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This page is dedicated to poetry about abuse

The poems on this page have all been contributed by Natalie McDonnell (nee Price), herself a survivor of abuse.
In her poetry, she expresses the pain of abuse and her release from that abuse.
Through her poetry, she endeavours to encourage victims to seek the great help she has found in Christ.
Natalie,  may be contacted through this web site by using the CONTACT form.

Natalie's poems have now been broken up into multiple pages so as to reduce the size of each page.
Each page will now contain a maximum of 20 poems.
You can move from page to page by clicking on the page links to the left.

HOLD ON TO YOUR TOWER

Black smog has been
Surrounding my day
Evilness creeps in
In this dark heavy haze
The voice I hear
Is gruesome and cold
I need to get out of here
Away from its hold
This sensation
Sends shivers
Down my spine
My skin cruels
With the feeling
Of its grime
In the face of doom
I cannot move
From its gloom
Spiritual chains bound
Me down all around
As my body quivers
Shaking with pain
I try to scream out
All is in vain
This repugnant force
Shows no remorse
My mind is agonizing
Desperately devising
My plan of escape
I see its form
In a dark dreary shape
My pursuer smells
Just like a sewer
It’s covered with vermin
I become more determined
God is my only source
To get rid of this
Demonic evil force
The name of Jesus
Is full of power
With all my strength
I hold on to my tower
He draws me back
Into the land of freedom
Praise God ‘
I have found my Eden

© Natalie Price December 21st 2009

GOD IS NOW MY VISION

Do you know how dirty I feel
After a sexual encounter
I feel so miserable for weeks
My shame keeps me on a downer
My thoughts keep reeling
Around my head
These men don’t have
An ounce of feeling
As long as they get you
Into their bed
I should have listened
To what God has taught
Instead of feeling like
I was a prostitute
That has just been bought
I felt cheap and nasty
Believe me they’re crafty
They’re so good with
Mindless words
Why do us women
Allow ourselves to be used
By worthless nerds
Lust is their only motivation
To fix their sexual frustration
The cost too you
Does not matter
Sadly, you are the one
That will pay the price
Leaving your life in shatters
We need to wise up
And get some sense
Let them know, we know
Of their pretense
After many years
Of feeling this way
Finally, I’ve woken up
And send them away
I’m so glad I made that decision
God is now my vision
He supplies my every need
From now on
I will let him lead

©Natalie Price December 22nd 2009

MY MOTHER’S TEARS

A boy was prying
Into why his mother was crying
He didn’t understand
As he tried to hold her hand
His mum hugged him
And told him he never will
The lad was confused
He thought his mum was ill
Then he asked God why
The Lord answered him and spoke
I gave her tears to cry
So she could feel
Your emotions
And wipe your eyes dry
I made your mum strong enough
To carry the weight of your load
To guide and direct you
On the right road
Your mum is gentle and calm
You will feel her warmth
In her arms
At times, you’ve caused her
Pain and rejection
She suffered so much
Yet still gives you affection
Your mother keeps you going
When you feel like giving up
She gets tired and cranky at times
And can be very abrupt
She takes care of all the family
And never complains
Even when she’s sick
And suffering in pain
Her beauty is seen
Within her heart
I created her to be very smart
You see it in her eyes
This is where her love resides
Her doorway is always open
Even when her heart
Has been broken
Your mum is an Angel Of my light
She is a blessing and a delight

© Natalie Price December 22nd  December

GOD WILL WIPE AWAY YOUR TEARS

Heartbreak and sorrow
We some times see
Its gets very painful
When the heart
Cries out and pleads
All around us
We see sadness and grief
These are the times we need
To pray for some relief
When our heart breaks
So does Gods
He doesn’t want us
To struggle and slog
The Lord tries to
Smooth our way
At times, we refuse
To listen to what he says
The tears that you weep
God will wipe away
From your cheeks
Open your ears
And start to hear
There will be a day
Where there is
No more death
Sorrow or pain
No longer will you hear
The cry of the slain
All these things
Will be gone forever
However, we need
To open our heart
Allow God in
And let him impart
Jesus is our key
To our eternal home
If you receive him now
You’ll never be alone
Hold on to the hope
That the Lord will
Be back soon
He will take us
All home from the
Gloom and the doom
One day we will
Be in a place
Where we will not die
There will be no more tears
Coming from our eyes

