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This page is dedicated to poetry about abuse

The poems on this page have all been contributed by Natalie McDonnell (nee Price), herself a survivor of abuse.
In her poetry, she expresses the pain of abuse and her release from that abuse.
Through her poetry, she endeavours to encourage victims to seek the great help she has found in Christ.
Natalie,  may be contacted through this web site by using the CONTACT form.

Natalie's poems have now been broken up into multiple pages so as to reduce the size of each page.
Each page will now contain a maximum of 20 poems.
You can move from page to page by clicking on the page links to the left.

OUR PRAYERS HAVE POWER

God’s grace is what
Gets me through
He is with me
In everything
That I do
My day starts
In thanking him
I can claim
His victory over sin
At times, we fear
That God
Is not listening
Be patient
Open your ears
And hear
His presence, is felt
When he is near
God cares
He makes life easier
For us to bear
No matter what
You’re going through
God will help you
He heals the sick
And brokenhearted
He breaks the chains
From where it started
God is all about love
Pure and white
Like a dove
Our prayers have power
Make God your tower
His strength
Will build your faith
In his hands
You will be safe

© Natalie Price February 19th 2010

SO CALLED EXPERTS

As the cool
Dark night settles in
My patience
Is wearing thin
They never
Want to listen
To what I say
In fact they look
The other way
They make me think
I have no worth
I’m not that useless
I do have a purpose
Of being on this earth
It really hurts
When people
Brush you off
Behind your back
They laugh and scoff
I try to offer
Some sound advice
Next time, believe me
I will think twice
I’m not stupid
By any means
What I’m am seeing
Is obscene
It won’t be long
Before someone
Seriously gets hurt
It makes me wonder
About the
So called experts
It’s only a matter of time
Not all people are blind
These people
In authority think
They know it all
If they don’t
Change their thinking
They will come down
With a fall
The sad part is
They will bring us all

©Natalie Price February 20th 2010

YOU ARE THE LIGHT OF MY WORLD

You are the light
In my world
And the only part of it
To me that is real
From the moment
My life began
You had created a plan
Many times, I believed
That I was under a test
The choices I made
Were not the best
But the best decision
I’ve ever made
Was accepting you Lord
Now I’m saved
You gave me hope and
The strength to cope
My will to live
Had been taken away
You entered my life
And became the
Light of my day
At one time
I did not like the
Person I had become
Now my heart
Has changed
I do not feel
As if, I’m scum
I look in the
Mirror and see
A new person
Looking at me
I will endure this
Fight against evil
The devil has caused
So much upheaval
When Jesus returns
The devil will burn
For all the misery
That he has earned

© Natalie Price February 2010

THANK YOU FOR MY HEART

Break my heart Lord
For what breaks yours
Let me feel compassion
For those who are poor
Allow me to sense
Your heartache
When you see
Their heartbreak
These victims have
Been downtrodden
Open my ears
To their sobbing
God hears their cries
From being oppressed
He knows when they’re
Severely stressed
Do not allow me
To turn a deaf ear
Let me feel their
Pain and their fear
There is no excuse
For violence or abuse
Especially for children
Who have been seduced
Listen to God’s heartbeat
His children are in pain
God’s royal blood
Flows out through
Their veins
He sees their blood shed
Poured out
On the ground
Their cries, are heard
He knows their sound
Bruised and battered
Their lives have
Been shattered
Thank you that you gave
Me a heart that cares
And thank you for my
Heart for prayer

© Natalie Price February 21st 2010

JEALOUSLY AT ITS WORST

This green eyed monster
Is unbearable
To live with
A hardened heart
That refuses
To forgive
This kind of
Jealously is a curse
Living with
Such a person
I’m ready to burst
You can feel the
Tension in the room
Constantly dark
And full of gloom
Interrogated in
Everything I do
You would know
What I mean if
This was you
All trust is gone
I feel I can’t go on
The spirit of jealously
Makes you bitter
Constantly full
Of suspicion
You become
Embittered
Twisted by these
Evil thoughts
Living like this
You become distraught
It would be dangerous
For me, to try and leave
I’ve been threatened
So many times
My heart grieves
Jealously at its worst
Help me Lord
This is a curse

© Natalie Price February 23rd 2010

TURMOIL IN MY MIND

My mind is under attack
Tormented and twisted
Is where I’m at
My future is unknown
I seem to be heading
Nowhere and alone
Afraid to love again
I’ve been hurt
By so many men
Stress reflects
On my health
Maybe I would
Be better off by myself
My dreams
Seem so far away
Do I have a future
Or do I live, day by day
My health issues
Are out of my hands
Especially if it’s in
God’s divine plans
There is not
Enough time
For postponement
I’m going to try
And live for
Each moment
Satan wants to
Destroy my joy
And put fear
Into my heart
This is his ploy
My path has been
One constant battle
At one time
I believed, my life
Didn’t matter
The sad part is
I don’t know
Which way to go
Do I risk my heart again
Or turn away and say no
This turmoil in my mind
Maybe it’s a sign

