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This page is dedicated to poetry about abuse

The poems on this page have all been contributed by Natalie McDonnell (nee Price), herself a survivor of abuse.
In her poetry, she expresses the pain of abuse and her release from that abuse.
Through her poetry, she endeavours to encourage victims to seek the great help she has found in Christ.
Natalie,  may be contacted through this web site by using the CONTACT form.

Natalie's poems have now been broken up into multiple pages so as to reduce the size of each page.
Each page will now contain a maximum of 20 poems.
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GOD’S WORD IS NOT IN CHAINS

I’ve suffered trouble even
To the point of chains
My body aches all over
I’ve been badly maimed
Tortured by thoughts
Till I’m distraught
This destructive evil
Gives me no peace
It attacks in the shadows
Satan’s evil doesn’t cease
Locked in my world of darkness
My memories flood back
Of misery and torment
Until I fight back
These visions cause me
So much traumatic pain
I wish they would
Wash away with the rain
My head feels heavy
With all this stress
I close my eyes
But I cannot rest
My world seems so empty
I’m all on my own
The face of this evil
Has been vividly shown
The word of God
Is not in chains
It washes away the
The agony of pain
The past is gone
But not forgotten
I still remember
It was absolutely rotten
My Lord is my light
In my deluge of blame
He’s my refuge and strength
I’m so glad he came
He took my guilt
And my shame
My accusers and abusers
Have now all gone
In my weakness
God came and
Made me strong

© Natalie Price 2nd December 2009

I FELT LIKE CHEAP TRASH

Respect your body
Just don’t give it
To anybody
Often I’ve felt
I was nothing
But cheap trash
The men in my life
Abused me and
Spent my cash
They took advantage
Of my generosity
And my home
Then they left me
On my own
No explanation
They never had a reason
In some way it’s like an
Act of treason
They betrayed me
Into believing
But all they wanted
Was relieving
I showed kindness
And gave my love
They took it all
And gave me the shove
All I wanted
Was to be loved
There are many predators
Looking for prey
Don’t be a victim
Get out of their way
Men soon lose respect
Then you’re left a wreck
The price is high
I listened to their lies
I acted like a fool
And broke the
Golden rule
God gave us
Commandments
To follow
Change your heart
Don’t wait for tomorrow

© Natalie Price  2nd December 2009

NO WONDER THE UNSAVED TURN AWAY

His classroom was having
A special  pizza meal at school
He forgot to take his money
To pay for his meal
He didn’t have anything to eat
Because he thought he was
Going to have a treat
His teacher didn’t care
She told him he couldn’t
Join in and left him there
The poor kid didn’t
Understand why
He tried not to cry
All day he went without food
When I was told I was furious
And not exactly in a good mood
They could have collected
His money the next day
Instead they refused him
And went on their way
His parents were not advised
They were extremely
Shocked and surprised
This is a very well to do
Christian school I might add
Believe me I was mad
What kind of witness
Is this to one so young
They have a lot to answer for
This fight has just begun
How dare they stand
And preach God’s word
While they treat
Children this way
They’ve got a nerve
No wonder the unsaved
Turn away
This school will have to
Answer for this one day
The long term damage
On this boy is not easy to repair
I will give this to God in prayer

© Natalie Price 3rd December 2009

WITHOUT THIS CHILD

Without this child
There would be no hope
He brings peace to the world
And binds us with his yoke
We all have a purpose
In life with a plan
Whether you like it or not
We are in God’s hands
He is our mighty Saviour
Do yourself a favour
And accept him as Lord
It will cost you nothing
For you’ll have
An awesome reward
Salvation is given
By his mercy and grace
With all his love and
A warm embrace
Believe and receive
And the devil will leave
His sinister ways
Will only cause you
To grieve
Don’t let the devil win
He will wipe you out with
Wickedness and sin
My joy comes from knowing
The Lord’s love
Will never cease
I feel at last
My world is at peace
My burdens he took
Upon himself and
In return he gave me
More than wealth
No more
Do I live in fear
I have my Lord
I know he’s near

© Natalie Price  5th December 2009

NO WONDER OUR CHILDREN
LOSE  RESPECT


You show no respect
When you swear
In front of others
Especially in front
Of a woman you
Claim to be you lover
Vulgar words show
What’s in your heart
For any relationship
It’s not a good start
No wonder our children
Are losing respect
The words of your mouth
Have taken affect
I watch small children
Take it all in
I often wonder what
They’re thinking within
They listen to this crap
No wonder they react
In  this world of aggression
This is not a very
Good impression
Sadism fills this earth
It’s become very popular
Because of its worth
Sadly there is no respect
For children’s ears
In what they see
And what they hear
The same with us
No wonder we lose trust
Evil words have
A powerful affect
If we keep ignoring it
This is neglect