© Natalie Price December 24th 2009

HOW AWESOME IS GOD

Thank you from the
Depths of my soul
For being my friend
And giving me guidance
When my thinking has been
Way out of control
Thank you for
Showing me you care
In times when I've cried
In desperation and despair
Thank you for boosting
My confidence, when my
Self confidence has been very low
You’ve made me feel
I had something special
When all others thought
I was dumb and slow
Thank you for all the
Things we’ve shared and
How our lives, have compared
Thank you for cheering me up
When some of my friends
Are cold and abrupt
Thank you for showing me love
When so many times I’ve been
Pushed aside or shoved
Thank you for sharing my tears
And for giving me hope
In the depths of my fears
Thank you for listening
And not turning a deaf ear
When my so called friends
Dissolve like vapour and disappear
Thank you for whom you are
You understand
Because you’ve been scared
Thank you, you’re a true blessing
Without you I would be
Severely stressing
Thank you for all your time
I can always count on you
To be a true friend of mine
And thank you Bob
You’ve been sent to help me
By an awesome God

© Natalie Price 25th December 2009

IT’S NOT FAIR TO COMPARE

Is it all about me
Sometimes even, I don’t see
My own past often reflects 
The way I think
To the point of causing
Another ones heart to sink
Just because I lived
In a different way
And didn’t have the
Modern cons my
Family have today
I should be careful
Not to judge or 
Hold a grudge
And be sensitive
To their feelings
Not to compare
This is not fair
When I hear them complain
I often think of my own
Suffering and pain
This is more to my shame
How can they possibly
Understand the kind of life
I had with my man
We had a big fight
Just because
I felt, I was right
Believe me I was so wrong
I had to be strong
And ask for forgiveness
As it really wasn’t
My business
Life is full of pressures
In many different ways
I should have realized this
Before I had my say

© Natalie Price December 26th 2009

LET GOD BE YOUR VISION

It breaks my heart
To see my friends torn apart
I know what it feels like inside
Especially when
You hear nothing but lies
The pain just doesn’t go away
All I can do is pray
As a friend, I’m always here
To give a listening ear
God wants to clear your vision
So he can renew your strength
And your mission
His plans for you
Are already in motion
Put him first
In your devotions
At times, we are
Blinded by our emotions
Your path has been
Cleared for you to move on
There is a reason for this
God wants to put you
Where you truly belong
Sometimes it’s hard
For us to come to grips
As trust is necessary
In all relationships
God’s peace falls upon us
When we’re on the right path
Sadly for sometime
Your life has been full of wrath
Trouble and torment
Comes from the devil
Because he wants
You down to his level
Rise up against this evil force
Do not allow him
To sway you off course
Remember your victory
Has already been won
God has promised you hope
Through his Son
Satan is causing division
Let God be your vision

© Natalie Price December 27th 2009

UNHEALTHY OBSESSION

Uncontrollable thoughts
Continued throughout
My day
Many times
I’ve had to call
On God and pray
Pleading with him
To take them away
Unhealthy obsession
Can lead you
Into deep depression
I’ve been there
So many times
I felt I was losing my mind
Love is a driving force
And can really
Drive you off course
When someone you love
Rejects you over
And over again
It’s hard to accept and can
Really, send you
Around the bend
I started doing things
Normally I wouldn’t do
Like   driving around
To his place, just to get
A glimpse of his face
It felt like hell that
I was going through
My life was becoming
Exceptionally grim
Believe me I was
Obsessed by him
I knew in my heart
That this was a sin
There was too
Much energy focused
On this one man
My prayer to God
Was help me if you can
Every thought dominated
By my Obsessive behavior
I was losing my direction
And needed my Saviour

© Natalie Price December 28th 2009

WE ARE GOD’S VESSELS

Hurtful words cut
Through you like a sword
When you’re hurting
So is the Lord
We are God’s creation
Shaped by his hands
Out of the dust of the earth
He formed his first man
Now we are his vessels
To use by his grace
Let’s work together
No matter what
Creed or race
God reminds us
That we have an
Immeasurable worth
After all, he created us
For this earth
The battles we’ve faced
God says they’re not ours
He created us
So they’re his scars
He will fight for you
And pay all your dues
Let him handle
Your insults and attacks
Call on the Lord
Don’t you react
God will never leave
Or forsake you
He will prevail
In your shoes
We are his
Tender offspring
God will fight for us
He is our King
Let the Lord stand
In our place
The devil will flee
Without a trace

