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This page is dedicated to poetry about abuse

The poems on this page have all been contributed by Natalie McDonnell (nee Price), herself a survivor of abuse.
In her poetry, she expresses the pain of abuse and her release from that abuse.
Through her poetry, she endeavours to encourage victims to seek the great help she has found in Christ.
Natalie,  may be contacted through this web site by using the CONTACT form.

Natalie's poems have now been broken up into multiple pages so as to reduce the size of each page.
Each page will now contain a maximum of 20 poems.
You can move from page to page by clicking on the page links to the left.

THE POOR WILL BE MADE RICH

Her smile was
Almost bigger
Than her face
She looked
Straight at me
I knew her from
Another place
This woman
Is extremely poor
She came for food
At the store
She withdrew
Some money
From her bank
I could not help
Overhearing
My mind went blank
I almost cried
At the amount
She asked for
I could not believe
It was so small
Feeling very ashamed
With the way I had
Been acting, I had
No problems after all
It tore my heart in two
I knew what I had to do
Have a heart
Don’t walk away
Help each other
In every way
This lady may
Have been poor
But God was with her
Before she
Left that store
In many ways
She was richer
Than I thought
This lady had Jesus
Wherever she walked

© Natalie Price March 11th 2010

HOLDING BACK THE TEARS

Time quickly goes by
In a blink of an eye
Life is short then we die
When I think about
The years gone by
The lessons I’ve learned
And some I’ve asked why
Reminiscing on
The terrible things
That I’ve done
The unkind words
I’ve often said
To a loved one
I hate abuse
Yet I have abused
I detest people
Who use you
But I have used
Nearly every
Commandment
Has been broken
Disgraceful words
I have spoken
One day I will
Have to answer
To all the things I’ve done
One thing keeps me going
Is the forgiveness
Through the Son
Holding back the tears
I think about those years
If it wasn’t for God’s grace
My name would
Be a disgrace

© Natalie Price March 11th 2010

TRUST IS A SACRED GIFT

Deceitful liars are
Often found out
Where there was trust
Now there is doubt
It doesn’t matter
Whom you are
If you’ve told a lie
You’re looked on as sly
Lying and cheating
Scars you for life
Even if you say sorry
And try to make
Things right
The wounds go deep
What you sow
You will reap
Trust is something
To be earned
Words don’t mean a thing
Unless you’ve learned
All lies, will be revealed
The truth will always
Come out especially
If you steal
Trust is a sacred gift
If it’s destroyed
You will go adrift
Cheating and lying
Is the first step to dying
Do not walk down that path
Or your life will be empty
And full of wrath
No wonder Jesus
Wept and cried
He knows your life will be
Destroyed, with lies

© Natalie Price March 11th 2010

MENACES OF SOCIETY

Raging waters are rising
Satan is on the prowl
This is not surprising
Our streets are full of vermin
It doesn’t take much
To discern them
Their faces show their bitterness
Many look hideous and ridiculous
Snarling at everything, they see
Puts an uneasiness within me
Piercing knives appear in their eyes
Everything they look at, they despise
Our homes are not a safe haven
We bar and lock them up
To try and save them
Break-ins happen everyday
These menaces in our society
Will not go away
Our children are not safe
In their own homes
Dark and sinister predators
Are on the roam
Darkness surrounds our earth
Their evilness has
Been there since birth
God’s word tells us, Jesus will return
The thorns and thistles
Will shrivel up and burn
Look out you miserable demons
Your blood will pour out like semen
The flesh of your bones
Will melt with fire
Your filth will all burn
With your lustful desire
Jesus will reign again, in our land
We will walk together hand in hand
Love and peace will surround us all
The King of kings, will once again rule

© Natalie Price March 14th 2010

DREAMS COME TRUE

My vision of love
Was never lost
I held on
No matter what
The cost
My years
Of heartache that
I have tallied
Are all behind me
In that dark valley
My dream of love
Is coming true
At one time
It was hard
To believe
With what I’ve
Been through
Do I dare to
Love again
Or shall I
Finish my life
With men
There’ve been
Many men
And women
In my place
Who have given
Their heart
And have been
Slapped in the face
It’s a chance
That we must all take
And forget about
The many mistakes
I will never
Give up my dream
No matter
How hard it seems
I’ve had to let go
Of the misery and scars
My sky looks beautiful
I see many stars
Dreams comes true
And they will for you

