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This page is dedicated to poetry about abuse

The poems on this page have all been contributed by Natalie McDonnell (nee Price), herself a survivor of abuse.
In her poetry, she expresses the pain of abuse and her release from that abuse.
Through her poetry, she endeavours to encourage victims to seek the great help she has found in Christ.
Natalie,  may be contacted through this web site by using the CONTACT form.

Natalie's poems have now been broken up into multiple pages so as to reduce the size of each page.
Each page will now contain a maximum of 20 poems.
You can move from page to page by clicking on the page links to the left.

GET RID OF THIS THUG
GIVE YOUR CHILDREN A HUG

We cannot do
Anything in our
Own strength
If we think we can
Than we have minds
Like cement
Hard as rock
That cannot be
Penetrated
This is sad
For so many
Because it’s like
They’re desecrated
If you want to
Help yourself
You must listen
To sound advice
Get rid of
This violation
It’s not very nice
Your home is not
A secured place
Anymore
The kids
Want to leave
And go out
The door
They seek
Security and love
This man
You are with
Gives them a shove
Get rid of the drugs
Get rid of this thug
Think of your
Children and
Give them a hug

© Natalie Price September 2009

BE AWARE CRAZY
PEOPLE EVERYWHERE

There are crazy
People everywhere
Our children need
To be prepared
Therefore we must
Teach them
About the powers
Of this kind of evil
Satan lurks in
Dark shadows
Causing so much
Upheaval
Stranger danger
We’re all
Endangered
Young and old alike
You never know
Where they’ll strike
We don’t necessarily
Have to live in fear
But just be aware
That this is evil is near
The Holy Spirit
Is our Comforter
Our peace within
Is what he brings
He teaches us
All things
And gives us
Wisdom 
To understand
So that we can
Live in safety
Upon this land
The devil attacks
But God reacts
His power is mighty
We give our praise
To our Lord Almighty

© Natalie Price September 2009

SATAN IS THE DECEIVER

The thief comes to kill
Steal and destroy
And to take away
All our joy
He knows our areas
Of weakness
Its there he plots
To defeat us
Every chance he gets
He is like a virus
That infects
Our minds are where
The devil connects
How do we combat
This kind of attack
Where the devil
Moves in and
Takes you off track
The only way
That I know how
Is to sing out to
The Lord and
He will show you how
Trusting in God
Is our only hope
Or the devil will
Take over
And push us
Down the slope
It doesn’t take much
To tempt us away
Just a few words
The devil can
Have his way
Satan is a deceiver
He wants to destroy
The believer

© Natalie Price September 2009

LETTING GO OF THE PAST

Rebuke the ugliness of sin
Your fears will be released
And a new life will begin
I had to come to the place
Where I would
Receive God’s grace
It took fifty eight years
Through my own
Rebelliousness
Shedding many tears
My heart had
Become hardened
It was hard for me
To understand that
I could be pardoned
Letting go of the past
Was not an easy task
I had to learn to
Forgive myself
I felt like a worthless
Cheap old ornament
Left on the shelf
Some people
Really enjoy
Putting you down
They actually enjoy
Shoving you harder
Into the ground
The first change
I had to make was
To put my trust in God
And believe that
I was loved
I’m so happy now
It makes you want
To shout
It’s the best thing
I ever did
Without a doubt

© Natalie Price September 2009

GOD HAS HEARD OUR CRIES

Darkness fills our home
We hate being there
Now we go out and roam
The evil presence we feel
We know it’s not
God’s will
Our home should
Be filled with love
But we feel dirty
Like a covering of mud
God has heard our cries
And brought us
A special guy
He wants to be
Our dad
Oh boy we are so glad
God is working
In our mum
She is awesome
And can be
So much fun
Help us to pray
This evil
Presence away
We don’t want
Our mum to
Be used anymore
In our home
It’s just like a war
We keep praying
This evil
Out of the door
Our mum is
So special
And we want
Her safe
Lord
Please help us
And restore
Her faith

© Natalie Price September 2009

FEAR PREVENTED ME
FROM ACHIEVING


Children can feel
Fear in school
Especially when the
Teacher gets angry
And thinks that
They’re a fool
When I was a child
My teacher got
Pretty wild
I had difficulty
In learning
I hated doing exams
My tummy
Was churning
I felt like an idiot
Being so dumb
I even had difficulty
Doing my sums
Some teachers
Think you should
Keep up with
Everyone else
I had to battle on
My teachers
Didn’t understand
Why it took me so long
I couldn’t comprehend
I hated school in the end
For many years
I had no confidence
And shed many tears
Because I was
Not competent
The seed of fear
Was planted in me
As a child
Even my parents were
Ashamed of me
So I went wild
This fear prevented me
From achieving
Until I started doing
Some believing

