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This page is dedicated to poetry about abuse

The poems on this page have all been contributed by Natalie McDonnell (nee Price), herself a survivor of abuse.
In her poetry, she expresses the pain of abuse and her release from that abuse.
Through her poetry, she endeavours to encourage victims to seek the great help she has found in Christ.
Natalie,  may be contacted through this web site by using the CONTACT form.

Natalie's poems have now been broken up into multiple pages so as to reduce the size of each page.
Each page will now contain a maximum of 20 poems.
You can move from page to page by clicking on the page links to the left.

I SAW ALL THE SIGNS

Please don’t take
Our babies away
They’re my children
And I need them to stay
It’s not my fault
You want to leave
There is no way
Your taking
Our children
Their little hearts
Will grieve
They will not
Understand that
You have found
Another man
This is not fair on them
Somehow they
Feel condemned
Living without
Each other
While you go off
For another
I can see the pain
In their eyes
They look
At us and cry
Their faces
Are full of fear
Their eyes are
Full of tears
They’re so young
Their lives have
Just begun
How could you
Do this to us
You’ve destroyed
All their trust
And mine
I had a feeling
This was coming on
I saw all the signs

© Natalie Price April 20, 2010

DEEPLY DEPRESSED

This may sound ridiculous
Love can turn to bitterness
As quick as it turns to love
The only assurance I have
Is from our loving God above
Trials do keep us strong
Sometimes they seem
To go on and on
I’ve often wondered
How much more can I take
Before I fall
To pieces and break
Mentally exhausted
Through the
Constant pressure
By the end of the day
I’m in need of a refresher
Depression is an experience
That can give you
Suicidal thoughts
It slowly eats you away
And leaves you
Completely distraught
It doesn’t take much
To send you over the edge
Especially with a partner
Who has given you
Their undying pledge
Infidelity can rip
Your heart out
And cause you
Such deep pain
I’ve been through
It so often
Time and time again
If you know someone who
Is deeply depressed
Pray for them and
Let God do the rest

© Natalie Price April 20th 2010

IF ONLY I COULD UNDERSTAND

Just a child
Why care about me
Most people think
I am useless
Because I cannot
Learn you see
I’ve really tried
It does not sink in
Most of the time
I don’t know
How to begin
My teachers
Think I’m dumb
I cannot catch on
And do my sums
The kids at school
Pick on me
They’re so unkind
They will not let me be
I hate going to school
They think I’m
A stupid fool
I find it hard
To spell and read
I have no friends
They laugh at me
And call me names
Like a useless breed
I know I need
Some extra help
I’ve even been
Threatened with The belt
Everyone looks at me
And scorns
I wish I had never
Ever been born
If only I could
Understand
It would be so nice
To have a friendly hand

© Natalie Price April 21st 2010

SHARE GOD’S LOVE

The old saying
Two is company
And three, is a crowd
I use to believe that I
Was the dark cloud
Even as a child
I could feel their dislike
The look, on their faces
Was full of spite
I could never
Understand why
I didn’t fit in
This uneasiness
I felt deep within
Friends I found
Were hard to keep
As soon as someone
Else came around
I was dumped and
Trashed into a heap
All I wanted was a friend
My life was in misery
Many times, I had wished
It would end
As an adult
I wanted so desperately
To be loved
What was wrong with me
I feel so unloved
My life has changed
In many ways
God has taught me
His love, is the only way
I am not bitter and I
Will never feel alone
Because I have my Jesus
His seed in me has sown
Rejection can last a lifetime
Don’t let it pull you down
Start to share God’s love
And spread it all around

© Natalie Price April 22nd 2010

A SIMPLE WORD OF THANKS

Look high above the horizon
The beauty of creation is there
Behind this spectacular scenery
Is a supreme divinity, that cares
Lifting up my eyes, I see God’s beauty
In his magnificent splendour
I can feel the power of his love
As I reach out and surrender
His presence is what I feel
My ears hear his voice
Listen and be still
His warmth fills
Every part of my being
With my eyes closed
His world, is what I’m seeing
All my fears and tears
Seem so far away
Under his guiding light
Is where I want to stay
His peace saturates my soul
Relieving the burdens
That have taken, its toll
Where his shadow is, I will go
His peace and contentment
Softly flows
The air smells fresh
As I take a deep breath
My heart is overflowing with joy
Creation is given to us to enjoy
This is only a glimpse
Of what God can do for you
His gift of life is what
He wants you to have too
All the past, will be wiped away
A bright new future is on the way
A simple word of thanks
Is all he needs
Accept him as the your Saviour
And bow down to your knees

