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This page is dedicated to poetry about abuse

The poems on this page have all been contributed by Natalie McDonnell (nee Price), herself a survivor of abuse.
In her poetry, she expresses the pain of abuse and her release from that abuse.
Through her poetry, she endeavours to encourage victims to seek the great help she has found in Christ.
Natalie,  may be contacted through this web site by using the CONTACT form.

Natalie's poems have now been broken up into multiple pages so as to reduce the size of each page.
Each page will now contain a maximum of 20 poems.
You can move from page to page by clicking on the page links to the left.

VIOLATION OF MY THOUGHTS

Please help me understand
Why love can turn to hatred
And change the person I am
Hate causes my
Stomach to churn
It feels so sick with
The twists and turns
When will I ever learn
Revenge is not normally
Part of my scene
Nor is hatred which
Makes you mean
The people I love
Hurt me time after time
Sometimes I feel
I’m completely going
Out of my mind
I question everything I do
And ask myself is this you
I’m the other person
Looking at me
Deep inside
This is what I see
Insecurity, pain and blame
Tortured by the years
Of shame
My life seems to be one
Tangled mess
I’m partly to blame
I must confess
Every now and then
The devil attacks
He knows how to get
Me to react
Evil violates my mind
And my thoughts
It tries to undermine
What Jesus has taught
In my weakness
I almost succumb
Until I call on Jesus
Satan takes off and runs

© Natalie Price March 31st 2010

REJOICE AND LISTEN TO GOD’S VOICE

Listen to the inner voice
The one that gives us
An awesome choice
The wrong decision
Can change your life
Filling it with misery
And heaps of strife
I know this voice so well
When I’ve done
Something wrong
It rings a bell
Life is a journey
Of correction
For some it’s a
Lifelong rejection
It would be nice
To make things right
Instead of constantly
Living with fights
We have two options
In taking the right path
Peace within or
Spending Years
In tears of wrath
Deep inside we know
Which way to go
I get this deep heaviness
In the pit of my soul
It’s like evil has its control
When things are right
There is this inner peace
A beautiful sense of release
My family paid the price
In years of heartache
That was not very nice
Now I rejoice in listening
To God’s voice

© Natalie Price April 1st 2010

WHERE ARE ALL YOUR ACCUSERS

Our Lord has risen
He has set us free from
The chains of death
And from prison
The stronghold of sin
Has been broken
God’s word has
Been spoken
When our lives
Have become
Just grains of sand
Our healing comes
From his hands
Like long lost children
He gathers his sheep
And watches over us
When we sleep
He knows the many tears
We have wept
He’s kept a record
Of the lives that have
Been wrecked
In my darkest moments
Jesus called me
He said come to me
I will set you free
Sometimes our lives
Seem to be in a
Hell of a mess
My life was riddled
With guilt
I must confess
Jesus gave me
An option to choose
He said where are
All your accusers
There was none left
Because they were
The losers
Jesus came to
Gather the lost
He paid our cost
Upon the cross

©Natalie Price April 2, 2010

OPEN THE WAY AND PLEASE PRAY

Abuse spreads like cancer
I pray for an answer
What can we do
To help stop this
Disgusting behaviour
There is only one answer
He is our Saviour
The seed of evilness
Starts in our minds
Satan is out
To destroy mankind
Changing our attitude
Has to start with us
The first step is to
Give God our trust
Lead me to the rock
That is higher than I
He will move mountains
If he sees that, we try
Hand over our burdens
To our Lord
He will strike our enemies
With his sword
His name is higher
Than any other
He joins us together
Like sisters and brothers
We become as one
In the body of Christ
And can make
A difference
In this world that
Is not so nice
Here I stand
Holding out my hand
Come help us fight
This evilness
It’s not right
Open the way
And please pray