© Natalie Price September 2009

WHY LOOK AT ME
WITH REVOLT


Please accept me
The way I am
I do try to please
When I can
Being disabled
Is not my fault
Why look at me
With revolt
When I watch
People’s eyes
They turn away
To my surprise
I never really
Understand why
When I look
In the mirror
All I see is me
I don’t look
Revolting
Not the way I see
My body may
Not look the best
Please don’t think
Of me any less
God made me
This way and
I thank him everyday
He made me special
And unique in everyway
I know my heart
Is in the right place
But I wonder about yours
By the look on your face
Do not judge my looks
I’m not a horror story
That you find in a book
I’m a person who feels
Not like you
With a heart of steel

© Natalie Price September 2009

HELP ME
I’M BEING RAPED


Dripping with perspiration
This can’t be happening
He is one of my relations
Slamming me against the wall
My knees give way
And I fall
He drags me to the bed
I tried so hard to fight
His face becomes
Angry and red
How could he do this to me
I feel like filth
No one else will believe
He makes my skin crawl
How awful
I am being mauled
I can hardly breathe
He smothers me
With his slop
And fills my head
With his rot
I feel like a rag doll
He shoves it into me
And calls me a mole
His words are disgusting
As he keeps on thrusting
Backwards and forwards
I wish he would stop
How can I move
When he is on top
My body is throbbing
From head to toe
My family
Will not believe me
They will not want to know

©  Natalie Price September 2009

MY DAD MAKES ME SQUIRM

Daddy’s worm
Is full of germs
It’s yucky and
Makes me squirm
He wriggles it in
Front of me
I try to hide
I don’t want to see
Go away Daddy
You’re scaring me
You shake me
Like a dummy
I’m telling mummy
I hate seeing you nude
You really look rude
I don’t want to rock 
Like a seesaw
I hate playing
This game
I’m only a little girl
You make me
Feel ashamed
Why call me naughty
I haven’t done
Anything wrong
Get your hands
Off me Daddy
You’re really strong
I think I hear my Mum
She will stop you
When she comes
Daddy is making threats
He’s telling me
I’ll have regrets
What does he mean
If he comes near me
I will scream

© Natalie Price September 2009

MUM ABUSED MY DAD

Mum I need
To talk to Dad
Every time I try
You tell me Dad is bad
I’m sick of you
Yelling and screaming
And you’re
Forever scheming
Trying to stop me
From calling my Dad
You even hit me
With the phone
And refuse
To leave me alone
No wonder
He left our home
You hurt him so much
All you ever did
Was moan
I miss my Dad
So badly
I would leave
Home gladly
Mum you always
Put him down
He was never
Good enough
And now he has
Left our town
I feel so very sad
You even think
That I am bad
None of us are
Good enough for you
Look at all the misery
You have put us through
There will come a day
I will leave you
And go away
You’ll be so alone
And no one
Will want to stay
Mum you are so cruel
You made my Dad
Look like a fool

© Natalie Price September 2009

LOVE IS STARING
YOU IN THE FACE


Break away
Tear down
Those strongholds
They have led
You astray
Through fear
You have been
Under oppression
Held back from
Your true worth
Because of aggression
In God’s eyes
You’re unique
But you’ve listened
To lies from a creep
You and your children
Come under
God’s blessings
In peace
And in harmony
Away from distressing
Your family deserves
The very best
Don’t settle for any less
You’re loved as you are
But you’ve been hurt
Sadly it has caused you
Many scars
Stand up for yourself
And move on
Get back to the place
Where you
Really belong
Love is staring you
In the face
It wants to be
A part of you
So that you can feel
Its warmth and embrace

© Natalie Price September 2009

WE REALLY NEED HELP

Screaming in terror
Leave my brother alone
Please don't
Punch him anymore
Can't you
Hear his moans
Blood is pouring
From his head
Please don't keep
This up or my
Brother will be dead
His eyes are
Starting to swell
He's not looking
Very well
He doesn't deserve
To be beaten like this
Why are you so cruel
All he did was
Break one rule
His body is bashed
Black and blue
I hardly recognize him
Because of you
Look at his body
It's hardly moving now
You've hurt him
So badly
How can you
Be so foul
What kind of father
Are you when all
You do is growl
Leave us alone
We really need help
To get out of this home

© Natalie Price September 2009

MY WIFE GAVE ME
A DISEASE


My wife
Has been unfaithful
She has dishonoured
Our marriage
It’s disgraceful
I thought our love
Would last forever
And that we
Would always
Be together
This pain
Is a burden
I can’t bare
Imagining
My wife with
Another man
How could she
Have this affair
My wife gave me
A disease
When I look
At her now
I freeze
My children
Will suffer
If they find out
And will lose
All respect for her
Without a doubt
How can I trust her
Ever again
This agony I feel
When will it end
Help me God
Please I pray
I know I must
Forgive
But how do I stay

