warning signs
Watch and listen
Hear what they’re saying
Between the lines
You realize that
Their interest in you
Is getting less and less
In what you do
Especially when they
Stay away from home
At another address
Suddenly you find
They rather go out
Without you
And work longer
Hours than usual
They’re full of excuses
Communication and
Lack of interest
In doing things with you
Can tell you so much
You know
You’re almost through
My advice to you
Is to let them go
That kind of relationship
Will never grow
Give yourself a chance
You may find someone new
It’s better than suffering
All the hurt and pain
That they will
Put you through

© Natalie Price June 2009
AVOID ALL ARGUMENTS IF YOU CAN

Jumping to conclusions
Sometimes its not
What they’re thinking
It can often fire up a big fight
Causing the other person
To start drinking
Think before you speak
They may be under stress
And very weak
All it needs is a trigger
And a little argument
Can turn bigger
People have been
Known to snap
They become unbalanced
And then they crack
Try being tolerant
When you need answers
Or it will get on their nerves
And you may get something
You really don’t deserve
It’s a good idea to take
Note of mood swings
As you never know
When you open up
A hornet’s nest
What it will bring
Your children
Learn and listen
To what you say
This is their base
So start today
Home is where
They learn respect
You do have
A duty of care
This is something
You don’t
Want to regret
Avoid all arguments
If you can
A peaceful home
Is what God has planned

© Natalie Price June 2009

BETRAYED BY HIS BROTHER

What a nightmare
Two brothers
They were very close
To one another
Torn apart by infidelity
I pray to God
It doesn’t turn into
A fatality, the hatred
That is brewing
My youngest son is stewing
His partner destroyed
Any trust that was
Between them
She slept with his brother
Because she
Was keen on him
Now she is pregnant
Believing its my
Eldest son’s child
He will be sorry
Because this sin is so vile
This is not the first time
She had done an act
Of this kind
My son wanted to die
Because of her
Disloyalty and lies
He use a razor blade
To cut his wrist
Praise God
He didn’t succeed
And that he missed
Naturally this burden
Will be hard for him to bare
When he finds out the truth
He will go off
His brain and swear
At the moment he still thinks
This child belongs to him
This is an evil act of betrayal
By his brothers wicked sin
And his brother  does not want
The responsibility of this baby
So he wants his
Younger brother to believe
It was through his seed
This child was conceived

© Natalie Price June 2009

HIS MIND SO TWISTED
THROUGH CHILD ABUSE


Twisted through lies and jealously
So corrupt in his thinking
He does it so viciously
When he is destroying lives
He actually thrives
The heart of this man
Is very sick
So many times he
Was punch and kicked
Abused from a small child
He has become
Insanely sick
It’s like he wants to hurt
His family for every
Painful hit
But not only us
In all mankind
He has lost his trust
With no true friends
He has a heart of revenge
The love he has received
Is thrown back at us
So we grieve
Many times, we’ve tried
But he breaks all our hearts
And the family cries
None of us know
What to do
He is not only hurting us
But himself too
All I can do is give this
To the Lord
And pray to God
This curse on his life
Is broken off
By the Lord’s sword
Abuse can destroy
A person’s mind
Prayer is the only hope
For this kind of crime
Bitterness and hate
Will predict his fate
Prayer is what is needed
Before it’s too late

© Natalie Price June 2009