© Natalie Price February 23rd 2010

DANGEROUS LIAISON

Beware of
Possessiveness
Turning into
Aggressiveness
It’s a dangerous liaison
Not a good way
To carry on
Marriage does not
Mean ownership
In my way of thinking
It is a partnership
A commitment of love
With loyalty and respect
But some people
Take it too far
And show nothing
But disrespect
We have no right
To order each
Other around
By making
Your partner
Feel inadequate
By constantly
Putting them down
Possessiveness
Destroys trust
It’s not long before
Your relationship
Shows the rust
Domineering partners
Can turn your life
Into a nightmare full of
Misery and despair
If you love someone
And if they want
To be free
Let them go peacefully
And leave them be
It’s the first step
In the right direction
It can saved your heart
From misery and rejection

© Natalie Price February 2010

PRAISE THE NAME OF JESUS
WHENEVER YOU SENSE FEAR


Terror in the night
It gave me
A terrible fright
Satan tried to attack
He has a fight
On his hands
As I will fight back
A nightmare of a dream
So it seems
I knew him by his number
He hits when I’m
In slumber
He’s a coward from
His evil hell below
The devil strikes when
I’m spiritually low
Triple six is the
Mark of the beast
I saw it very clearly
Until I was released
That was the number
I had dialled
It happened a few times
Until I realized
His evilness is so vile
Believe me I was wild
My dream did not
Make any sense
I’m still troubled
And on the defense
Praise the name
Of Jesus whenever
You sense fear
He is your
Holy weapon
The devil will
Not come near

© Natalie Price February 26th 2010

BURDENED FOR LIFE

A young life
Has been taken
Abducted under duress
She must have been
Scared out of her mind
And severely stressed
It was no fault
Of her own
Unfortunately
She was alone
I pray this child
Did not suffer too long
She had no hope
Against her killer
As he was so strong
My heart goes out
To her family
For the loss of
Their precious child
This act of violence
Is extremely evil
And horribly vile
Every time her parents
Close their eyes
They would see
Their daughter
And hear her cries
The agony
And heartbreak
Would be always there
A burden for life
That they will
Have to bear
I’ve asked my Lord
To give them peace
Free them from their pain
So that it will cease
Help them to forgive
They must go on and live

© Natalie Price February 27th 2010

IS IT MY FAULT

Fighting back the tears
Painfully thinking
Of all the years
For the people
I’ve have loved
Who now have
Disappeared
I often think
Did I drive
Them away
Is it my fault
That they didn’t
Want to stay
I’ve given
So much love
But I feel like
I’ve been pushed
Kicked and shoved
By the ones
That I’ve loved
Especially with
My family
And few so
Called friends
It makes you
Wonder when
Will it end
Sometimes I cry
Myself off to sleep
My pain inside
Hurts very deep
I’ve lost my will
To love again
Help me Lord
For my heart to mend
It would be nice
To have one true friend

© Natalie Price February 28th 2010

LISTEN TO HIS WISDOM

There is an old saying
No pain, no gain
There is no point
In accusing others
When I’m to blame
Over and over
I’ve made the
Same mistakes
When will I ever learn
How much will it take
Many of us have our
Mountains to climb
If we listen to wisdom
We might learn in time
Everything we do
Has an affect
It can influence others
If it’s immoral
Their lives can
Be wrecked
Often I’ve heard
People say
This is my life
I’ll do as I please
All hell will break loose
If you try to disagree
The sad part is
I’ve said this myself
Listen to wisdom
This has loads of wealth
Do not close your ears
You’ll be hurting yourself
God’s word is
There to preserve
It would do us all good
To take a look and observe

© Natalie Price March 1st 2010

FACING THE GIANTS

We are seeing family
Authority slowly
Diminishing
The devil is out
To destroy lives
Until they’re finished
Our children’s hearts
Are turning sour
Every minute
Of every hour
A stand
Should be taken
Against corruption
An enormous mountain
Is rising high
Ready to explode
In eruption
The tide
Has now turned
Now they burn
With hatred
Nothing left is sacred
Families are turning
Against each other
Hate sets in
Towards each brother
There is no respect left
Even for their mother
Husbands turning
Against their wives
Violence takes
Over their lives
I will face my giants
In their defiance
And have the courage
To keep on going
Not knowing when
The end will be
I know the grace
Of God is with me

© Natalie Price March 2nd 2010

TORTURED MIND

Riddled with guilt
Shame and blame
Constantly tormented
By filthy names
The past has gone
My memories
Keep going on
The curse of abuse
Never lets you be
The dirt and the filth
Is still inside of me
Nowhere to run
And nowhere to hide
In the darkness
Of the night
I lie down and cry
This serious crime
Tortures the mind
Lord, break the chains
Of this curse
The devil is making
Me feel worse
The Lord answered
My prayer
He has shown me
How much he cares
Cast your burdens
Upon the cross
I died for you
And all the lost
My blood was
Poured out
Upon this earth
To saved your life
And give you
Back your worth
These words he laid
Upon my heart
I know his love
Will never depart

