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This page is dedicated to poetry about abuse

The poems on this page have all been contributed by Natalie McDonnell (nee Price), herself a survivor of abuse.
In her poetry, she expresses the pain of abuse and her release from that abuse.
Through her poetry, she endeavours to encourage victims to seek the great help she has found in Christ.
Natalie,  may be contacted through this web site by using the CONTACT form.

Natalie's poems have now been broken up into multiple pages so as to reduce the size of each page.
Each page will now contain a maximum of 20 poems.
You can move from page to page by clicking on the page links to the left.

LOST IS A HIGH COST

When I was young
I lost two friends
I thought my heart
Would never mend
Instantly their lives were taken
I was devastated
My heart was breaking
Without my friends
I felt lost and alone
It was a dreadful time
I was on my own
My other friends
Weren’t the same
They couldn’t be replaced
Within I was in pain
People move on
But for me it was hard
Realizing that
They were gone
For some reason
My life lost all stability
With all the suffering
And pain I had endured
It was becoming a reality
I was so insecure
I was scared of rejection
Because I was never given
The right kind of affection
Making new friends
Was not easy for me
It was only my Lord
That changed it you see
When we lose
Someone we love
Remember my friend
There is always
Another one
To give you a hug
Lost is a high cost
When its your friend

© Natalie Price October 27, 2009

SPURNED BECAUSE
I COULDN’T LEARN


Years of a abuse
Continues the cycle
Of being misused
And abused
Your self esteem
Goes down the drain
Especially when you’re told
That you’re always to blame
It started when I was a child
I became very
Rebellious and wild
At school I was being spurned
It was very difficult
For me to learn
Teachers didn’t seem
To understand
They thought I was not
Listening to their commands
I felt I was the
Dunce of the class
Because I didn’t pass
My Dad made me
Feel like I was an idiot
Because I was illiterate
I went to eight
Different schools
I felt like a fool
My parents
Were always moving
My education didn’t
Have much chance
Of improving
Learning was a struggle
Sadly for me whatever
I tried to do was a muddle
When your self worth
Has been destroyed
Your life has no meaning
It becomes void
It’s taken years for me
To realize I wasn’t dumb
It’s only through God
That my healing has come

© Natalie Price October 27th 2009

LISTEN TO WISDOM

Listen to wisdom
And you will do well
It will shake the devil
In his miserable hell
Reverse the curse
That the devil has 
Put over our lives
Believing in Jesus
Is very wise
How many times
Do you hear
Why didn’t I listen
I for one have to
Make that admission
Refusing sound advice
I paid a very high price
The men I chose
Were not very nice
I promised myself
Not to get involved
With them again
But in my weakness
I let them in
We get hurt time after time
You would think
We would learn
Somewhere down the line
Out of loneliness
Desperation sets in
Sadly this can cause
So much sin
Listen to wisdom
That is given to you
You could save
Yourself so much
Suffering if you do
My Lord is my strength
In my weakness
The dark days
Have now gone
Full of bleakness
He is Emanuel
God with us
Seek him and give
Him your trust

© Natalie Price October 29th 2009

SEAL IT WITH THE
LORD’S SHIELD


Don’t wrestle
With your thoughts
You’re better off
Dwelling on what
Jesus taught
Satan places
Evil thoughts
Into our minds
I had to battle with this
For sometime
It nearly drove me crazy
He even had me
Believing I was lazy
I know I’m not
But that’s how he plots
He gets into your head
Sometimes it's through
The things we’ve read
Even the programs
We watch on the television
Can change your
Thinking and your vision
What you are
Is what you eat
And what you watch
Is what you reap
The battle inside me
Went on for many years
I felt I was really evil
And shed many tears
My attitude had to change
The life I was leading
Had to be rearranged
I hated myself at one time
Looking in the mirror
I could see someone
I didn’t want to be
Satan has lost his battle
In trying to destroy me
Jesus is the only way
He’s my tower of strength
That keeps me going
Each day
Our mind is a battle field
Seal it with the Lord’s shield