© Natalie Price September 2009

SWEET TALKING GUYS

Running through
The wind and rain
It’s so cold
But it’s cleansing me
Just the same
I feel his scum
As I run
And I want to get
It off me
His smell is putrid
Why was I so stupid
I should never have
Got involved
He called me
A rotten mole
So many women
Get sucked in
Why did I have
To believe him
We’re told
How special we are
Alcohol plays
A big part
When they’ve
Been to the bar
Sweet talking guys
The devil is sure
In their hearts
Under his disguise
Heed my warning
Don’t be sorry
By the morning
Pubs are not
A good place to meet
Most often than not
You meet people
Who are weak
Gamblers are losers
And most likely users
Alcoholics are
Often depressed
You don’t need
That kind of stress

© Natalie Price September 2009

IN THIS LAND

In this world
Of evil thoughts
There's a light
That we’ve
Been taught
As far as
The north
Is to the south
From the west
To the east
This light has
Been a lamp
To our feet
In this land
Of misery
There is hope
For us
You’ll see
Amongst all
The evil
There are people
Like you and me
If we follow
God’s plans
There is hope
For all man
Hold your eyes
To the sky
Lift up your hearts
And cry
Give it all
To the Lord
He will give you
His sword
The battle
Has be won
When you
Accept his Son

© Natalie Price September 2009

BE BUILDERS OF OUR FAITH

God calls each of us
By name
To believe in
His Son
That is why
He came
To redeem us
From the death
Of hell
Where demons live
And the devil dwells
Evilness runs rampart
On this earth
It tries to destroy
Anything in its path
And take away
Our worth
Sadly our world
Is full of users
And abusers
But believe me
They are the losers
No matter how hard
Satan tries
Deceiving people
With his lies
The battle has
Already been won
The love of God
Gave us his Son
We are builders
Of our faith
In his hands
We know
We're safe
God's grace
And mercy
Has reversed
The curse
Death has lost
Its power
Through the
Blood of Jesus
Who is our
Strong tower

© Natalie Price September 2009-09-29

REJECTION
IS NOT A NICE FEELING


Rejection is a life
Time punishment
Implanted before
I was born
Even now amongst
My friends
I feel I am the thorn
It’s a feeling
That you’re not
Accepted
You just know
When you’re
Being rejected
I’ve tried so hard
To get involved
People seem to
Turn away
And dissolve
I feel I’m alone
And spend
Much of my time
On my own
Unless they need me
Then they see me
Naturally they
Say hello
But that is all
And then they go
As I look at myself
And ponder
Why do they
Treat me this way
I wonder
Many times I go out
Of my way
To be very helpful
And listen to
What they say
I make the effort
To be a friend
But sadly
They turn away
And leave me
In the end

© Natalie Price 1st October 2009

WE NEED TO SHARE
IT SHOWS THAT WE CARE


Please don't be sad
Things cannot be
All that bad
It's breaking my heart
Just watching you cry
Please talk to me
And tell me why
Your face is wet
With all your tears
You're shaking
All over as if
You're in fear
Sometimes
We need to talk
And share what's
In our thoughts
Don't hold it inside
It's best to confide
We've all suffered
And gone through pain
Please talk to me
Don't be ashamed
Everyone needs a friend
Without friends
You would go
Round the bend
I want to be there
To help you
No matter what
You go through
Don't turn away
I need you to stay
The best thing
We both can do
Is sit down and pray
Let us both share
It shows that
We do really care

© Natalie Price 1st October 2009

WE ARE CALLED
BECAUSE WE DO FALL


Christians do fall
But that is why
We are called
I’m not a
Perfect vessel
Many areas
I've had to wrestle
My thoughts
Go haywire
But then
I look higher
My Father in heaven
Is always there
He listens
Because he cares
I’ve gone off
The righteous road
Many times
But his golden light
Always shines
When darkness
Surrounds me
He always knows
His lamp leads the way
His beauty glows
God calls
Imperfect people
To carry out his plans
He does this
Because he knows
We understand
My desire in my heart
Is to be transformed
God does this
Through our many
Bad storms

© Natalie Price October 3, 2009
MY MIND IS A BATTLE FIELD

Pray for me please
I need the Lord’s
Strength you see
To help me
Through each day
So that I listen
To the Lord
And obey
There are days
When I stumble
My heart feels
Like it’s crumbled
These thoughts
I have I wish they
Would go away
But they enter my head
And have their say
Help me to fight
These evil thoughts
And desire more
Of what Jesus taught
There is a battle
Going on in my mind
I need to be stronger
I’m in a grind
The devil wants
My spirit crushed
He wants God
To lose my trust
My mind is a
Battle field
I need to be healed
The battle is raging
Day by day
Please pray for
The devil to go away

© Natalie Price 4th October 2009