© Natalie Price April 3rd 2010

JESUS IS HERE TO STAY

Into his presence we come
He gave us his light
Through his Son
The crown of thorns
Upon his head
Reminds me of
How much his heart bled
His body nailed
To the cross
In suffering and pain
For the lost
He was bruised
And battered
For the lives
That did not matter
His message of hope
Helps us cope
Surviving the many trials
In a world that has
Become so vile
With my eyes closed
I see his blood
Pouring from his veins
I cannot thank him enough
For taking my
Sin and blame
He gave his life
For you and me
Releasing the captives
And setting us free
Forgive and you’ll
Be forgiven
Receive his Spirit
You’ll be
Holy Spirit driven
His body represents
Food for our soul
Take and eat
Give him control
Wine represents his blood
Take and drink it
He will cleanse and
Wash away the mud
Jesus is here today
Jesus is here to stay

© Natalie Price April  4th 2010

WHICH DAD IS MINE

All these children
With different Dads
These days it seems
To be a fashionable fad
Which Dad is mine
Is this a sign of our times
Do our kids
Become confused
It’s not surprising
That they do
Dad has
Different partners
And so does mum
It makes you wonder
What the world
Has become
The kids talk at school
Believe me
They’re no fools
They know what goes on
And they know it’s wrong
Parents demand respect
But they don’t care
How their actions affect
Seeing a stranger in
Their parents bed
Is enough to send them
Off their head
No wonder society
Is so screwed up
Our kids go haywire
And run a muck
The learning process
Starts in the home
What’s the next
Generation of kids
Going to be like
When they’re fully grown
It’s a very scary thought
When we set the examples
For what our kids
Are taught

© Natalie Price 5th April 2010

IT HURTS SO MUCH

It hurts so much when
Family arguments
Tear you apart
When I cannot
See my grandkids
It breaks my heart
It’s hard to believe
My daughter
Can be so cold
I’m scared I will
Never see them again
Even when I’m old
I lost her love
Because of hate
By turning away from me
She is making
A big mistake
My grandkids will
Miss seeing their Nan
I’ve tried to
Get through to her
And do what I can
I have a friend that
She absolutely hates
There is no reason for it
Her heart is in a bad state
The pain she is causing me
She cannot see
I’ve always done
My best for her
And would love to
Have things back
The way they were
Forgiveness is something
She has never understood
Please help her, my Lord
If you would
My daughter believes
She has the right to hate
One day sadly
She will realize that this
Is a big mistake

© Natalie Price April 6th 2010

YOU HAVE NOTHING TO LOSE

My reason for
Going to church
Has helped me cope
With all the hurt
As a member of the
Body of Christ, I feel
Like I belong somewhere
This is especially nice
There is no need
To feel helpless and alone
Join a church
Then you’re not
On your own
There is always
Something you can do
Reaching out is the
Best way to help you
If you have no way
Of getting there
Phone the Pastor
So that he’s aware
He’ll find a way
So don’t despair
My state of mind
Was in a mangled mess
Helping others
Relieved my stress
We do have
A friend in Jesus
Reach out and
Take his hand
We’re all like a piece
Of a puzzle
God will do
Everything he can
In joining us together
As part of his plan
When one part is lost
He will go after it
And pay the cost
You have nothing to lose
All you have to do is choose

© Natalie Price April 7th 2010

THEY ARE NOT REALLY YOUR FRIENDS

Your eyes are red
And you look so relaxed
What have you been up too
To look like that
Your clothes are dirty
Your speech is slurred
Obviously, you’re not
Listening to any of my words
Your language is disgusting
And your words are cruel
You have no respect
For me at all
Don’t talk to me like that
I’m your mother
I’ll give you a slap
You're not that big
For me to do that
I smell alcohol on you
And a lot more
You're in trouble and
You know what for
Where does all that stuff
Come from in your room
I want some answers
And I want them soon
If I have too
I will ring the police
This type of behaviour
Will have to cease
Underage drinking
Is against the law
If you do the crime
You know the score
Dealing in drugs
Is a serious offence
Destroying lives
And your own
Makes no sense
Stealing will get you nowhere
The kind of people you know
Only use you in the end
They’re not  really your friends
Change your attitude
My dear son
Or the future you hope for
There will be none