© Natalie Price October 29, 2009

JESUS IS THE ONE
I RECOMMEND


She smiles
To ease her pain
And hides behind it
Out of shame
You can sense there is
Something terribly wrong
She is trying hard
To remain strong
In her face
You see her fear
Her eyes are filled
With many tears
We know her life
Has been a battle
She has been treated
Like a chattel
Trodden on like
A piece of dirt
This lady has
Been really hurt
Her eyes are the
Mirror to her soul
What you see in them
Is a big black hole
Sadness fills her heart
This lady needs
A brand new start
You can see
Her desperation
I pray for
Her salvation
She really does
Need a friend
Jesus is the one
I recommend

© Natalie Price October 30th 2009

THE TRUTH WILL SET YOU FREE

Do they have
All the answers
I don’t think so
Their venom
Spreads like cancer
The devil is a weevil
He gets into our minds
And infests it with evil
Parliament members
Can be uncouth
They twist their stories
Away from the truth
Because you have
A certificate
Of professionalism
Doesn’t give you
The right for
Corrupt capitalism
The medical profession
Really needs to make
Some honest confessions
If they don’t
Know the answers
They make them up
As they go
And we accept them
Because we don’t know
They give us
All kinds of drugs
They must think
Many of us are mugs
Our mental institutions
Are full of their
Answers and solutions
I’ve dealt with
Many organizations
Over the years
No wonder we live
In a society full of fear
How many times
Do we learn of their
Mistakes down the track
The devil is laughing
With this kind of attack
Don’t be a victim
Of their mistakes
The answer is in God
Because he is no fake
Open your eyes and see
You will find the truth
And  the truth
Will set you free

© Natalie Price October 31, 2009

ELECTRONIC REJECTION

What are we doing
To our children’s minds
With all the electronic
Games of many kinds
Rejection comes
In many ways
But the devil is
Cunning in the
Way he plays
Family unity
Is being replaced
By electronics gadgets
This is a disgrace
Shut them up and
Give them a device
In the end you will
Pay a high price
A robot might as well
Take over the role
Of being the parent
Under its control
Rejection comes
In many forms
What I see in the future
Is dark and evil
Horrendous storms
The heavy clouds
Are already appearing
Its destructive force
Will have you fearing
Family unity
Is on the decline
Our children need our love
And our time

© Natalie Price November 1, 2009

NESTLE DON’T WRESTLE

Satan trembles
When he hears
Our praise
He flees into darkness
When our hands
Are raised
The Lord
Gave us power
Through his shed blood
To resist the devil
Who’s the father of thugs
The devil stalks
Wherever you walk
He’s the deceiver
And he’s out
To destroy
The believer
When we walk
In the light
Satan retreats
Out of sight
If you believe
In God’s word
Supernaturally a
Transformation
Will occur
So stand firm
On your faith
And you will stay safe
Under the protection
Of your Lord
You will gain
Your reward
No need to wrestle
Just snuggle up
And nestle
Sin destroys
The person within
Now you have hope
For a new life to begin

© Natalie Price November 2nd 2009

TAKE IT TO THE LORD
 IN PRAYER


Lord you bring us
To our knees in prayer
And you show us
How much you care
It’s important for us
To seek your advice
If we refuse to do so
We could pay a high price
I really need some direction
And I know I can be
Mislead by the
Satan’s deception
Sometimes it’s
Very confusing
Especially when you
Have to start choosing
I don’t know
What path to take
If I do choose the
Wrong way
It could be a mistake
My passion
Is to serve you
In everything I do
To be led
By your Spirit
Wherever you
Take me too
Please lead me
By your light
Then I will know
All things will be right

© Natalie Price  November  3rd 2009

A BAND AID IS NOT THE ANSWER

Abuse spreads like cancer
A band aid
Is not the answer
We have to get real
And not conceal
So much more
Needs to be done
For this battle
To be won
The change has
To come from
The heart
That is where
It must start
The answer is not
In professional care
God is the only one
Who heals
That kind of despair
Abusers need to
Turn to the Lord
Change their evil ways
For their lives
To be restored
If you care
Take it to the Lord
In prayer
God is the answer
To get rid of
This vile cancer
Abuse eats you away
Ask for forgiveness
And pray
I know this is
The only way

