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This page is dedicated to poetry about abuse

The poems on this page have all been contributed by Natalie McDonnell (nee Price), herself a survivor of abuse.
In her poetry, she expresses the pain of abuse and her release from that abuse.
Through her poetry, she endeavours to encourage victims to seek the great help she has found in Christ.
Natalie,  may be contacted through this web site by using the CONTACT form.

Natalie's poems have now been broken up into multiple pages so as to reduce the size of each page.
Each page will now contain a maximum of 20 poems.
You can move from page to page by clicking on the page links to the left.

ABUSING FRIENDSHIP

Help people
To help themselves
Especially when
They complain all the time
That they’re not very well
You can easily fall
Into their world of despair
They are so negative
And think everything in life
Treats them unfair
My friend is like this
And she really insists
That I give her my time
She drives me crazy
But I can’t be unkind
Her family have
Had enough
She thinks they
Treat her rough
But she uses
Everyone to suit
Her selfish needs
And she will not
Help herself
And try to succeed
Her life has become
Sad and miserably grim
But I refuse to give in
To her every whim
There are many
Forms of abuse
If you let yourself
Be used
Then you are
Being abused

© Natalie Price June 2009
I WAS BLINDED BUT NOW I DO SEE

The mirror reflects our image
And what is in our heart
Reflects what is in us
We are all made in
God’s image
And our Lord
Wants our trust
The enemy is evil
But his power is
Smaller than a weevil
If we give in to him
Our lives will
Become full of sin
The devil will tempt us
To do wrong
But the Lord wants us
To stay strong
Our children
Family and friends
Are like precious gems
When we lose
Respect for ourselves
We are hurting them
And sometimes
We don’t realize
That we do offend
Over the years
I have had to learn
To think before I speak
I used to blabber everything out
 But it didn’t help anyone
Who was weak
When I think back
To how I used to act
I realize now how
Hurtful I could be
But I was so blinded
By my own actions
I just couldn’t see
My relationships
Suffered one by one
And in the end
I had no one
Spiteful words can cut
Into a person’s heart
If you refuse to change
It will be you
Who will fall apart

© Natalie Price June 2009

REBUILDING YOUR LIFE

Letting things eat into you
Will cause you more pain
Than you need to go through
When I was called foul names
It hurt me so much and sometimes
I thought I was to blame
Thinking about it made me cry
Because of all the hurtful lies
It took a long time
For me to adjust
I knew I had to end
My relationship
Rebuilding my life
Was a must
Regaining my confidence
And moving on
I knew I had to do this
To remain strong
I turned to the Lord
And his amazing grace
He saved my life
And he took my disgrace
Today as I look back
On how far I’ve come
I never thought it possible
Praise God for his Son
When I learnt to let go
And let God into my life
He showed me the way
To get rid of the strife
If we have no hope
There is nothing
To look forward too
And nothing to pursue
No purpose for living
Now I am overjoyed
With love and thanksgiving

© Natalie Price June 2009
IN HER MOTHER’S EYES
SHE WAS DESPISED

A little girl with
Big blue eyes
Looks up to her mother
And starts to cry
Shut up you little horror
Or I’ll smack you in the face
The mother yells
At this little girl
And tells her she is nothing
But useless disgrace
Tears roll down her cheeks
She looks so pathetic and weak
There is not much flesh
On her bones
I couldn’t help wondering
What her life was like at home
Her little hand
Reached out to her mother
She was slapped really hard
And told not to bother
What a shame to see the sadness
In this little girl’s eyes
You could see
By the mother’s actions
She was deeply despised
Foul language and resentment
Filled this woman’s heart
She certainly lacked contentment
This child’s life was falling apart
It’s a very difficult situation
Unless you’re family or a relation
To step in and take control
And stopping this woman
From destroying this child’s soul
There is no reason or logical excuse
That this small child
Deserves this kind of abuse

© Natalie Price June 2009

BELITTLED AND REJECTED BY HIS WIFE

Made to feel
Like he’s not a man
Belittled every time
He tries to make plans
When he shows his love
And tries to please
He gets the cold shoulder
And told to leave
You can see the hurt
And pain in his eyes
No longer can he trust
Because of her lies
All his support and money
He gives to his wife
She takes it all from him
Not caring about his life
Most nights he spends
In bed alone
Where is his wife
On the streets she roams
Disheartened
And full of despair
He knows his wife
No longer cares
Years of hard work
Building their home
Their family all grown up
And now he is alone
He contemplates suicide
And breaks down and cries
God has heard
The cry of his heart
And reaches out in time
To give this man
A brand new start
And tells him he will be fine
The Lord shows his mercy
With all his love and grace
Now he can walk in his light
And sing his Amazing grace