©Natalie Price December 29th 2009

AFRAID OF BEING BETRAYED

Many relationships
Come to a bitter end
The sad part is
You’ve lost the opportunity
Of being good friends
Some of us walk in the
Darkest of valleys
Our lives just explode
To the final finale
Embittered by
The lost years
Reflecting upon
The sadness
Through flowing tears
This constant loneliness
Brings this terrible fear
That nobody will ever
Want you, year after year
In my globe of misery
There is no one to comfort me
If I have a need
I rather let people be
It’s not good to recede
In your own world of silence
Or even depend on
Your own self reliance
When you’ve been betrayed
You become afraid
We really do need each other
And to be there
For one another
The sad part is
It is so hard to trust
Anyone these days
I really don’t like
Feeling this way
My Lord is my only strength
Lack of trust
Has kept my friends
At arm’s length

©Natalie Price December 30th 2009

TEMPTATION IS HARD TO RESIST

My thinking is wrong
I want to do things right
But the problem is
It’s a hell of a fight
Struggling with
These sensations
I have inside
Help me Lord
Before I decide
It’s so easy to fall
Off the track
Satan is always there
Ready to act
Tempting you in
Every way that comes
I must stop
These thoughts
Before I succumb
The devil sneaks
In our mind
Twisting and turning
Until he
Has entwined
He entices you
With his evil plans
It doesn’t take long
To submit into
His hands
Sin destroys
Satan sets you up
As a deploy
His weapon of destruction
He will soon use you
In his seduction
Jesus is our only way
He gives us strength
All we need to do is pray
Temptation is hard to resist
We must stay
Strong and resist

© Natalie Price December 31st 2009

DELIVER ME FROM
THE CLAWS OF DEATH


The fountain of life
Is like living water
Our time on earth
Is growing
So much shorter
Let his light
Be your guide
Now is the time
We must decide
None of us know
What the future
Has in store
Our lives are just
Like the waves
Flowing in and out
Of the shore
Like a mist
That disappears
They will be
Seen no more
The clouds burst
With heavy rain
Cleansing the earth
From the smell
Of death and pain
God’s word
Has been spoken
Open our ears
Before the
Silver cord
Is broken
Deliver me from
Claws of death
Before I take my
One last breath
Eternal life will not
Be given to all
Only the ones who
Have accepted
The Lord’s call

© Natalie Price 1st January 2010

A FEW THOUGHTS TO PONDER

Make peace with your past
Don’t wait till the last
So it will not screw up
Your present
Live for every moment
Make atonement
And you will be content
Do not postpone
What can be done today
Tomorrow may not come
So do not delay
Cast away the torment
Your day, will be well spent
Be content with what you have
Don’t always be
The first up to grab
Think of others
Before yourself
You will store up
Treasures of wealth
Give a helping hand
Where there is a need
This gives you
An opportunity
To plant a good seed
A kind word goes along way
Just to see them smile
And made their day
The year ahead
Will have its trials
If we turn to Jesus
We will not fail
It’s more than a fair exchange
It will make all the difference
If we change

© Natalie Price January 2nd 2010

THEIR NIGHTMARE STILL GOES ON

Their bodies, bruised by
Senseless and
Demeaning acts
Of being
Abused and used
Their nightmare
Still goes on
Its hell for them as
As it’s been so long
Their hearts have
Been filled with hatred
Their hope and trust
Has been mutilated
Embittered by these
Horrendous acts
These people finally
Get angry and react
Suffering and bloodshed
Continues to go on
It will only stop
When all life is gone
We’re in God’s hands
Our lives are like
Grains of sand
Diminishing into
The earth’s dust
In whom can we
Put our trust
Many of us
From our youth
Are blinded
By the truth
And do not believe
That there is a God
It’s as if they’re walking
Through a dark grey fog
Total darkness
Fills their lives
They don’t see the light
That comes
Through the sky
Sadness fills my heart
When I think
Of these things
This beautiful earth
Will no longer sing

© Natalie Price January 3rd 2010

GREED PLAYS A MAJOR ROLE IN ABUSE

Greed plays a
Major role in abuse
There is no excuse
You cannot reason with greed
No matter how much you plead
We live in a throw out society
However, we forget our priorities
Rather than give to
The poor and the needy
People become
Incredibly greedy
While others go
On a spending spree
The underprivileged
Are crying out in need
Big supermarket chains
Should take quite
A bit of the blame
They rather toss out food
Than give it away
It sad for the ones who
Cannot afford and have to pay
Their reasoning for doing this
Is it affects their trade
It’s like dropping food in a bin
While others are starving and thin
How can they do this
And sleep at night
Wasting that much food
Is definitely not right
I’ve found the more I give
The more I receive
Its God law
I’m never in need
For these companies
It’s more to their shame
One day they will
Have to answer
To the Lord’s mighty name
If they were to turn around
And help the oppressed
Their companies would thrive
And be totally blessed