© Natalie Price April 23, 2010

THEY’RE IN DANGER

In the mind of a maniac
You will never know
How they will react
These children live in a
Dangerous situation
With a man who is
Not even their relation
Their mother refuses
To believe their
Situation is serious
When this man’s past
Is very mysterious
So much about him, is hidden
His conscience 
Must be guilt ridden
Molesting young girls
Who are too afraid
To shout and speak out
Threatened by this
Depraved evil man
Who has nothing
But filth on his hands
They cower behind
Closed doors
This paedophile
Could strike again
And it could be yours
These children feel the fear
When this demonic
Grime is near
Hanging out on the streets
Refusing to go home
Dreading his presence
And being with him alone
Their mother needs
To get her act right
Protect her young
From this scum
They’re in danger
He’s one perverted stranger
It will not be long
Before something
Seriously goes wrong

© Natalie Price  April 24th 2010

TURNING ON A MOTHER’S LOVE

My heart, is broken by words
That were, not spoken
I felt their chilliness in the air
Sadness overwhelms me
As I sit there in despair
To look at these precious children
To whom I given so much love
All of sudden I’ve realized
There’s going to be less
Of their special hugs
I’ve given my life for my family
In doing what I can
I may not have been
The best of mothers
However, I’m always there
To give a helping hand
How can they turn
On a mother’s love
What have I done to
Deserve things this way
I asked for a favour
Then came the excuse, there
Seems little hope of a truce
I love my family dearly, but
This is hurting me severely, their
Vicious words spoken
Behind my back
Their respect for me
They definitely lack
I’m thinking seriously
Of turning away
To stop this hurt
And find my own way
Unforgiveness, is not God’s will
They’ve closed the door
To the way I feel
Rejection is something
I cannot cope with
I let it out and cry, sadly
It’s killing me inside
The kind of love that I give
Can never ever die
In return for my affection
I’m hated and despised
I know I’m not a bad person
As God has called me to pray
And to reach out and
Help others, day by day
If only my family could see
What God has put in my heart
Maybe they could understand
A pure love can never depart

© Natalie Price April 26, 2010

GOD GIVES STRENGTH TO THE MEEK

God wants us to
Love our neighbors
If this is right, why do
We have to fight
Our spiritual enemy
Is the devil
He wastes no time in
Bringing us down
To his level
Satan is out to
Destroy our soul
If we let him
He will take control
Anger and bitterness
Gives place for the
Enemy to invade
He comes in
Many disguises
As a masquerade
There is death and life
In power of the tongue
The fruit of our own lips is
What we may become
We’re raised, for battle
In victory we will stand
Against the enemy of man
We may at times
Think we are weak
Our God gives strength
To the meek
Be gentle and kind
And keep a sound mind
Stay focused on
Preventing evilness
To take its hold
You will start to see
Your life, unfold
The moment you let the
Enemy in, your life becomes
Burdened with the
Evilness of sin

©Natalie Price April 26th 2010

IN FEAR FOR HER LIFE

A cowardly act
By a despicable man
Bashing his woman
Using his hands
His violent behaviour
Has landed him jail
Sadly, our system
Again has failed
He’s out again
To get revenge
One lady he hurt badly
Needed medical care
Too afraid to press charges
She just wouldn’t dare
Another woman lives in fear
She bolts up her house
In case he comes near
These women are to scared
To get the law involved
It’s a serious problem and
A very hard one to solve
If these women
Don’t come forward
More and more will get hurt
Does someone have to die
By the hands of
This miserable jerk
A lady I know has been
Bashed several times
It’s a worry to her mother
She’s going out of her mind
So concerned for her daughter
And in fear for her life
He could strike again
Using a knife
She is moving house
To get away from this
Vile demonic louse
No woman should have
To suffer this
Kind of violation
The law has set
This man free on probation
Women need to speak out
Against these horrible louts

