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This page is dedicated to poetry about abuse

The poems on this page have all been contributed by Natalie McDonnell (nee Price), herself a survivor of abuse.
In her poetry, she expresses the pain of abuse and her release from that abuse.
Through her poetry, she endeavours to encourage victims to seek the great help she has found in Christ.
Natalie,  may be contacted through this web site by using the CONTACT form.

Natalie's poems have now been broken up into multiple pages so as to reduce the size of each page.
Each page will now contain a maximum of 20 poems.
You can move from page to page by clicking on the page links to the left.

WHY SHOULD I BE KILLED

Screaming in pain and
Left to die in shame
Repeatedly raped
Without any escape
This evil has brought
Degradation to my
Family’s name
I must bear the cost
And take the blame
It has caused them
So much grief
Because of their
Religious beliefs
This shame
Has tarnished
Their reputation
They would rather
Have me killed
Than face my violation
My family have
No compassion
Let alone any grace
They look at me in disgrace
I am, considered defiled
To be excluded as a relation
By this public humiliation
Every year countless
Women are murdered
By family members
No longer to
Be remembered
Sexual violation 
Brings dishonour to
Their family name
Why should I be killed
For another’s guilt
And blame

©Natalie Price January 10th 2010

I DON’T WANT TO LEAVE YOU DADDY

Why do we have to leave daddy
And where are we going to stay
I will miss him badly
Please mummy we don’t
Need to go away
I hear your fights all the time
It drives me crazy in my mind
Daddy and I said our goodbyes
Both of us just cried
He told me he doesn’t know
When I will see him again
And I’m leaving all of my friends
I heard him begging you not to go
All I could hear is you saying no
Daddy tells me stories
When I go to bed at night
It helps to settle me down
Before he turns out the light
Sometimes I get frightened
Daddy gives me a loving hug
I feel so much better
When I know, I’m loved
You’re always too tired
To read me my books
When I start to cry
You yell at me not to sulk
All we’re taking is our clothes
Where we’re going
Nobody will know
Everything I love
Is being left behind
I hope all things
Will work out in time
I’m really scared
To leave my home
It’s the only place
I've ever known
Please mummy let us stay
I can’t bear to leave daddy
In tears this way

© Natalie Price  January 10th 2010

HIS LIES I DESPISE

My pain goes very deep
It hurts so bad
I cannot sleep
He left me for another
When I thought
We loved each other
I feel betrayed
By his masquerade
Pretending to be
Something that he’s not
He fills my head with
So much rot
And expects me to believe
Yet I caught him on the spot
His lies, I despise
I can see it in his eyes
All my dreams have crashed
My heart has been
Deeply slashed
I cannot understand
I gave everything to this man
Now I’ve lost the lot
My stomach is full of knots
This burden is something
I cannot bear
Suddenly I find myself
In deep despair
Where do I go from here
My heart is full of fear
The heaviness I feel
Is making me feel ill
We were the best of friends
Now I been shoved aside
Torn apart through his lies
We connected so well
From the start
This is ripping me apart
I wish I could understand
I truly did love this man

© Natalie Price January 11th 2010

I HEAR MY LITTLE BROTHER WEEP

My uncle
Comes to stay
When my parents
Go away
He sleeps in my
Little brothers room
And dresses him up
In costumes
At first my brother
Thought it was fun
Now he says
It hurts his bum
My little brother
Cries himself
To sleep
It really worries me
To hear him weep
I don’t really
Understand what
Is going on
All I know is
My brother
Is happy when
He’s gone
His little face
Looks so sad
He should
Be happy
But he says he
Feels bad
I really need to
Tell my mum
What our uncle
Is doing to her son
I don’t really know
What to say
But I must tell
Her right away