© Natalie Price January 3rd 2010

MY WORDS COULD
NOT THANK YOU ENOUGH


We all know
Right from wrong
And we all have
To struggle
To stay strong
It’s a constant
Battle within
To fight the
Evil forces of sin
Jesus came
Under temptation
But he knew
His destination
We follow
In his footsteps
Knowing his sorrow
As he’s wept
For the ones in anguish
Suffering in misery
And getting weaker
In their languish
Jesus came for the
Tormented and the lost
Because he loved
Them so much
He paid the high cost
He was bruised for
Our transgressions
He made one concession
For us to believe
He was God’s Son
Sent to us
By the Holy one
He bore our sorrows
So that we
Could have life
My words could not
Thank him enough
For being my
Guiding light

© Natalie Price January 5th 2010

ALL I AM IS AN OLD TRAMP

As I walk along the dusty old road
With my worn out shoes
And nowhere to go
I’m tired and need shelter
From the glare of the hot sun
My body needs food
But I have none
I take rest under a shaded tree
I’m so exhausted I can hardly see
It’s been a long time
Since I’ve been able to work
I’ve been told I’m no good
And just an old stupid jerk
Rent is too much for me to pay
So I have no place to live
No one will let me stay
I have no income
Because I have no address
With no home to go too
Or no place to rest
What little food I do get
Comes out of the bins
Sometimes I get lucky
I consider it a win
My clothes are dirty
And I really smell bad
I can’t have a shower
Inside me, I feel sad
Life for me, is on the streets
I wish I had a nice warm bed
With soft clean sheets
Often I sleep on an old park bench
My old ragged jacket covers me
I can hardly put up
With the stench
All I am is an old tramp
No one cares where I camp
I have no family or no friends
The way I look, must offend
I ‘m on my own and very alone
Why would anyone care about me
They don’t even know I exist
And they close their eyes
When they see

©Natalie Price January 6th 2010

WHO AM I

Who am I
Where do I come from
The woman
I called my mum
Brought me
Up in the slums
Dumped at a very young age
Now I’m forced out
To earn a wage
My true age I do not know
All I know is that
Men come and go
They don’t even say hello
I have to earn my keep
So I’m told that I must
Go to bed and sleep
Before too long
They’re in my bed
Doing things to me
That I dread
The food I’m given
Is based on reward
If I work well
Then I have scored
I dare not try
To run away
They told me, if I tried
I would severely have to pay
My body bruised and battered
To these people
My life does not matter
How can I escape
From these hands that rape
I’m left here in filth
In this squalor
Nobody ever hears me
When I’ve tried to holler
They’ve turned away
Refusing to listen
To what I say

© Natalie Price January 7th 2010

I FIND IT HARD TO TELL MUM

Mum goes to work all day
She leaves me at home
While her boyfriend stays
When it’s getting dark
He makes suggestive remarks
How do I tell my mum
What can I say
She really likes him
And thinks he’s okay
His eyes follow me
Around the room
Even when I’m sweeping
With the old wooden broom
I feel so uneasy
When I’m at home with him
Even when I put the
Rubbish In the bin
He watches me do everything
My skins crawls knowing
He thinks of me that way
I wish he would leave our home
And find another place to stay
I try to avoid him
As much as I can
He tries to get close to me
Especially with his hands
This situation could
Get out of control
I feel like I’m trapped
In a big black hole
We live out of town
Far from anyone else
I can’t even yell
To the nearest house
I should try to tell someone
Before he offends
I find it hard to tell mum
Maybe I should tell
Her friends

© Natalie Price 7th January 2010

MY SILENT PLEA FOR HELP

My silent plea
Help me, I’m in need
Afraid to cry out for help
In case, he belts me with his belt
Mentally and physically abused
Every day, I am used
My home life is cruel
All hell breaks loose
If I break his rules
I have no one to turn too
To help me get away
Sometimes when
Its gets so bad, I do try to pray
The smell of his beer
Is something I fear
I always know when
I’m in for a bad night
It always ends up
In a malicious fight
My bruised body tells it all
You can tell I’ve been
Shoved through the wall
My eyes are badly swollen
Black and blue
It’s hard to imagine
What I’ve been put through
The house is in bad repair
All the windows have been
Smashed with a chair
The walls have huge holes
In anger, he lost control
Help me Lord
When will it ever end
This is hell, I’m living
I wish I had some friends
Nobody was ever game enough
To come to our house
They knew my husband
Was a was nothing but
Miserable drunkard louse
I dream about freedom
Day and night
Help me Lord, I need your light

© Natalie Price January 8th 2010