©  Natalie Price June 2009
I WISH I HAD THE ANSWERS

A hard day’s work is done
I am so tired and the
Night has not even begun
It would be lovely
To just go home and rest
But knowing my wife
The place is in a mess
She is not bothered
About the way I feel
I don’t even get
A nice hot meal
The washing
Needs doing
And the ironing
Never gets done
My wife
She doesn’t go to work
And I’m so fed up and
Nearly going berserk
I don’t want to argue
But this is no fun
I’ve tried so hard
To get through to her
But we end up fighting
And back
To the way we were
Our marriage
Is on rocky ground
If we keep going on this way
Our problems will compound
We have no children as yet
I have to think twice
Or just accept
Maybe she will change
As time goes on
But already I feel
This is not my home
Or where I want to belong
As far as I can see
Our marriage
Is based on rejection
With no love for me
At night when we go to bed
I might as well
Be a lump of lead
Divorce is a big step to take
I wish I had the answers
Before it’s too late

© Natalie Price June 2009

WE MUST NOT LOSE OUR VISION OF HOPE

We all have a vision of hope
Our ideals may be different
But we know we must cope
And in a world of so much sin
It’s hard to know where to begin
Most of us learn to survive
In many countries of this world
People are so poor they die
It’s hard for us to imagine
The kind of life they have
No health care or clean water
And most of their clothes
Are filthy rags
Food is scarce
With little or no nutrition
And they live in such
Dirty and cold conditions
Australia is
An awesome country
But sadly to say 
We have many homeless
People living the same way
It makes you wonder
Who is to blame and should
We feel somewhat ashamed
Our health system is going down
With not enough doctors
To go around
Job security is a concern
So many people don’t know
Where to turn
Work hours have been cut back
Many people have lost
Their homes and already
Have started to crack
Life savings have been lost
For them it’s been
A very high cost
The world is full of greed
There are many
Homeless and hungry people
Living in desperate need
We must not lose our
Vision of hope
If we look to Jesus
He will help us cope

©  Natalie Price June 2009

SYLVIA’S STORY

Sylvia’s story should be told
It started when she was
About five years old
A beautiful child
With an extraordinary voice
She sang like an Angel
But she had no choice
Her mother was a
Domineering woman
And her biggest fan
Her Dad stood by
And didn’t stand
Up like a man
Sadly she forced this child
Onto the stage
Inside Sylvia it was like
A volcano ready to rage
Sylvia was a mental mess
As I watched her go through it
It put me under stress
For years her mother
Pushed her into the lime light
It always ended up in a fight
Sylvia was punched black blue
If she didn’t do what
She was told too
A talented lady who could
Draw and paint beautifully
Her memory was amazing
And her audiences
Filled the air with praising
Sylvia’s life has been so sad
In and out of mental institutions
She really became insane and mad
If it had not of been for her mother
She would have had an amazing career
Instead of showing her love
This child she lived in fear

© Natalie Price June 2009
HATE AND BITTERNESS
CAN DETERMINE YOUR DESTINATION


Being accused of something
You didn’t do
It’s not a nice feeling
To go through
And trying to prove
Your innocence
Can be a nightmare
And unbelievably stressful
Especially when you know
Someone else is responsible
And you’re taking the rap
When you know you’ve
Been set up in a trap
This happened to me
It hit me like a big blow
Many years ago
My mother in law
Used me for personal gain
People lost respect for me
Because they thought
I was to blame
Years of bitterness
And hate was shown to me
It hurt so much
I just wanted to flee
The sad part is
I thought we were friends
But she hated me
Until death took her in the end
I’m not sure
If she went to the Lord
But I hope and pray
She took the right door
Hate and bitterness
Can determine your destination
And can take away your salvation
It can destroy your soul
If you choose the wrong goals