© Natalie Price January 12th 2010

HE LEFT ME HERE TO DIE

Fear fills my eyes
As I watch
This man come
Between my thighs
His rough hands
Hold me down
I cannot move
Off the ground
I try to fight
With all of my might
My strength is failing
His heavy breathing
I’m inhaling
The stench of his body
Is making me sick
I feel like my insides
Have been, kicked
His hands
Are tightening
Around my throat
Help me Lord
I’m being choked
I start to scream
As loud as I can
He beats me harder
With his hands
Suddenly I start to sink
My body weakened
And limp
He left me here to die
Just walked off
And said goodbye

© Natalie Price January 13th 2010

WHY IS MANKIND SO BLIND

God’s spirit is the substance
That gives us life
The evolution theory is
Definitely not right
Even the air that we breathe
We would not received
If there was no God who
Designed it all for thee
All of creation has a designer
His plans are perfect
You could not achieve any finer
Scientist believe we evolved
From the earths dust
If this was true
Would you give it your trust
The answer is in your
Own hands, you need
To think about it
When you can
Many people have special gifts
To encourage us
And give us a lift
The dust of the earth
Cannot do this
For all its worth
Love and compassion
Comes from our Holy God
If you don’t believe this
You’re like an hollow log
With nothing inside
If you believe, that
Dust can provide
Without the breathe of life
Everything would be dead
With no purpose or hope
To look ahead
The devil is out to
Deceive mankind
His deceitful lies
Have made many blind

© Natalie Price January 15, 2010

VIOLENCE IS ALL I’VE EVER KNOWN

The person
That I’ve become
Is just like scum
Feeling miserable
As can be
If only I could see
My words are full of
Lies and deceit
Wickedness is
What I’ve reaped
There is no compassion
Within my soul
Blackness surrounds me
Wherever I go
My life is full of darkness
It’s like I am possessed
Hatred swells inside me
Most people I detest
My pleasure is in
Making others sad
Deep within me
I know this is bad
Constantly depressed
My soul is not at rest
Hurting others
Is all I’ve done
I hate myself
To what I’ve become
Rejected from
A wee small child
Help me Lord
I’ve become so vile
All I do is moan
And groan
Violence is all
I’ve ever known

© Natalie Price  January  16th 2010

MADE TO FEEL WORTHLESS

I hate the way
I’m spoken too
It’s hard for
Me to accept
I’m made to
Feel so worthless
With very
Little respect
My opinions
Mean nothing
No matter
What I try to say
It’s a horrible
Way to live
Especially every day
There is never
Any gratitude
No matter
What I do
I’m told, I’m useless
And think
That way too
I’ve lost all
My confidence
Because I’ve
Been put down
I feel like a
Piece of dirt
Stumped into
The ground
Every day I
End up in tears
This has been
Going on for years
I cry myself to
Sleep at nights
This evil treatment
Is not right
I’m always feeling
Very depressed
My health
Is suffering
From all this stress

©Natalie Price January 17, 2010

TOO LATE TO SAY GOODBYE

As I walked in the room
I saw him sitting there
With his hands
Dangling beside him
Slouch in his old
Wooden chair
My first reaction
He must have
Fallen asleep
Then I realized
I let out a screech
A note was laying
On the floor
I didn’t want to read it
And flew out the door
I called for help
The ambulance came
It was too late
They tried in vain
He took his own life
Because he was sad
He thought
No one loved him
I felt terribly bad
If only I had of
Shown more love
We could have talked
Or given more hugs
Now it’s too late
To say goodbye
I blame myself
That he wanted to die
The signs were there
Help me Lord
This is so hard to bear
How can I be so blind
And not see
This is something now
I have to live with
Within me

© Natalie Price January 17, 2010

IN HER GRIEF SHE’S STILL IN DISBELIEF

Devastated by the
Murder of her daughter
Unexpectedly she was
Led to her slaughter
Her cries for help
Were not heard
This senseless killing
Should not
Have occurred
The anguish
And suffering
Is tearing
This mother apart
The killer has taken away
A very large portion
Of her heart
She closes her eyes
And hears
Her daughters
Desperate plea
Help me someone
Help me please
Her voice keeps ringing
In her mother’s ears
Her eyes are full of
Heartbreaking tears
This mother’s life
Will never be the same
Nor will she be able
To call her daughter’s
Name again
Still in shock
This nightmare
Will not stop
In her grief
She’s still
In disbelief