© Natalie Price November 3, 2009

THE REAL MEANING OF LIVING

My life is not all
About what I can get
It’s about how I can give
At one time I was
Very selfish, in the way
That I lived
I learnt the blessing
Of giving
And now I know
The real meaning
Of living
Materialistic things
Cannot give you peace
Or satisfy your hunger
To say the least
Contentment comes
Through release
Surrender your heart
And destroy the beast
The Lord laid his life down
For you and for me
To give us hope for eternity
God loves me for
Who I am
And now I do what I can
Selfishness destroys the soul
It really does
Get out of control
If you see someone in need
Don’t turn a blind eye
Because of greed
Be a believer
Not a deceiver
If you want to live
Learn how to give

© Natalie Price November 4th 2009

VOLUNTEERS ARE
THE BACKBONE OF SOCIETY


People who give
Of their time
Should be shown
Some gratitude
Of some kind
Giving is not a
One way direction
Using people to gain
Admiration for yourself
Is a very bad reflection
Especially when it
Involves a church
The volunteers
You rely on
May leave you
In the lurch
And walk away
How can you blame
Them when they’re
Treated this way
Volunteers are
A blessing in our
Community
And deserve
To be given
Every opportunity
They should be
Treated well
For their labour
And rewarded
With some favour
But even for the
Voluntary kindness
Some people
Walk around in
Their own blindness
And do not see
That their actions
Are a bad testimony
To volunteers like me
Using people
In such a way
Is disgusting and
Certainly not okay

© Natalie Price November 5th 2009

FORGIVENESS IS THE KEY

Riddled with guilt
And full of shame
Desperately you
Want to change
The battle keeps raging
Deep inside
You wish you were
A shadow that would
Disappear and hide
Some people don’t
Ever let you forget
They keep on reminding
You of your debt
Forgiving a person
Is far from their thoughts
They’re not interested
In listening to what
Jesus taught
Jesus paid the debt
We couldn’t pay
And made us
Feel special
In every way
He took our sin
Upon himself
And healed
Our bodies
For good health
Our future is
No longer grim
If we believe
In Jesus our King
Forgiveness is the key
That finally
Sets you free

©  Natalie Price November 5, 2009

CHRISTIANS HAVE A DUTY OF CARE

Christian organizations
Represent God’s work
We should be setting
An example
And stop acting like jerks
Offensive behaviour
Is not honouring
Our Saviour
A code of conduct
Is expected
If we want
To be accepted
Often I hear
Bad language
And vulgar actions
When you’re dealing
With the public
There can be some
Very nasty reactions
A joke is one thing
But it can go too far
It’s not a good witness
And shows the kind
Of people you are
If we want people
To show us respect
Then we should
Watch our tongue
Before someone objects
As Christians we
Represent God
Beware or we may
Answer to God’s rod
Our superiors turn
A blind eye
But if they keep on
Ignoring it
Many of us volunteers
Will say goodbye
When we serve God
We need to be aware
That we do have
A duty of care

© Natalie Price November 7, 2009

RELIGIOUS BRAIN WASHING

Religious brain washing
Can cause more harm
Than good
Sadly the Bible can
Be misunderstood
These so called
Biblical hypocrites
Think they know it all
And cannot accept
That God actually calls
I love my Lord
With all of my heart
But it’s not enough
For them
Because they believe
They’re so smart
God is the creator
Of all things
He is no particular
Religion by any means
We don’t have to
Follow your sect
To prove our love
For the Lord
I can tell you right now
I already have my reward
God is part of my life
He is the one that
Makes things right
Hypocrites
You twist God’s word
So that your ideas
Are heard
It’s the spirit within
That receives
When we open
Our hearts and believe
The Holy Spirit within me
Will never depart
My place of worship
Comes from my heart