© Natalie Price March 15th 2010

IT’S NOT WHAT YOU ARE
IT’S WHAT YOU CAN BE


Why we need Jesus
He wants to receive us
To give us a purpose
A relationship and life
To believe and receive
And make things right
You cannot go back
But Jesus can
He’s the Alpha and
Omega the great I am
Jesus is the same yesterday
Today and forever
In him there is
No such word as never
Nothing is impossible
With God
His light penetrates
Through any dark
And gloomy fog
He walks in those places
Of sin and failure
Because he is
The living Saviour
He can wipe
Your slate clean
Through his blood
You’re redeemed
Jesus knows the
Worst about you
Yet he believes the best
All he asking you to do
Is open your heart
And confess
He wants to be your friend
God knows the
Beginning and the end
He sees you not as you are
But what you can be
The answer is in your heart
He wants to set you free

© Natalie Price March 15th 2010

GOD IS OUR BEST TUTOR

Your future is in God’s hands
Who else are you going to trust
With Jesus, you sure can
In his hands, you’re safe and secure
Whatever you’re going through
He will help you endure
Not just for today, but for
Tomorrow and the future
He’s the best
You’ve got for a tutor
You have hope
Because God has you
In his plans
He gives you wisdom
For you to understand
I thank God everyday
For keeping me strong
I am truly sorry for all the
Things I’ve done wrong
He gave me forgiveness
And taught me
Appreciativeness
I’ve learnt respect
And how to forgive
For the first time in my life
I now know how to live
Our parents are teachers
In many ways
But do we listen
To what they say
I guess that answer
Depends on a lot
In my case scenario
My stomach goes into knots
I did not trust my parents
Because of all the rot
God taught me
How to trust him
He trusted me
Even with all my sin
God knew what I could be
He saw the future
And a new me

©Natalie Price 16th March 2010

STAY POSITIVE

Experiencing abuse
Is a high price to pay
If I was negative
My heartache
Would stay
Being positive has
Changed my view
It has helped me
To have compassion
For what others
Have gone through
I could have
Let my abuse
Ruin my life
However, I would
Never give in
I had to fight
So I fought back
To get my life
Back on track
The best step
That I ever took
Was to pick up
The bible
And read this book
God’s word
Was planted
Into my soul
I wanted him
To have full control
The Lord restored
What was taken
From me
And gave me back
My dignity

© Natalie Price March 17th 2010

THE MOUNTAINS DISAPPEAR

I’ve moved on
To greener pastures
Of all the years gone by
Singing in the rain
A new song, goodbye
To all the tears I’ve cried
No longer haunted
By my memories
Torturing my mind
The dry old desert is gone
Now it’s full of wine
My head, is held high
As I walk through the valley
The mountains disappear
There are no more dark alleys
The air smells so fresh
I take a deep breath
My body feels vitalized
Much more refreshed
As the new day dawns
I look forward to my day
Instead of dark clouds
God’s guiding light
Shows my way
Evilness disperses
In the wind
My face glows
My heart sings
Healing fills my soul
Peace and joy
Has made me whole
The pain and suffering
Is a thing of the past
Whatever evilness
Comes my way
It will never last
Strength has been
Given to me
By the one
Who has set me free

© Natalie Price March 19th 2010

YOUR PRAYERS HAVE SAVED THEM

The seed that has been
Planted in their hearts
Will flourish and grow
God will never let them go
Your prayers have
Saved them from
Years of distress
God often puts us
Under this kind of test
Your faithfulness
Will be well rewarded
Already it’s in
The book of life
And very well recorded
God has heard
Your concerns and prayers
He knows how much
You love and care
These beautiful children
Will give praise one day
Their love for you
Will never go away
We may not always
Understand the ways of God
Our patience does wear thin
Through the dark
And gloomy fog
In this case, there is a reason
You will see your answer
In due season
Then everything will
Be made clear
You have no reason to fear
God will not let his
Children be harmed
They are safe in his arms
The threat of evil
Maybe there
But so is God and
They better be aware