© Natalie Price 6th November 2009

BLIND TO MY HURT

There’s been so much brokenness
With people living in loneliness
In heartache and pain
This is more to our shame
At a time when we celebrate
The season of giving
There are many who
Are barely living
This earth is rich in wealth
And this is a season we
Wish all good health
But the evilness in the world
Only thinks of itself
We want God
To hear our prayers
But so many lack
Their duty in care
We ask healing for our lands
But many take
It out of God’s hands
You say you believe
But you close your eyes
To the people who grieve
Many say they walk by faith
But when things go wrong
They start to break
The Christian family often says
They’re there for one another
But often forget and
Neglect their brothers
Today I was in church
But they were blind to my hurt
It was a day for thanking volunteers
Thank God they didn’t see my tears
When you stand alone
And you’re on your own
They only see
When they have a need
Again you feel used
You’re only worth talking too
When they choose

©Natalie Price December 6th 2009

INTERNET DANGER

Internet danger
Is where you’ll find
The evil stranger
Perverted lying
Deceitful creeps
The Internet is
Full of wolves
That prey on the sheep
Pretending to be
What they want
You to see
Their evilness is vile
And their minds
Are full of bile
They try to coerced you
Into sexual chat
And using your cams
To see the way they act
What they show
You don’t want to know
Innocent victims
Get taken in everyday
Particularly children
It’s easier for them
To have their way
Parents I plead with you
Please watch what
Your children do
It’s a dangerous place
Including My space
These sites are
Where the predators wait
I advise you to act
Before it’s too late
Many sites are stalked
With depraved minds
Pretending to be
Friendly and kind
Our governments must see
They same things as me
If this area was policed
So much of this crap
Would finally cease
Their profiles are there
For the world to see
The filth in them
Would make most
People flee
Children are the ones
We need to protect
Or sadly many lives
Will be wrecked

© Natalie Price 7th December 2009

LIFE IS ABOUT WINNING

Our lives can get into such a mess
My very own has been like that
I must confess
Tangled and twisted
It was like I was in a jam
I actually lost the person that I am
My personality became wilted
Many times I’ve been jilted
My confidence
Had been knocked out of me
I lacked confidence
In everything you see
My circle of friends
Became less and less
To be very honest with you
Now they’re even less
I find it hard to talk
To people these days
Especially in company
I try to hide away
Many years of abuse
Has harmed the way I think
Now people shrink away
Because I don’t know what to say
In my world I’m alone
I do most things on my own
I guess you’re wondering how
I can write so much
It’s my only way to keep in touch
I’m generally alright one to one
But in the company of people
It’s certainly no fun
Even at work I stick by myself
Many times I’ve been asked
Is there something wrong
With my health
Life is about winning
I really do need
A new beginning

© Natalie Price December 8th 2009

POVERTY AND SUFFERING

Be grateful with what you have
There are many in this world
Who have it really bad
No bed to sleep
At night they weep
More often than not
They have nothing to eat
Their clothes are in rags
Every day for them drags
There is no fresh water
For them to drink
Accept from a muddy hole
That is filthy and stinks
Children live this way
Don’t have any parents
And nowhere to stay
Because of hatred
Their parents have been
Killed and mutilated
Then their graves
Are desecrated
These kids have no place to go
Poverty and suffering
Is all they know
They walk the streets
Sadly they’re raped
There is no way
For them to escape
It’s hard to imagine
That this goes on
How can we help
To undo this wrong
We have so much to answer for
If we continue to turn a blind eye
And choose to ignore
I hate to think what God has in store
No one on earth
Should have to live this way
The rich get richer
And the poor get laid
Their bodies left to waste away

© Natalie Price December 8th 2009

TRUE MOTIVE IS AMBITION

You’re not what you seem
Even though the smile
On your face beams
You would like people to think
That you’re on a mission for God
But right from our first meeting
I knew something was odd
You put yourself up
On your own pedestal
The harm you’re causing
Is detrimental
You’re in a trusted position
But your real motive is ambition
Your egotistic attitude
Speaks a thousand words
You’re always raising your voice
So that you’re the one that is heard
People are seeing through you
They know you’re hardly there
Let alone take any of the work load
And do your fair share
The people who give the most
Have no position at all
They're not there to reach the top
But to help the needy and poor
You tell everyone
You’re there from your heart
But if you weren’t paid
You wouldn’t have been there
From the start
The people who have a heart
Are the ones that don’t get paid
Yet you treat them dishonestly
While you play this charade
We speak about abuse
Of man, woman and child
You’re using God
And this is so vile

