| I DREAM OF SEEING HER ONE DAY My mother made me feel I was in a game for love It was like wheeling and Dealing just to get a hug All my life I felt I was in a contest Trying to give my best She didn’t love me Like a normal mother I was always seeking Love from another Many times I thought I was a mistake Believing her heart Was full of hate She wouldn’t share Nothing she would wear I used to love looking At all her things Especially her jewelry And her pretty rings You could see The glare in her eyes When she looked at me It was full of despise I remember the time When I had nothing at all She would rather see me Go without and crawl After my dad died The truth came out About all her lies The promise I made To my Dad I could not keep To care for her All I could do was weep With endless nights Of no sleep My mother walked away I still dream of seeing Her one day ©Natalie Price January 30th 2010 |
IT COULD BE TOO LATE My heart Burns like fire When I’m told I’m a liar Threatened Every time To keep me in line From telling The truth If only I had proof This abuse has been Going on for years I’m constantly Battling these fears People turn away When you try to Have your say They think You’re insane Nobody wants To know They would Rather you hide all The facts and go Even the police Will do nothing Unless proof Is shown They’re only Interested When everything Is known All I ever hear is She’ll be right mate It could be too late My heart breaks Every time I think Of their fate The damage is Being done now It’s out of my control As it’s allowed In my despair My only hope is prayer © Natalie Price January 31st 2010 |
| ALL I SEE IS HIS SADNESS This little boy Does not fit in He tries so desperately But he cannot win Something is seriously Worrying him The struggles He faces every day Causes him to withdraw Or lash out in play It’s hard to understand What goes through In his little mind He really needs prayer And a lot of our time I look into his face All I see is sadness His heart was full of joy Now all I see is madness He is one angry little boy His social skills Are not the best I think he’s living Under stress I try to keep him As calm as can be He refuses to listen And will not look at me His actions have Become very strange I have to wonder What has changed Every time I see him He is always in trouble I don’t think he realizes His mind is in a muddle Something inside me Tells me, he’s abused I don’t have the proof So I cannot accuse © Natalie Price January 31st 2010 |
RESCUE ME Rescue me from This sinister place You can see the Agony in my face The days are long When hell prolongs My eyes are bloodshot From all the tears Constantly living In misery and fear The forces of evil Surround my home My nightmare Never ends When I’m alone Tormented by This evil force Desperately I want to leave But fear Prevents me From getting A divorce Brutally bashed From day to day Locked in My world I cannot get away Bitterness and anger Caused this evil sin Help me Lord In this world I’m in Death is my Only way out I’m bullied each day By this lout My aching body Is too weak to move I pray for healing And my body To be soothed © Natalie Price February 2nd 2010 |
| WE ALL MAKE MISTAKES Giving up would mean Defeating the Purpose of life It’s an easy way out Of all the strife Our burdens Become heavy Depression sets in Before you know it Our lives are full of sin Stressful situations Ruins most relations There is a light At the end of the tunnel A vision of hope Just have faith And you will cope We all make mistakes It hurts us when The people we love Turn out to be fakes In the beginning Everything seems fine Sometimes it’s like We’re blind and Don’t want to see Sadly there comes a day When we want To be set free The truth sometimes hurts We need to be on the alert Let God's wisdom Rule our hearts If it’s the other way round That is when The trouble starts Many times my head Tells me it’s wrong My heart takes no notice And before long It starts to ache With heartbreak You know when Things are right Peace within Brings the light © Natalie Price February 3 2010 |
SHE WILL REGRET THIS ONE DAY Her heart is cold She has no respect Even for the old Everything is About her needs Pure selfishness Is in her seed Her tongue is Like a knife She doesn’t care less About my life I have to wonder Is her mind sick Maybe that’s it I don’t really know She has made me Feel terribly low In the language she uses And the way she accuses It’s an awful way To treat your mother I thought we loved Each other Sadly I was wrong Now I have to Remain strong And move on My problem is I’m too soft She thinks I’m just A push over and scoffs I’ve done everything I can for her But it’s not enough Now she treats me rough Hopefully I can Get some sleep This has hurt me so deep Now I am backing away She has had her say What she’s done She will regret Treating anyone This way always Has an affect I pray I will never Become bitter Praise God I’m not a quitter © Natalie Price February 3rd 2010 |