© Natalie Price 20th March 2010

MY EYES SEE A NEW VISION

I would hate to go
Through each day
Without the Lord
Showing me the way
Jesus filled the gap
That had been
Pulling me apart
His love is poured into
Every part of my heart
He whispers gently
In my ear
And lets me know
That he is here
My eyes see
A new vision
One of hope and
Bountiful provision
I have no fear
Of what lies ahead
God is with me
There is no
Need to dread
I look forward
To his return
Feeling his warmth
This I yearn
I’m like a bride
Waiting for her groom
Meeting my Creator
From the womb
My body washed
And cleansed
Through his blood
Taking away all the
Dirt and the mud
God has wiped away
All my tears
My years of failing
Have disappeared
My future looks as
Bright as the sun
Through Jesus
My battles have
Been won.

© Natalie Price March 20th 2010

GOD IS WITH US

There is no substitute
For God’s presence
I have his reassurance
My enemies flee
When they hear
His name
They cower
Into the earth
His name I proclaim
Jesus will separate the
Grain from the chaff
They will burn in hell
With all their wrath
Don’t let the devil
Throw chaff back
In your face
Stand up
To the coward
And put him
In his place
Learn to listen
And learn to heal
Ask God for his will
Without pain
We will not gain
Life is a learning game
There are plenty
Of snakes ready
To strike
God gave us his
Power to fight
Jesus gave us
His sword
Just call on the
Name of the Lord
God is my refuge
And my fortress
In whom I trust
God is with us

© Natalie Price 21st March 2010

LOVE IS BEAUTIFUL

With love
There is no need
For hatred
Love is beautiful
And sacred
With love
You do not judge
Or hold a grudge
With love
There is forgiveness
Not fearfulness
With love
You should
Feel needed
And to be
Well treated
With love
There should
Be respect
This goes both ways
For each other
To connect
With love
There should
Be compassion with
A heart to give
Love should never
Be rationed
With love, it goes
Both ways
Help each other
And pray
Love does not
Want to hurt or cause
Anyone pain
Love treats you kindly
And never
Wants to blame
Love shows no malice
So why be callous
Love each other
As God loves you
His kind of love
Is pure and true

© Natalie Price March 22nd 2010

USING LOVE FOR GAIN

The world has so
Much make believe
What you give
Is what you receive
Lies and deceit fill the air
Dishonest people everywhere
How do we know
When we being deceived
Even thinking about this
My heart grieves
Love can makes us blind
Do they only want me
To take what is mine
How much do
They really care
Or is this just a
Game to them
Behind your back
They laugh and swear
It would be so good
To trust the people
You love
They greet you with
A kiss and a hug
But behind that smile
There is something vile
Surrounded by this
Kind of evil
The devil is using love
To make my life
An upheaval
Lord break the
Chains of darkness
Off those who
Surround me
Let your light
Pierce their hearts
So they’ll flee
Don’t let them
Destroy me with
Their evil plots
One day they
Will get their decree
Using love for gain
This is more to their shame

© Natalie Price March 24th 2010

TAKING CHANCES

Here I go again
Hurt so many times
When will I ever learn
Have I lost my mind
Time after time
I make mistakes again
Am I that plain stupid
Or am I going insane
Trusting people
Is hard to do
Especially when
They lie to you
Disillusionment
And suspicion
Fills my inner being
Are my eyes clouded
From seeing
One day I must win
Not everyone is selfish
And evil with sin
It’s time to take
A chance and not
Believe the worst
If I continue
Going on this way
One day my
Bubble will burst
My heart gets
Really broken
By the negative words
That are spoken
I will have my say
Being positive is
The only way
Taking chances
Is what life is
All about
I choose to believe
Without a doubt