© Natalie Price January 18th 2010

YOUR WORTH IS WHAT THEY CAN GET

Your worth is what
They can get
In so many ways
They’re showing you
Very little respect
The only time you hear
Is when they want
Something from you
It could be money or
A job they need you to do
You’ll get all the excuses
When you need a hand
But they’re never hesitant
In making their demands
Using anybody for your
Own personal gain
Is disgusting and more
To your shame
I’ve lost count of
How many times
It’s happen to me
I guess it’s my own fault
That I’ve let them you see
It would be nice
To be able to trust
People again
But sadly it’s so difficult
When they’ve caused
You so much pain
Nobody seems to
Trust anybody anymore
Greed has taken over
And left so many poor
People rather have power
Than show compassion
Evilness takes it all
So you’re rationed
I thank God
For his light that came
Into this world
He gives us hope
For our future
And gives us back our will

© Natalie Price 19th January 2010

DRUNK DRIVING

Who’s really to blame
Our government has
No shame
In mourning for the young
Lives that have been lost
This terrible tragedy
Has happened at
A very high cost
Alcohol has been
Made easy for
Anyone to obtain
They tell us
There are laws
But they don’t
Seem to have a brain
Why make alcohol
So intoxicating
Its sure asking
For trouble
When all it does
Is put your life in rubble
Drunk drivers
Young and old
Are killed each day
It’s taking its toll
With all its twisted
Mangled wrecks
Our government
Sits back and
Accepts all the cheques
The only change
That I can see
Is that they raise
The fines for
You and me
Nothing changes
Except the power
Of greed
These lawgivers
Make all the rules
And take us for
A bunch of fools

© Natalie Price January 20th 2010

MY WOMAN IS A CHEAT

Fed up with her
Lies and deceit
And the hurtful
Way she cheats
How could she do
This to me
I was so blind
I couldn’t see
She led me to think
She was mine
I thought
Everything was fine
Often she would
Come home late
And joked about
Being on a date
I just used to laugh it off
But then she would
Turn around and scoff
I was so foolish
To get involved
I knew she was a
Loose woman
Because I was told
I always saw
The very best in her
Never thought that
This would occur
I believed, that
She was faithful
My trust has
Been shattered
To her, my feelings
Do not matter
She gets want she wants
Out on her haunts
I hope and pray
She has no disease
This guy that she has
Been with, is a sleaze

© Natalie Price 21st January 2010

SHE IS RIDDLED WITH FEAR

A disabled elderly woman
Struggling to breath
Bullied by her son in law
I couldn’t help but grieve
He spoke to her unkindly
Yelling at the top of his voice
I had to stand and watch
As I had very little choice
This lovely lady
Had made a decision
But this beastly man
Clouded her vision
He would not allow
Her to think for herself
This guy, has ulterior motive
And only thinks of himself
He beats her emotionally
With his cruel and forceful
Foul mouth tongue
Personally, I would have
Loved to have filled his
Mouth with cow dung
This kind of brutality
Certainly brought
Home to me,
The evilness of this reality
The seriousness
Of this kind of abuse
He should be ashamed
There is not excuse
He is a miserable bully
And made that very
Clear today
The worst of it all
He had his way
I felt very sorry for
This poor dear
I know in my heart
She is riddled with fear

© Natalie Price January 22nd 2010

IT’S A GREAT FEELING TO BE FREE

Living with the enemy
Is like living in hell
You’re better off
Leaving if you want
To stay well
Existing in
Constant turmoil
And feeling like you’re
Dirt from the soil
Can break you down daily
You start to see things
Very vaguely
Negativity sets in
Really fast
And before you know it
The time has passed
Years go by very quickly
Living in misery
Is not the way to go
You’re better off
Leaving now
Before the years flow
Don’t let life pass you by
Enjoy every moment
Say goodbye
You deserve
The very best
Don’t accept
Anything less
Please take my advice
Or your life may not
Be very nice
Taking the first step
Is not always trouble free
I know from
My own experience
It’s a great feeling
To be free