© Natalie Price June 2009
SOME PEOPLE TAKE
THINGS FOR GRANTED


Lovingly preparing
A beautiful meal
But my efforts were wasted
And he didn’t care
How I would feel
Insulted by his nasty words
I wish he had shut his mouth
And I hadn’t heard
Some people don’t appreciate
What they receive
They take everything for granted
And I really feel peeved
I don’t like the feeling of anger
But at times I’ve almost
Wanted to become a strangler
Malicious words cut like a knife
Just as well I didn’t
End up being his wife
I really tried to be nice
But nothing I said was ever right
I did everything to please
Washing, cooked and cleaned
But it didn’t make a difference
He was always mean
When we went out
You can bet your sweet life
Without a doubt
We would end up in a fight
He would always say
I was wrong and he was right
Believe me my face was blue
By the end of the day
I was through
This was torture I didn’t need
As far as I was concerned
He could eat somewhere else
And get his feeds
I was fed up being
Used and abused
My personality was changing
Because I almost blew a fuse

© Natalie Price June 2009

IS HE BEING UNFAITHFUL

Patiently waiting
By the phone
Hoping your man
Will call your home
He hasn’t called
Like he promised
I often wonder
If he is being honest
Maybe there is another
Woman involved
For my peace of mind
I need this solved
There is good reason
To be suspicious
If there is any truth
In what I believe
Then he really is
Being malicious
So many different stories
Maybe they’re pack of lies
At least my eyes are open
And I’m becoming wise
He does go out with his mates
Then he is home extremely late
But there’s never time for us
That’s why I’m losing my trust
It would be nice
To know where I stand
The last thing I want
Is another deceitful man
Weekends come
But he never asks me
To have any fun
He always makes other plans
And I’m the kind of woman
That doesn’t make any demands
I’ve made myself available
Whenever he needed me
But it’s becoming very obvious
That he wants me to let him be
If he’s being unfaithful
Then I’ve been a bunny and used
And he is very ungrateful

© Natalie Price June 2009

A DONKEY HAS MORE CLASS

How dare he
Yell at me and shout
Cursing and swearing like a lout
Who does he think he is
With that filthy tongue of his
Calling me names that
I don’t deserve
How nasty and vicious
He sure has a nerve
His breath smells
Like a dead old carcass
Full of gas
Even a donkey has more class
He spends his time
Bullying people around
And putting everyone down
I wish he would move on
Hopefully very fast
He’s a creep and I hope
He sows what he reaps
Even when I go to the shops
All hell breaks loose
When he pops up
I wish someone would
Give him a boot
And tell him to scoot
He smokes dope
Boozes when he chooses
The stench of him just oozes
He’s always looking for handouts
What he needs is a jolly good clout
The only hope that he has
Is to turn his life around
Start and pray to Jesus
And get his life
Back off the ground

©  Natalie Price June 2009

WOUNDED HEART CUT IN TWO

Wounded heart cut in two
The love of my life
Has somebody new
He doesn’t love her
The way I do
I need her so much
And yearn for her touch
This agony within me
Is like hell I’m going through
I pray to God Almighty
That he will help me too
At times I feel life without her
Is not worth living
Dear Lord, help me
To be far more forgiving
I’m trying hard to understand
But I know in my heart
This is not her man
Clouds of darkness
Are trying to consume me
This torment in my mind
Will not let me be
But I will never give in
Until the love
Of my life is totally free
My faith in God
In this victory will win
And bury the past
That is so full of sin

©  Natalie Price June 2009
BEWARE OF SO CALLED FRIENDS

I often wonder why
People treat me the wrong way
When friends come here to stay
I treat them with kindness
And hope everything is okay
But then when they leave
They seem peeved
And not interested in
My friendship anymore
I’ve often wondered
Why this happens
Their friendship ended
When they walked
Out of my door
It’s like out of sight
Out of mind
You’re not my kind
And not needed anymore
Believe me it hurts
Especially after ironing
So many shirts
True friendship is a gift
So why give it up
When you shift
My true friends
I’ve had for years
We’ve shared so much
Between all our tears
And I know we will
Always be there
For one another
I feel nearly as
Close to them
As I did my brother
Making new friends
Can be a wonderful
And beautiful experience
But when you meet
The wrong kind
It can certainly
Change your mind
And give you an
Ugly appearance