© Natalie March 3rd March 2010

WHAT IS YOURS WILL BE RESTORED

My desire for you Lord
Is for you to come back
I live for that day
When you come
Back to attack
With a two Edged sword
To claim what is yours
All, will be restored
For the misery
And heartache
Suffering and pain
For the ones
Who love Jesus
There will be
No more again
Harmony and peace
Will never cease
Joy will fill our hearts
Never again to be
Ripped apart
Sickness and disease
Will be no more
Jesus is back
To even the score
The dark skies
Will only bring light
The heavy clouds
Will disperse all the spite
Love will fill the air
Gone are the days
Of despair
Your tears and your fears
Will be, wiped away
Jesus is the only way
Give him your heart
And do not delay

© Natalie Price March 4th 2010

WHAT WOULD YOU DO

What would you do
If someone asked you
To give them a helping hand
Would you turn away
And say no way
I have other plans
All around us are
People in need
Some are hopelessly poor
And some, what desperately
Need a good feed
Homeless people
Walk our streets
While we sit at home
And put up our feet
There are children
Who go to school
With nothing to eat
If they get food that day
They consider it a treat
Poverty is raging day by day
With rising costs
People cannot pay
Hopelessness sets in
Where do they begin
Once upon time
They tried to achieve
Staring into space
Their heart grieves
There is a fine line
Between the rich
And the poor
One gets less
The other gets more
Power and greed seems
To come before need
The future for some
Looks very glum
Businesses will only thrive
If people survive

© Natalie Price March 5th 2010

BE A WINNER, NOT A SINNER

Termination to end it all
Never give up
This is out right war
Our lives are like
A battlefield
Persistently trying
To take away our will
Heavy burdens
May bring us down
The constant stress
Can put us under
The ground
Our feelings get
Smashed to pieces
Lack of trust
Only increases
Praise God for my
Determination
To survive
I thank my God
I’m alive
The devil
Wanted me dead
This evil stuff
Kept going around
In my head
To me my life
Was not worth living
Until I started, to learn
About forgiving
Healing took place
Now I have a smile
On my face
Bitterness and shame
Tries to blame
I’m sick of the devil
And his miserable games
Be a winner, not a sinner
Proclaim Jesus’ name

© Natalie Price March  6th2010

GOD WATCHES WHAT WE DO

Hearing is by listening
To the word of God
If only most of us
Realized this
It could save us
From landing in the bog
We can learn much
From mankind
But when it comes
To God we are blind
His word teaches us to
Reach out and care
And to love our neighbor
Make them welcomed
And share
In life, we are a product
Of our own choices
We can turn
The other cheek
And not listen to
God’s voices
The Holy Spirit
Speaks to us in
Many different ways
It could be through
Old woman who is hungry
And cannot pay
Or even just a smile
Just to make a
Person’s day
Entertaining angels
May sound like a
Joke to you
Believe this does happen
One day it may
Happen to you
God watches what we do
If we do what is right
He will be there
For us too

© Natalie Price March 7th 2010

LIVING A LIE

Tearing at my skin
I’m hurting within
Pinching and pulling
Every part of me
Hating what I see
My mirror reflects
The pain in my face
Of all the years
That have been a waste
Shedding buckets of tears
Trying to hide my fears
My share of suffering
Has not passed me by
What I’m seeing
My life has been a lie
I may seem happy
But inside, I’m sad
As a Christian I know
This sounds bad
Sometimes I think
I have it all together
Then the storms come
To rip me apart
Just like the weather
The trouble is
I do not trust anyone
My daily battles
Are no fun
It’s awful being this way
I wish these feelings
Would go away
My true thoughts
I want to hide
All I’m doing
Is living a lie

© Natalie Price March  8th 2010

FAMILY TRUST IS DESTROYED

Nobody has the right
To violate your home
Or take something
That is not their own
It’s pretty rough
When anyone
Steals your stuff
Often, family members
Let you down this way
No matter
Whom they are
This is not okay
Whatever their reason
In a way, it’s a
Form of treason
Betrayal of
The worst kind
Your trust in them
Is destroyed
The environment
That you once lived in
Is no longer enjoyed
Can you imagine
What it’s like
To constantly
Hide your
Most precious
Possessions
Anger flares to think
They even dare
The people you love
Can let you down
They can turn against
You so easily
This is what I have found
Satan is evil
He is the cause
Of this upheaval
Family trust, is destroyed
This is the devil’s ploy

© Natalie Price March  9th 2010

YOU CAN MAKE THE DIFFERENCE

You cannot change
The bad things
Of your past, but
For your future, you can
Make a difference
By changing your allegiance
When I think of my past
I feel so ashamed
Through my
Acceptance of Jesus
He removed my blame
Sin destroys the soul
Jesus makes us whole
My attitude had
To be transformed from
The treacherous storms
Nothing in my life
Seem to go right
Constantly on
The defensive
Ready to fight
I always tried to
Cross the river
Before the bridge
Was in place
I fell into deep water fast
And fell away from grace
My Lord wanted me
To listen and wait
The bridge I kept choosing
Was ready to break
Eventually I cracked
Jesus was able
To make contact
My barriers were down
I was lost but
Now am found
As the gentle breeze
Touches my skin
I feel God’s presence
And the Holy Spirit within

© Natalie Price March 9th 2010