| EVILNESS IS ONE WORD, DEVIL Being inherently wicked Defiled by evil thoughts Hatred dwells within Their evilness is sin Oppressive and Domineering They walk through Utter darkness Without any emotion They’re totally heartless There is no light In them to shine Because their Hearts are blind Their air Becomes morbid You can feel it Stifling in the air Everything that Surrounds you Is cold and very bare Their words Cut through you To the core They’re out to destroy So that you’re no more Their tongues are full Of lies and deceit What they sow Is what they reap Your abuser is the Work of the devil Get rid of the vermin It’s a demon rebel © Natalie Price February 5th 2010 |
SNEERED AT PUBLICLY Just waiting For me to die Their love For me is a lie The love of money Rules their heart My dreams For my family Have fallen apart Deceived So many times Believing All things were fine Family love I thought was real Why would they care How I feel Isn’t it sad When things Are this bad My pain I need To face And not look at it As waste Years of love have Been given Has meant nothing To them except A living Now my name has Been sneered It appeared in a Public place I feel like I’ve been Slapped in the face Fancy doing this To your mum The devil may Have had his fun But there is no way That he has won I’ve walked away In sadness and disgust This is the daughter I thought I could trust © Natalie Price February 5th February |
| PSYCHO’S FILL OUR STREETS My life taken at a Tender young age Tortured by this Psychopathic In a rage Dripping with blood Rolling in agony In the mud No compassion Or emotion is shown Choosing to ignore My suffering and Painful groans Screaming in pain He brings Out his knife To slain There is no Hope left for Me to survive I feel the thrust Of his knife Deep inside This maniac Is out to slaughter This could be Anyone’s son Or daughter We’re warned Not to talk Or except a drink From a stranger Very wise words As they can Spell danger Psycho’s fill Our streets This is one Kind of creep You never Want to meet ©Natalie Price February 7th 2010 |
IN SILENCE THESE CHILDREN CRY Evil shows its evil face In every part of this Sinful place His fists are clenched Smelling like A putrid stench He grabs this child His face is so wild Slinging her Across the floor He slams shut The open door Giving her no way To escape Of his plan of his Intention to rape Screaming at the Top of her voice He grabs her Violently and Takes away her choice The force of his body Rips this little girl’s insides With his mouth over hers You can hear her Mumbled cries The worst part of it all Her mother is outside Showing no compassion She actually gets a kick Out of his passion You would Never believe This story to be true It happens Nearly everyday This could be near you In silence These children cry Their parents Sit back and lie © Natalie Price February 8th 2010 |
| HOME LIFE BATTLE Inherently nasty With a malicious tongue Living with this person Is far from fun Expecting everything Giving nothing in return The life I’m living Makes my stomach churn From the moment I’ve risen My home feels As if I’m in prison Each day I am Ordered what to do It’s unbelievable What I go through I work all day But I don’t see my pay When I come home At night, it’s mostly To another fight Our home Is never clean My wife thinks I’m a machine No hot meal To come home too My washing Is never done Love is out Of the question As I never get none Respect is something I’m never given Even though I work for our living If she makes me Mad enough Things could Get very rough This is something I am battling not to do It’s a hell of a life What she’s putting Me through © Natalie Price February 9th 2010 |
SUSPICIOUS LOVE After my divorce There have been Several partners Naturally I thought We were in love Of course Unfortunately I was wrong Lucky the truth Came out Before too long Each time I gave my heart And had hoped That we would Never part Suspicious of Their love I should have known They would give me The shove Unscrupulous people Only think Of their needs Their motive in A relationship Is only greed They use others At any cost For their gain And your loss Beware of These predators They’re everywhere Hunting their Victims down Suddenly they Leave town They use love As a weapon To supply Their greed In the end You’re alone And in need ©Natalie Price February 10th 2010 |
| PEER PRESSURE Peer pressure can Cause severe stress You feel you have To fit in, to go along With the rest When I was young I was enticed to smoke Not a good idea I was always broke If I went to a party They kept urging Me to drink I hated the stuff It made me sick In the sink Getting drunk Was the in thing If you didn’t drink You didn’t fit in The boys kept Hassling me To get me into bed This constant stress Was going around In my head The kind of friends That I was choosing Certainly was A bad choice Cause I was loosing It wasn’t long Before I sunk To a low level My life was Sinking fast Into the hands Of the devil The path we choose Be careful or we’ll lose Pressure from stress Takes over to possess Evilness sets in To destroy you within ©Natalie Price February 11th 2010 |