© Natalie Price November 7, 2009

GOOD FRIENDS ARE HARD TO FIND

Pain and suffering
Why does it have to be
The mistakes I’ve made
Has certainly taught me
Accepting friendship
On face value only
Can often leave you
Extremely hurt and lonely
When you’re on
Your own for so long
You’re always searching
For a place to belong
I now have this desire to roam
And get away from the place
I now call home
Searching for something
That is not there
My house full of furniture
Sometimes seems bare
It would be nice to have
Someone in my life to share
And actually believe
That they really do care
Suspicion always comes
Into my mind
When I meet new people
I look for signs
Good friends are
Hard to find
Most of the time
I keep busy
Otherwise I would
End up in a tizzy
I offer friendship
But very little is returned
Most people I’ve met
What something from me
I’ve learned
The meaning of true friendship
Seems to be gone
The world has become
So greedy
It’s been going on
For so long
When will it ever end
All I’m asking
Is for one true friend

© Natalie Price November 9th 2009

THANK YOU JESUS

His name is higher
Than any other
It’s through him
We become sisters
And brothers
Living water
Fills our veins
When we believe
In Jesus’ name
Healing comes
Through his blood
He takes away
The filth and the mud
When we think
We can’t cope
He gives us hope
There is power
In our prayers
Praise God
He always there
His angels protect us
From the forces of evil
Our lives are turned
Around from being
In an upheaval
The Lord gave his life
So that we could live
He forgave our sins
And taught us to forgive
He has called us
To believe in him
Give him your heart
And let him come in
He holds out his hands
And calls us to come
My Father has sent me
I am God’s Son
Thank you Jesus
That you came
There is awesome power
In your name

© Natalie Price November 10th 2009

THE NAME OF JESUS HAS POWER

My wounds go deep
In the dark hours
Of the night, I think
And cannot sleep
Tossing and turning
My stomach is churning
Sometimes I get up
And make a cup of tea
The old devil
Will not let me be
I have learnt when
Satan is attacking me
He’s a coward
And he’s out to devour
The good thing is
I’m not weak
There is one word
That I speak
The name of Jesus
Has power
No matter
What the hour
His name is like
A two edged sword
It cuts through evil
His name is Lord
At one time
I lived in fear
Those days are gone
Now that I know
Jesus is near
Fear puts you under
The devil’s control
When you give him
The power
He’s out to
Destroy your soul
Jesus is all you need
To get rid of that
Evil weed
Give your heart
To the Lord
And you my friend
Will have eternity
As your reward

© Natalie Price November 11, 2009

THE DOOR HAS NOW CLOSED
ON THIS CHAPTER OF MY LIFE


Losing someone you love
Is very hard to accept
Especially when you know
Deep in your heart it was meant
It does have long lasting affects
The man that I loved
I have lost
The sad part about it
I am now wondering
At what cost
He married a lady
Who he has only known
A few short months
Everything seem to
Happen all at once
His state of mind
Is in a mess
I know this
Because he confessed
I pray to God his
Marriage will last
Hopefully the bitterness
He will leave in the past
It’s only been a few months
Since he was last engaged
He goes to one and
Then another
It’s like turning a page
My heart is breaking
For this man
All I can do is pray
He is in God’s hands
The door has now closed
On this chapter of my life
I look forward to a future
And pray that God
Will make things right

© Natalie Price November 11th 2009

LOVE CAN BE BLIND

No wonder they say love is blind
It can cloud your judgement
And your mind
True friendship is a treasure
It’s not something that is measured
You’ll go that extra length
To give your friend some strength
Friends are there for one and another
A bond ship of love grows
The similar kind of love we have
For a brother or a mother
Sadly love can blind your thinking
When so called friends use you
And leave you sinking
They take what they can
And never give a helping hand
You start to believe
You’re some kind of tool
To be used and taken for a fool
They’re only there when their in need
Then they discard you like a weed
If you let them know
They soon tell you where to go
I’ve been hurt so many times
Full of painful memories
Of many kinds
Love and trust come together
It’s not seasonal like the weather
Friends can be like seasons
They come and go
And often leave you feeling low
What a friend we have in Jesus
Praise God he never leaves us

© Natalie Price November 13th 2009