© Natalie Price April 28th 2010

MY LIFE IS PRECIOUS TO ME NOW

The sound of the waves
Gently on the shore
So gentle and refreshing
You crave for it more
The peace and tranquillity
Softens the soul
Helping to break the burdens
That has taken their toll
Sometimes it’s good
To get away
Clear the mind and pray
My heart pounds
And trembles with fear
Concentrating on things
That have brought
Me to tears
A solution can sometimes
Be found, if your mind has
Been recharged and sound
Step back a little and
Take a deep breath
Think about the good things
That you have left
Your situation can look
So much brighter
If you loosen the chains
From becoming tighter
Revitalized and
Ready to go
I can face my
Enemies and know
That all things
Are possible with God
I refuse to let the devil win
And be robbed
The past has been
Sinfully foul
My life is
Precious to me now

© Natalie Price April 28th 2010

SAVED OUR SON

Your words hurt me so
Please pack you gear and go
Don’t lay your guilt trips on me
I don’t need this kind of crap
I rather be free
You put the blame on
Everyone else, except you
I come home from work and
You take your spite
Out on me too
I feel like I’m always
Under your thumb
Do this, do that
Then you call me scum
There’s nothing I do right
We always end up in fight
Home is like a war zone
Our son wants to leave home
He is starting to
Have serious problems
And wants to be left alone
His grades have fallen
To an all time low
Something is bothering him
This I know
I hate to see him
Go through this
He use to be happy
This is something I miss
I’ve notice he stays
Out longer at night
This makes me uneasy
It’s just not right
He has been acting
Very strange of late
The look on his face
Makes my heart break
This fighting must stop
You're miserable as sin
And  your heart
Has become like rock
Before some real
Damage is done
We must stop this
And save our son

© Natalie Price April 29th 2010

WE MUST BELIEVE
GOD IS THERE


High above the mountains
As far as I can see
Remembering all
The valley’s
I’ve overcome within me
Looking back upon
Many disasters
I thank God
I’ve now found
What I’ve been after
Peace and tranquility
The road has been
Hard and rough
The trials have
Been fairly tough
My Lord was with me
For every moment
Helping me fight
My opponent
He walks beside me
Each day, guiding my
Steps along the way
I refuse too ever give up
Or allow the devil
To convince me
Its just bad luck
Every trial is an
Experience
It may take
Perseverance
But it’s worth it
To overcome
You can do it
If your faith is in
God’s precious Son
Answers come
Through prayer
We must believe
God is there

© Natalie Price 30th April 2010

PASSION OR IS IT LUST

Passion or is it lust
Intimacy comes
Through trust
Men sometimes
Feel rejected when
They’re refused
Some women feel
They want
A commitment
And do not
Want to be used
Most men I’ve met
Want me in bed
They don’t care
About me
Or the way they
Mess up my head
Being in love is special
And it’s lovely to
Hug up and nestle
It’s true the media
Promotes sex
It makes you wonder
What’s next
They do it in a
Cheap and nasty
Provocative manner
It’s plastered, everywhere
On large colourful banners
No wonder there’s
Very little respect
These actions have
A very serious affect
Our children grow in this
Lustful environment
They’re our next
Generation before
Their retirement
In years to come
What will they become
I do not like being treated
Like I’m a hollow log
When you love someone
You’re honouring God

© Natalie Price May 1st 2010

SATAN CLEAR OUT

The devil stole
My love away
The pain of losing him
Is still with me today
The attack was vicious
He was out to destroy
My faith and hope
Then finally my joy
I have moved on
To some extent
But the love I’ve lost
At times, it torments
I’ve tried to love again
The partners I’ve met
Have been
The wrong men
My dream seems
Further away
As I grow older
The less chances
They’ll stay
Do I bother to try
I’m so lonely at times
I just cry
Why is a companion
So hard to find
There are so many
Out there
Are they blind
Satan clear out
Of my life
Never come back
I will stand up and fight
You’ve stolen
So much from me
I rebuke you devil
Jesus has set me free

©Natalie Price May 2nd 2010

PRAY FOR PROTECTION

Her tiny face is of an Angel
So innocent and pure
I’ve asked for a
Special blessing on this child
Her future environment
Is so unsure
Her daddy is into drugs
I know he loves her dearly
But his home is
Surrounded by thugs
Drug dealers come and go
This breaks my heart so
Her daddy’s involvement
With people with sick minds
Can be very distressing
As they’re dangerous kinds
He is so blind
He doesn’t see how
Wrong this can be
I’ve tried to discourage him
From these kind of
People he meets
I’m told it’s not
My business and
Everything is sweet
I’m so concerned
For my angel’s welfare
Someone has to care
To bring a beautiful
Child up this way is
Definitely not fair
This child deserves
The very best
Until things change
I will not rest
I’ve prayed for
God’s protection upon
This home and child
The devil is not going to win
This evilness is so vile