© Natalie Price January 24th 2010

FALSE FACADE

There’s a dark secret
Deep inside
Something very
Disturbing that
You want to hide
On the outside
There is a
False façade
But in your eyes
I see it always
Your eyes are
The mirrors
Of your soul
What you’ve done
You don’t want
Anyone to know
I watch and listen
As you speak
In your evilness
I sense you’re weak
Your character
Shows a serious flaw
You leave me cold
As you walk out
The door
There is a
Hidden agenda
I feel you’re a
Big pretender
You’re very good
At deceiving
Trying to mislead
Me into believing
Your evilness
I’ve discerned
It doesn’t take long
To confirm
God’s wisdom
Has been given to me
He opens my eyes
So that I can see

© Natalie Price January 25th  2010

BURNING WITH DESIRE

Burning with desire
You set my heart on fire
These feelings have
Become so strong
I know in my heart
It’s very wrong
You’re a married man
But I still hold
Out my hand
Come to me my love
Feel my warm loving hugs
I know your wife
Is at home
Caring for the kids
And alone
Making excuses
Is not right
I’m struggling within
Trying to battle
This fight
Desperate to get free
Its hell inside of me
When I close my eyes
I see his children
And his wife
Thinking about
Their kind of life
The lies she hears
When he comes home late
Her children are in tears
Because they
Stayed up to wait
I tried, to block
This out of my mind
It keeps coming back
Time after time
Within me
I feel very low
This relationship
I must let go

©Natalie Price January 26th 2010

NEVER LEAVE YOUR KIDS ALONE

Kids left at home
On their own to roam
Mum and Dad have
Gone out for the night
An invitation for them
To take flight
They spotted the
Car keys hooked
On the wall
Temptation was too great
They took the vehicle
And had a ball
A bottle of rum
Was found in the car
They decided to
Have a drink and
Smoke Dads cigars
It wasn’t long
Before they met up
With their mates
Drinking and reveling on
It was getting late
They knew their parents
Would be home soon
If they didn’t
Arrive in time
They knew they
Would be doomed
On the way home
They hit a tree
The lights blinded them
They couldn’t see
Sadly they were killed
And never made it home
A lesson to be learned
Never leave your kids alone

© Natalie Price January 26th 2010

TWO MEN IN MY LIFE

What a tangled
Mess I’m in
Two men in my life
A situation
I cannot win
Both men
Have hurt me bad
I can’t let go
Which is rather sad
I must make
A decision
Before there
Is a collision
One of these men I
Have deep feelings for
The trouble is
I don’t want to be
Hurt anymore
The other one, is just
A male friend
He has no desires
For a commitment
At the end
All he wants is to
Kiss and cuddle
By the time
He has gone
My head
Is in a muddle
The one
I have feelings for
I am not too sure
The way he thinks
Is strange
But he says his
Heart has changed
The wrong decision
Could change my life
I sure don’t need
Any more strife
I have to make
A choice today
Or let them both
Go away

© Natalie Price January 27th 2010

HER HOME WAS HER OWN

Uncontrollable fear
Her problem has
Become severe
She became his wife
It changed her life
Abused constantly
Every day
Threatened to lose
Everything if she
Tries to move away
Her blood shot eyes
Are black and bruise
Her husband has been
On the booze
She has no money left
In her personal account
This is an act of theft
He takes all of
Her allowance
She hasn’t known him
All that long
It’s a pity she married him
As this is so wrong
He goes to the club
Nearly every night
Gambling her money
And often in a fight
He refuses to work
Or help her in anyway
She dare not
Open her mouth
To have her say
Her home was her own
But he took out a loan
Now she faces
The loss of her home
Be careful whom
You choose
Or you could end up like
This woman and lose

© Natalie Price January 28th 2010