© Natalie Price March 24th 2010

MY PAST HAS BEEN FORGIVEN

Stuck in the shadow
Of my past
Reminded frequently
That I’m an outcast
I’m not what
I use to be
No one wants
Believe in me
I know I have a
Long way to go
The going has
Been tough and slow
There is an old saying
A leopard doesn’t
Change it spots
My heart
Has changed
But they laugh
And scoff
Why can’t they
Give me a chance
And encourage me
In advance
If they had some
Faith in me
They would see
A new creation
I’m now a light
In his salvation
Born again, my past
Has been forgiven
For the first time
I am living
Freedom from sin
A new life to begin
I’m on my way
And doing okay
My past is gone
Praise God for his Son
With Jesus
The battle has
Been won

©  Natalie Price March 25the 2010

THE TIDE WILL TURN

Hide away your charms
They will not
Work on me
You think I don’t know
What you’re doing
I’m not that blind
I do see
There is a
Hidden agenda
Beneath your
Captivating smile
If I had any sense
I would run a mile
You lure women
In your seductive way
By baiting them by
What you say
Telling them
All sorts of lies
Underneath your
Satanic disguise
I see through you
To your very core
It’s like a vision
Given to me
To explore
I’m waiting on God
On how to react
It will not be long
Before God will
Reveal your act
You hide under
A Christian banner
My response to that
It’s a disgusting manner
The tide will turn
You will get
What you’ve earned
It’s amazing what
God has shown me
And what I’ve learned

© Natalie Price March 27th 2010

TOO SCARED TO LOVE

My sea of heartbreak
Of waves and storms
Seems to ignore
My heart, which is
Caring and warm
My worth, is overlooked
They close the book
Not caring to look inside
They walk away
I ask myself why
Deep in thought
And terribly distraught
I ponder over
These things
At one time
I was full of life
And looked forward
To what life brings
The sad part is
I have so much to give
And a wonderful reason
To want to live
The people I meet
Turn their back on love
For me it’s normal
To reach out and hug
I feel so rejected
At different times
Left alone in my misery
Going crazy
In my mind
Many people are
Too scared to love
Protecting themselves
From hurt
In the process
Of doing this
It’s made me
Feel like dirt
Discarded as if
I’ve got no worth
Sometimes I wish
I wasn’t on this earth
Love is the most
Precious gift
Something you 
Cannot buy
The kind of love
That I’ve received
Only makes me cry

© Natalie Price March 28th 2010

WARNED IN ADVANCE

Falling in love
Can be a dicey game
What I believed it to be
Is now pathetically lame
I cannot talk about the
Past, present or future freely
Closet skeletons
Are stirred up severely
Anger flares, his eyes glare
What is in his past
He feels he must hide
Alarm bells are ringing
Is he taking me for a ride
This new relationship
Will never last
If there are hidden secrets
From the past
I hardly spoke a few words
He got so upset
You should have heard
His reaction
Was unbelievable
My suspicious mind
Steps in
This I must say
Is conceivable
As abused victim, I see
Things very clearly
If I go on with
This friendship
Will I pay very dearly
On the other hand
I could be wrong
And lose something
So precious
It could grow strong
Turmoil is going on
Through my mind
Do I shut out the truth
And stay blind
With love I guess
You take a chance
Am I being
Warned in advance
I will wait on God’s answer
Or it will destroy me
Like cancer

© Natalie Price March 29th 2010

LEFT TO DIE

What was she feeling
So close to death
Before she took
Her very last breath
Her body riddled
With knife wounds
Left to die
In a pool of blood
By an evil monster
A murderous thug
The fear she
Must have felt
Within her heart
As her body was
Being pulled apart
Her family devastated
By this news
For this kind of violence
You can never excuse
Her young life taken
At a very tender age
This person
Who done this
Must have been in a
Demonic rage
Everyday people
Are being murdered
Young and old alike
What is this world
Coming too
Sometimes there’s
Not even a fight
This kind of evil
Enjoys bloodshed
They get pleasure
Out of it
Then kick you
In the head
No more are
You safe in
Your own home
With deadly
Predators on the roam

© Natalie Price March 30th 2010