YOUR ENEMIES SHALL NOT PROSPER No weapon formed Against you shall prosper If you belong to Lord He will destroy Your enemies By the sword Anyone that rises Against you will Be condemned Jesus will defend And be your friend You will not fear When you know Jesus is near He will protect you From harm Safe in his arms Do not be discouraged Or afraid He knows when You’ve been betrayed Our human minds Sometimes cannot Comprehend How powerful God can be Many people are blind And refuse to see His power is mightier Than any evil force He forgives eagerly If you show remorse The devil is out There to rob But nothing can Separate you From God Unless you choose To do otherwise By accepting Satan’s evil lies © Natalie Price February 12, 2010 |
| HIS EVILNESS IS TO DESTROY MANKIND Satan comes in to attack His evilness is so Dark and black The air is thick With oppression He takes over By possession Infidelity is One of the biggest Causes of divorce Many relationships Soon go off course One lie leads To another In a relationship It can destroy Each other The Internet has Become a tool that The dark side uses It’s a large area For evil abusers Suddenly you Become prey for the Devious hunter It doesn’t matter Whether you’re old Or a youngster The devil’s ploy Is out to destroy Resist his temptations Don’t partake in Evil conversations His evilness is ready To enter your mind Corruption sets in The devil is out to Destroy mankind © Natalie Price February 13th 2010 |
FOREVER COMPLAINING Constantly complaining It can be very draining You just feel like Walking away Putting up with this Negativity everyday All about gloom And doom No wonder I spend so much Time in my room At one time Laughter filled Our home Now I spend most Of my time alone Wondering where Our love has gone wrong I used to think Our love was strong Nothing is ever Good enough with All these complaints Anger swells up I must show Some restraint Our children seem To be always sad It’s awful when things Become this bad It’s affecting their Schoolwork And their exams They must Be suffering Just as I am Abuse comes In many forms Our home life Reminds me Of a dark and Dreary storm © Natalie Price February 14th 2010 |
| WE ARE GOD’S CLAY POTS God can work Through clay pots He does not want us To be something we’re not The Lord chooses Foolish things To shame the wise And weak things To shame the strong He does this to make Things right from wrong My dad was ashamed Of me for being dumb I couldn’t be What he had Hoped for me From the time My life begun God had already Made the plans I was in God’s hands We may not Always understand Why our lives Go a certain way God has a purpose And a plan for each day Our Lord thinks Very highly of us Therefore, it’s in him We should be Giving our trust You’re a worthy vessel No matter What you think Christ died for you So your life is not Wasted down the sink Don’t let anyone Force you to be Something you’re not God has already Designed you To be his clay pot © Natalie Price February 15, 2010 |
THIS BATTLE IS FAR FROM OVER Walking in unity Gives us The opportunity To stand together Against our battle With abuse and not Not to give up and say What’s the use Abused victims Often feel this way They’re told their liars They hide away Beneath their shame Because they feel They’re to blame You feel dirty inside It’s difficult to explain You go through life Feeling you’re Never accepted And it’s your fault That’s why You’re rejected This criminal assault Is well hidden The reality of it stinks Sadly it does reflect The way you think This battle is far From over Victims will continue To cry out I for one Will never give up And that’s Without a doubt As long as I live On this earth I will lift up My voice and shout © Natalie Price February 16th 2010 |
| EVILNESS IS NO DELUSION The river is dry And so am I Where has my Spirit gone Help me Lord To stay strong Sometimes our Faith gets shattered All of sudden Life does not matter The people, we loved Have turned away Why does this happen When I cry out and pray I’ve come To one conclusion Evilness is no delusion Satan tries to destroy All the people we love He twists and torments Their minds like A malicious thug Mutilating our trust To turn them against us Until we turn bitter Out of hurt and disgust The devil cannot stay In the presence Of worship and praise Satan goes down In a fiery blaze The weapons of warfare Are in our hands The name of Jesus Satan cannot stand The river is no longer dry It flows like a stream If you turn to Jesus You will know What I mean ©Natalie Price February 17th 2010 |
I GAVE HIM MY HEART It is no longer I who live But Christ Who lives in me The commitment I’ve made to my Lord Has changed The way I see The direction in which I was heading Was one way Without return My life was Going nowhere Except to hell to burn Every day, I seem to be In utter ruin Even I was wondering What I was doing Changing was Not that hard to do I knew my Jesus Would come On through My faith became a Building block All I did was lift My hands and knock Peace flowed in I’ve turned Away from sin The temptation Is still there But God’s word declares That we can do All things in Christ He gave me the strength To bow down and repent I gave him my heart Now I'm born again With a brand new start © Natalie Price February 18, 2010 |