© Natalie Price December 9th 2009

HE FEELS REJECTED

His world has been shattered
His feelings did not matter
He didn’t understand
Why his Dad had to leave
In this lad's heart
He still grieves
His Dad was not perfect
By any means
But to this small boy
His Dad was his dream
He waited for his Dad
To come home from work
But his Dad packed his bags
And took all his shirts
The boy cried his heart out
Night after night
He was devastated
He knew it wasn’t right
Suddenly his Mum had a
New man in her life
It wasn’t long before
His Mum became
This man’s new wife
He felt rejected
And pushed aside
He spent his nights
In his room and cried
He gets plenty of attention
But he found it all too much
For his comprehension
His new baby brother
Has arrived on the scene
He now lashes out
And wants to be mean
His step Dad is very
Patient and kind
But he’s not his Dad
In his small mind
He sees his real Dad
Now and then
And hopes his Dad
Comes home again
What can you do
To make him feel accepted
He lashes out in anger
And tells you he’s rejected

© Natalie Price December 10, 2009

JESUS IS THE HEALER

When you’re reliving
Forgiving is not easy
The dark side never
Lets you forget
Erasing the memory
Is hard to reject
Sometimes I am
Overpowered with grief
When I think of my Dad
I grit my teeth
Our relationship struggled
To survive for years
Through love and hate
And many tears
My thoughts recall his
Actions quite clearly
It wounded my mind
And my trust severely
Deep down I know he
Was sorry for his sin
But it took a long time
For me to put my
Trust in him
My mum closed her ears
She didn’t want to hear
My Dad has since
Passed away
At the end of his days
I believed he was saved and
I have forgiven my Dad
But the nasty old devil
Tries to make me feel bad
He reminds me often
Of that terrible event
Just to make me relive
The misery and torment
It’s a constant battle
That goes on in my mind
What was done to me
Was a serious crime
The demons still try
To get into my head
With the strength I have now
I cast them out instead
Satan is the stealer
But Jesus is the healer

© Natalie Price December 11th 2009

THIS MONSTER IS A HOME WRECKER

Empty words
Without any meaning
Full of lies
And his scheming
Most times, he has
A hidden agenda
The dark side is
He could be a
Psychopathic offender
From his lips
He speaks evil words
He looks through you
Like an electrical surge
Watch out
He may leave you
In a severe
State of shock
You and your family
Could lose the lot
After you have been
Seduced by his cunning
Acts of abuse
He is there as a deceiver
With no plans for
Your future either
Wake up to reality
Before you get hurt
By his infidelity
It’s not only you to
Think about
Your children come first
Without a doubt
They deserved better
This monster is
A home wrecker

© Natalie Price December 13th 2009

MANY TEARS

The trouble with living alone
You have plenty of time to think
The memories keep flowing back
Your heart begins to sink
You say to yourself
If only I had of done
Things a different way
Now I am paying for it
As my blue clouds to the grey
When we are young
We have the world at our feet
It can soon turn sour
Furthermore
Your life becomes bleak
It is so easy to walk
Down the wrong path
Poor decisions will bring you
A life full of wrath
Experience comes with maturity
However, it does not take much
To lose your security
If you’re confused and stressed out
The decisions you make can go
Very wrong without a doubt
A clear mind
With less stress is best
I cannot help but think
A nice hug from the man I loved
Would have been nice
To come home too
At the end of my day
And all alone
With nobody at home,
All you can do is pray
Wrong decisions have caused
My life to end this way
Love is not something
You take for granted
Or you could become
Sadly disenchanted
I’m now approaching
My golden days
With my many tears
I’ve lost so many years

© Natalie Price December 14th 2009

GOD WILL EVEN THE SCORE

How come we were chosen
To live a better life
In a country where we’re free
From bloodshed and strife
Where terrorists lurk and
Kill for no reason at all
Hatred is their motive
For being so cruel
They rule with an iron fist
The lives of the people
Are constantly at risk
We are so blessed
In this country of ours
When their bodies are
Full of deep wounded scars
Life for us is so simple
In contrast to theirs
The heartache they face
You cannot compare
In the name of greed
These people are in
Desperate need
Hunger and famine
Cover their land
They beg for food
Wherever they can
The blood of their loved ones
Cries out for aid
Their homes
Have been ravished
Yet they are still brave
Women and children
Are being raped
For them, there seems
Little hope of escape
The world we live in
Abuses the poor
One day soon
God will even the score