© Natalie Price April 8, 2010

NOW I’M UNDER GOD’S CARE

Please don’t grieve for me
I will cope, you will see
I must remain strong
So much in my life
Has gone wrong
There are many of whom
Are worse off than me
When I think of what
They have to go through
I look up and thank God
That I’m me
Complaining gets
Me nowhere
Even if I don’t think life’s fair
I’ve learned to accept things
And to help others and care
There is no point
Living in torment
It only destroys your soul
My life at one time
Was utterly out of control
I was as miserable as can be
Refusing to listen
I just couldn’t see
That people were there
Trying to help me
I begged them to let me go
As I kept saying no
Until one day
Things got so bad
Believe me I was sad
I broke down and cried
I was listening to
The devil’s lies
Now I’m under God’s care
Everything he does is fair

©Natalie Price April 9th 2010

WE WILL NOT GIVE UP

So you think you
Have all the power
Well I have news for you
God is the one in control
Maybe you have not
Heard the good news
You use your position
In a very abusive way
The older folk are scared
Because they don’t
Know what to say
The lifestyle
They thought they had
Has become a nightmare
Causing many to
Live in despair
There will be a time when
You’re no longer around
Not everybody cowers down
You act like vigilantes
Taking the rights
Of people away
The only time you will listen
Is when things
Are going your way
You have no concern for
Disabled people
Who have, a genuine need
You’re so full of
Your own importance
You must have been
Bred from a bad seed
How you sleep at night
I have no idea
One day in the future
You will know what
It’s like to fear
Nobody should have
To live this way
And we will have our say
Until the government
Stands up for our rights
We will not give up
On this worthwhile fight

© Natalie Price April 10th 2010

DISGUSTING CONDUCT

I heard him yelling
At the top of his voice
Everyone could hear him
We had no choice
His partner
Walked behind
Obviously embarrassed
And in tears
Her face looked strained
I could see her fear
He spoke to her
Like he was
Ordering his dog
Only it was
So much worse
What a rotten horrible sod
My heart went out
To this dear lady
Just as well, she wasn’t
Carrying a baby
Children could hear
What was going on
We try to teach our
Kids right from wrong
Then they see this
Disgusting conduct
Hearing his filth and muck
His mouth reminded me
Of a sewage pipe
One day he will
Run out of his luck
Someone will king hit him
And give him
What he deserves
Even I felt like doing the job
It was so bad, what I heard

© Natalie Price April 11th 2010

PLAYING THE FIELD

You took the bait
Now it’s too late
We are no longer
Long term mates
The future I thought
We may have had
Has now gone
You were only
Interested in
What I had
You lied
And cheated
How could you be
So conceited
I wanted so much
To believe in you
But you have given me
No choice, to do
What I knew I must do
I had to protect
What was mine
That’s all you wanted
You swine
I nearly was taken
For a fool
You were just
Using me as a tool
This is a disgusting
Miserable act
Everything you told me
Was full of crap
Praise God
I’m a believer
Who prays for
The Lord’s shield
He knows what
You’ve been doing
Playing the field

©Natalie Price April 12th 2010

THE OTHER WOMAN

Who is this other woman
This is not right
You’re on the Internet
Most days and nights
Where do I fit into your life
I believed one day, I would
Become your wife
We’ve talked about
Our plans in future days
Together we would
Go to church and pray
A dream of a home
So we’re both not alone
Am I not good
Enough for you
I’ve given my best
In everything I do
I feel you’re always
Looking for something
Better to come along
Once you’ve found it
Then you want me gone
Your history so far
Has me on the alert
There is no way I want
To be taken down
While you run after
Another skirt
Your feelings for me
Are not what they seem
I thought we were
Good together and
Would make a good team
My family did try to
Warn me about you
Again, I did not listen and
Take heed of their words
My ears, were closed
As if, I hadn’t heard
They knew something
Was very wrong
Now I must stay strong
You’ve destroyed my trust
Now there is no us

© Natalie Price April 13th 2010

MY SUN WILL SHINE AGAIN

My sun will shine again
And light up my life
My broken heart
Will mend
I will hold my head up high
The tears I’ve shed
Have now become dry
I’m looking forward
To my new path
My old one will disappear
With all its wrath
The sadness will pass
My pain and suffering
Will not last
I will hold on to all
My precious memories
And pray for
All my enemies
I will not let
This suffering
Destroy my soul
And never
Let bitterness
Take control
My aim is to enjoy
What life I have left
No matter what  
I’ve been through
It will never take
Hold and affect
Praise God that
He taught me how
To love and forgive
If you want peace
And contentment
This is the way
We should live