© Natalie Price June 2009

THE TRAUMA OF IT ALL

The trauma of abuse
Leaves a dirty residue
On the soul and it seems
To go on forever
However there is hope
And don’t take the attitude
By saying never
All through my life
I have been abused
It really hurts when
You know
You’re being used
I have found strength
Through all
These experiences
Refusing to give up
In perseverance
I use all the gifts
That God has given me
To continue to focus
And believe
Accept the Lord
And receive
My faith in God
Keeps me going
And the Holy Spirit
Keeps me flowing
But if I shut the door
My circumstances
Would be worse
Than they
Ever were before
It’s all up to us
To take hold
Of what powers
We’ve been given
The first step
In the right direction
Is to accept
That we’ve been forgiven

© Natalie Price June 2009

WHEN YOU FEEL UNLOVED

These nagging thoughts
In the back of my mind
Sometimes they
Drive me crazy
But most of the time
I’m fine
When you have
Felt unloved
As long as I have
Deep inside you feel
This barrenness
It pulls you right down
You feel like you’re
In this deep blue sea
With nowhere to go
But drown
I dream of being loved
With lots
Of beautiful hugs
The men I’ve met
Fill your head
With lies
And get what they want
And then they fly
You’re discarded
Like an old toy
They’ve had
Their fun to enjoy
I’ve come
To one conclusion
Enjoy my life
The best way I can
Even without
The love of a man
One day I will find
A true friend
One that will
Stick around
To the very end

©  Natalie Price June 2009
DISHEARTENING TO WATCH

It’s very disheartening
To see someone you love
Abusing themselves
Watching them daily
Physically destroying
Their bodies to a point
Where they’re unwell
It’s heartbreaking
They become victims
Of their own making
Selfishness seems to
Rule their mind
And they don’t care
About the way you feel
They just tell you
Everything is fine
I’ve had to endure
Watching an ex husband
Suffer because
He didn’t want to hear
And closed his ears
My two sons
Became drug users
Now they have
Become abusers
Their own bodies
Are afflicted because
They’ve become addicted
The people who
Really get hurt are those
Who love them
We suffer inside
Our tears keep flowing
This is something
We cannot hide
It is so cruel and to
All those that love you
Please think about the anguish
That you are putting
Others through
Life isn’t just all about you
God sees us in the same way
It breaks his heart
When we push Him away
He gave us this precious
Gift of life
If we don’t look after it
It cuts God’s heart
With a knife

© Natalie Price June 2009

I GUESS MY WORTH
IS NOT TO BE ADMIRED


My heart has been
Crushed once again
I’ve been made to
To feel like a nobody
And I’ve lost my friend
I put my heart and soul
Into making things work
But all he did was
Walk away in the end
He has a very influential job
But I don’t fit into his world
They’re a different mob
I am retired now
Because of health reasons
But that doesn’t mean
To say I useless and dumb
But I’ve been made to feel
Like I’m just worthless scum
He told me things would
Be different if he was retired
I guess my worth
Is not to be admired
People can be so cruel
But really and truly
I’ve been a fool
Allowing myself
To trust this guy
But all he’s done
Has used me and lied
And said goodbye

© Natalie Price June 2009
A FALSE TONGUE IS FULL OF LIES

People change
Like the seasons
And do it so rapidly
Without good reason
One moment
You’re told
Beautiful words
To your ears
The next moment
They don’t want
A bar of you
Or to be near
You’re used for a time
And then pushed
Out of their mind
It can get
Very confusing
With this kind
Of abusing
Your trust
Gets badly shaken
You feel as if
You’re forsaken
Integrity and loyalty
Seems to have
Become less
These days
If what you say
Has no meaning
Why bother
To be demeaning
Sincerity is hard to find
Please Lord
Never let me be      
That unkind
I would hate to think
I’ve been responsible
In hurting
A person’s heart
And mind
A false tongue
Is full of lies
In the end you
Will suffer
And be despised

© Natalie Price June 2009

WRONG DECISIONS
CAN CHANGE YOUR PATH


There is no room
For me in his life
Words like that
Can cut your heart
With a knife
Love is all
About giving
And to find
True love
You need to do
A lot of sieving
One bad mistake
Can change your
Life forever
It’s up to us
To endeavour
And choose
Wisely a mate
Instead
Of unwisely
Or it could
Be too late
All hell
Can break loose
Of a life of abuse
If you don’t think twice
You’re very existence
May not be so nice
I’ve made many
Wrong decisions
That changed my path
To a miserable life
Full of wrath
This admission
Is a warning to you
It’s been a hell
Of a life
That I’ve been through

© Natalie Price June 2009