© Natalie Price December 14th 2009

MANIPULATION

Sexual manipulation
Is very wrong
Especially when you
Come on too strong
Expecting your partner
To do everything your way
And making them
Feel uncomfortable
Is not okay
Nobody has the right
To use force on you
Or make you do
Things you don’t want too
Manipulation comes in many ways
Sometimes they expect
You to pay all the way and
Serve them at their disposal
The last thing on their mind
Is a marriage proposal
Everything has to be
On their terms
Or you’re treated like a worm
Until you squirm
If you’re not available
To their demands
They soon get rid of you
When they can
Egotistical males
Dismiss everything they
Don’t want to hear
They use their power
To overcome you with fear
It’s time we stood up
For ourselves
We have our families
To think about as well
Relationships are not one way
It’s not about who will obey
Treat each other
With love and respect
This is the only way
You both will connect

© Natalie Price December 15th 2009

HUMILIATED FOR NO REASON

Nothing worse than being
Humiliated in front of your friends
Or being constantly belittled
By your so called boy friend
It’s very hurtful
And shows no respect
It makes you wonder
Why you even connect
This kind of behaviour
We should not accept
It’s a disgrace
And more to their shame
Especially when they call
You disgusting bad names
Right in front of your face
For many years I was
Mistreated this way
I felt so worthless
And humiliated by what
My husband used to say
His family had a
Very low opinion of me
They would listen
To his miserable lies
In the end, they despised me
I asked them one day why
How would they know
What I’m really like
They didn’t live in my house
To know what he says is right
However, they continued
To believe I felt so deceived
My confidence was
Severely affected
His family could not stand me
I felt so rejected
Dishonouring a loved one
Was detrimental to my health
My mental outlook made me
Feel so bad about myself
Think before you speak
Why hurt someone who is weak
Sadly, I was already
In a bad state of repair
My early life had been
Full of despair

© Natalie Price December 16th 2009

GOD WILL BRING CALM
TO YOUR STORM


The Lord sees the
Secret fears
Of your heart
When he speaks
This fear will depart
There is nothing
On this earth
That can stand
In God’s way
His power is awesome
One word from him
Evil will flee away
When storms rage
In our life
We can hear
God whisper
It will be all right
Be still and know
That I am your God
For I the Lord
Will lead you
Out of the fog
Close your eyes
Call on me
I will come and
Set you free
My lighthouse
Will give you shelter
Against the raging seas
You will find comfort
In the softness
Of my breeze
I will calm the storm
Inside your soul
Take refuge in me
I will take control
Grasp my hand
I will lead you through
To the river of life
Where there is
No darkness
Only my light
Rest in me
You will see
The devil will flee

© Natalie Price December 18th 2009

I NEED YOU TO GET ME THROUGH

Spiritual nourishment
Fills my soul
Without it
My life is not whole
Emotionally and physically
I hold on with all my might
It is what gets me through
Especially at night
For I am weak
And you are strong
You lead me
From doing wrong
At times when fear has
Gripped my heart
I know you are near
We are never far apart
You've kept me
Falling into the pit of hell
Where evil and darkness
Constantly dwells
Spiritual sickness
Of the mind
Tries to creep in
From time to time
With your help I know
I will be fine
Your healing keeps
My body strong
For the road ahead
This may be
Tough going and long
My victory
Has already been won
I’ll walk this path by faith
Until your will is done
For God gave his
Only begotten Son
God’s way is not always
Easy to understand
Trust him completely
I know I am
Restore my health Lord
My heart cries out to you
Without you, I am nothing
I need you
To get me through

© Natalie Price December 19th 2009

I WILL FOLLOW HIS LIGHT

In the Lord’s shadow
I will follow
And look forward
To what tomorrow
Will bring
With joy in my heart
I will sing praises
To my King
Beside the still waters
I look and see
A reflection of beauty
Inside of me
This love I’ve received
Shines in my heart
For the world to see
His love is given freely
Because I believed
I walk beside
This stream of life
My strength renewed
As I follow this light
Shadows of
Darkness disappear
Angels of light
Suddenly appear
Refreshed and refilled
To start my new day
The Holy Spirit
Leads my way
His presence I feel
When he comes near
Warms my body
And wipes away my tears
Thank you Jesus
For being my friend
Forever our love
Will never end

© Natalie Price December 20th 2009