© Natalie Price April 14th 2010

TREATED LIKE A LUMP OF MEAT

It would be nice in my life
To find someone I could trust
And become their wife
Most men I meet
Treat me like a
Lump of meat
Degrading me in everyway
When they’ve done with me
They never stay
Women do the same thing
They lustfully use men
Again and again
Until one day it
Happens to them
There does not seem
To be the respect anymore
When people
Have done with you
They show you the door
Men and women are the same
They go to bed with you
And don’t even ask your name
True love is hard to find
For some it takes
A very long time
The world has become
A very sad place
The way television
Promotes sexual conduct
Is a disgrace
This kind of behaviour
Gets shoved in our face
It doesn’t matter
Where you go
The human body
Is put on show
They look at you
As a lover
The respect is gone
For one and other

© Natalie Price April 14, 2010

SHOW SOME LOVE AND BE KIND

At times in your life, you feel so sad
And you wonder to yourself
Why people have to be so bad
Many people I’ve met
Have an evil intent
They’re full of misery
Maliciousness and torment
Sadly, they resent
People who have
Done well for themselves
They actually hate them as well
It’s unbelievable
For people to act this way
Some cannot even smile
Let alone greet you
And say good day
It hurts very deeply
When I reach out in love
To offer them a helping hand
And give them a hug
They think you’re mad
When you offer kindness
This I think is rather sad
Why do people
Reject encouragement
They'd rather be filled
With discouragement
Many people today
Have no hope, let alone pray
The world is filling with evil
We must act now on retrieval
Don’t let the devil fill your mind
Show some love and be kind

©Natalie Price April 15th 2010

GOD’S FURY

You may read about it
In a psychopathic thriller
But you would never
Expect your Dad
To be the killer
This problem is becoming
World wide spread
Often a father slaughters
His family, leaving his
Children all dead
Their blood cries out
From the earth
Many of them have
Been abused since birth
We pass these killers
On our streets
And may even
Work with them
You never know
Who you’ll meet
Women also
Kill their young
Showing no mercy
Even with their tongue
They strike their children
Like an evil vile snake
To see it, makes
Your heartbreak
Some people
Have children
And treat them as slaves
Until their tiny bones
Have no meat on them
They are then
Thrown into graves
The dark side of evil
Clouds our world
They will know what
God’s fury is like
When it’s hurled

© Natalie Price April 17th 2010

WE’VE BEEN BLESSED
THROUGH HIS SON

Abusing is using
I now must wait
On God for his choosing
The dust has settled
The storms have gone
The agony of heartbreak
Has gone on too long
As I feebly ponder
Over what has been lost
I remembered what
Jesus suffered on the cross
Shame fills my heart
When I think of what
Has been saved
He’s protected me
So many times
From becoming
A man’s slave
I could have lost more
Than my broken heart
Everything I own 
Could have been torn apart
The cross, which I had to bear
In comparison with Jesus
Is nothing to compare
Instead of thinking selfishly
I should be praising joyfully
When God blesses
Two people to become one
Give thanks to Jesus
That we’ve been blessed
Through his Son

© Natalie Price April 17th 2010

IF IT’S NOT TO BE

Lord, you’ve set me free
If my time on earth
Is not to be
Then I know
It's just you and me
The years I’ve toiled
Have kept me on guard
Trusting no one
Has been hard
My desire to be loved
Is as strong as ever
My path for love
Maybe never
But I know in my heart 
I have your love forever
This is what
Keeps me growing
Your strength
Keeps me going
One thing I will
Never do is give up
Or look down and say
Its just bad luck
I’ve learnt so much
Along my path
At times it's been hell
With nothing but wrath
Through life experiences
I’ve learnt to give back
My suffering and heartache
Often sent me off track
I will never let the devil win
And I will never ever give in
All I want to do is
Give out your love
It doesn’t matter
If I’m kicked and shoved
Your love will never
Be taken away
Because your love is
Here to stay

© Natalie Price April 19, 2010