© Natalie Price May 4th 2010

SATAN HATES US TO PRAY

How do you heal
When you’ve been
Hurt so much
The answer to that
Is our Lord
And for us to
Keep in touch
Bitterness and hate
Only destroys you
Change your attitude
Pray them through
Look at the cause
Not the person
Ask God to heal them
Don’t allow things
To worsen
Prayer has
Amazing affect
When it comes
From the heart
It takes effect
Hate is like poison
It destroys the soul
Giving the devil
Full control
You may think
What is the use
Of prayer
From my own
Experience
God is always there
If I cannot succeed
I hand it over to God
Sometimes our burdens
Are so thick
You can’t see
Through the fog
There is no way
I am going to allow
The devil to win
I rather pray for them
Than to let this sin in
Satan hates you to pray
It’s a weapon against him
His evil flees away

© Natalie Price May 5th 2010

GIVE ME A HEART TO PRAY

Help me Lord
Each day to pray
And not to hurt people
In any way
Evil temptations
Are no good for me
I want to become
Like you want me to be
Take the stress and
Pain out of my life
Fill me with your love
Make me strong
With your might
Each word I speak
I pray it will be a
Blessing to the weak
Give me strength
To face my foes
And the wisdom
To let me know
So that I can tell
When evil is near
Which is full
Of violence
Hatred and fear
Refresh my mind
Clear out
All of the sin
To stand and fight
This victory and win
Where I am weak
Make me strong
Help me not to do
Anything wrong
Open my eyes
For me to see
The suffering
And pain that is
Around me
Give me a heart
To pray
All this evil away

© Natalie Price May 6th 2010

DON’T RUN AWAY
YOU COULD GET BURNT


Why do you look so sad
No smile on your face
Things cannot
Be that bad
You tell me you don’t
Ever want to go home
My dear you cannot walk
The streets and roam
Your parents would be
Worried about you
And hurt that you
Cannot tell them what
You’re going through
You say they will
Kick you out anyway
And you’re too scared
To go on home
Being out here
Late at night
Is not safe
When you’re alone
If you cannot go home
Then go to the police
They will find you
Somewhere at least
Whatever the problem
It can be, sorted out
You need to talk it over
Trust someone
Without a doubt
Trusting people
Is hard when
You’ve been hurt
Running away
You could get burnt
Talk it over
With someone
You can trust
Don’t be in a rush
Think before your actions
Your parents may give
A better reaction

© Natalie Price May 6, 2010

TALK TO ME BEFORE IT’S TOO LATE

Strange you’ve changed
So much since I saw, you last
You’re not the same person
Who use to make me laugh
Why be so grumpy
What has caused you
To feel this way
You seem so distant
Your thoughts are far away
Have I done something
To upset you like this
Usually you greet me
With a hug and a kiss
I feel the tension in the air
Your attitude is like
You don’t really care
You’ve hardly sat down
Why don’t you just go
You keep walking
To and fro
You appear confused
Ready to blow a fuse
I hope it’s not drugs
But the way you look
And the way you shrug
Makes me believe
You have been
Meeting up
With these thugs
Your heart seems
Full of hate
Talk to me
Before it’s too late

©Natalie Price May 8th 2010

THIS REALLY MAKES ME MAD

Green with envy how
Hurtful can they be
Just because they
Don’t have what
I’ve worked for
Now they want
To destroy me
Speaking with
A lying tongue
Demonic vipers but
They haven’t won
Jealously is a curse
Destroying
One’s property
Is even worse
These people
Cannot stand to
See others do well
They’re so evil
They put you
Through hell
Hate fills their hearts
They want to tear
What you have apart
I’ve seen new vehicles
Scratched right
Up the side
These cowards run
Into their holes and hide
They don’t want to work
To get what you have
But they’re ready
To steal and trash
This is what really
Makes me mad
So many are victims
Of this kind of abuse
No one’s property
Is safe when these
Kind of creeps
Are on the loose

©Natalie May 9, 2010