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This page is dedicated to poetry about abuse

The poems on this page have all been contributed by Natalie McDonnell (nee Price), herself a survivor of abuse.
In her poetry, she expresses the pain of abuse and her release from that abuse.
Through her poetry, she endeavours to encourage victims to seek the great help she has found in Christ.
Natalie,  may be contacted through this web site by using the CONTACT form.

Natalie's poems have now been broken up into multiple pages so as to reduce the size of each page.
Each page will now contain a maximum of 20 poems.
You can move from page to page by clicking on the page links to the left.


YOU’RE BEING SCAMMED

Her mind is so twisted
There is no love
In her heart
What she really wants
Will tear you apart
She hunts like an animal
Until she gets her prey
Using all she can
To get her way
Her weapons
Are her tears
She pretends
To be in fear
Lost and alone
To get what you own
One after another
Comes her sob stories
She sucks you in
By all this gory
There is always
Turmoil in her life
The path she has walked
Has not been right
Her pain has
Caused her to revenge
Why should you be
The one she avenges
Sadly, you’ll be the one
Who will lose in the end
Satan is on the attack
Open your eyes
And see this act
The world is full
Of malicious cons
You’ll never know
Where they come from
Love is kind and giving
You work hard
For your living
Sadly I feel
You’re being scammed
These kinds
Go after any man

© Natalie Price May 10th 2010

YOU’RE A GAME PLAYER

How many lovers
Do you need
You sleep around
Then use me
This has been
Going on for so long
I thought I was the blame
But I was wrong
I gave you my love
My loyalty and trust
But that was not enough
You’re the one that
Has destroyed us
What you’ve lost
You’ll never gain back
It’s gone forever
That’s the sad fact
I gave you my love
My life, and everything
Within me
But you’ve destroyed
This love, one day
You will see
You’ve lost your
Pot of gold
This is something
You will live with
Until you’re old
The kind of love
That I gave, will
Never come again
Think about this
When you’re  off
With them
You’re a game player
The dark clouds
Around you are
Turning greyer
True love does not
Come around that often
You may regret this
Until you’re buried
In your coffin

© Natalie Price May 11th 2010

I FEEL SORRY
FOR HIM NOW

My Dad really
Hated me
He belted me
From the age of three
From what
I can remember
He use to drag me
By my ears
Slap me around
My head until
I was screaming
Out in tears
In his eyes
I could do
Nothing right
From my very
Early days
All we did
Was fight
Memories of
My childhood
Have stayed
With me for life
Sometimes it
Hurts so deep
I want to kill him
With a knife
My attitude
Towards him has
Changed somewhat
He really is paying
The price for all his rot
He’s a very sick man
In pain and misery
And has plenty
Of time for reflection
To think about all the
Pain and my rejection
I kind of feel sorry
For him, his life has
Ended this way
For all the pain
He has caused
Now he has to pay

© Natalie Price 12th May 2010

YOU’LL SEE A NEW LIGHT

Learn how to forgive
It’s the only way to live
All your pain and sorrow
Will only leave you lifeless
Empty and hollow
There is a new tomorrow
Let go and let
God work within
Don’t hold onto
Your bitterness
It will destroy
You like sin
Pray for the person
Who has hurt you deep
Do it every night before
You lay down to sleep
When morning comes
You’ll see a new light
Through God’s Holy Son
This will be a
Victory for you
Which the devil
Has not won
Forgiving someone
Is like a breath
Of fresh air
At last, you feel free
Of a life of despair
Peace and contentment
Fills you within
As you walk
In righteousness
Away from this sin
Good health is what
Fills your soul
Healing comes
As the devil
Loses control

© Natalie Price  May 13th 2010

IT’S BEST TO BE HONEST

Finding out that your dad
Is not your real father
Can affect you very bad
The anguish of not knowing
Who you really are
The unanswered questions
Can deeply scar
My mother told me
When I was eleven
Before that day
My life was like heaven
All of a sudden my mind
Was deeply troubled
How could my life
Be in such a muddle
I couldn’t think
My mind was in a whirl
This news of my dad
Destroyed my world
My path was on the
Straight and narrow
All of a sudden
I did not care
I thought my mum
Was pretty shallow
My grades went down
At school, I didn’t care
I was acting like a fool
My moral standards fell away
I let boys use me, in every way
Then I started taking drugs
Most of my mates
Were a bunch thugs
This path was
Leading me nowhere
I had to change my life
Of misery and despair
Now that I’m a mother
I understand my mum
She really did care
It’s best to be honest
In the long run
She cannot change
What has been done
In many ways
I’ve been blessed
The dad I’ve got
Is the best

© Natalie Price May 14th 2010

GOD BELIEVED
THAT I COULD CHANGE


When I was young
I did not like the
Person I had become
As I look back
At the things I did
I wasn’t much
Better than scum
You would never
Believe it now
I have completely
Changed, and how
There is an old saying
A leopard cannot
Change its spots
It’s a lie of the devil
Believe me, its rot
God can change
The heart of evil man
And deliver him
With one of his
Mighty commands
I thank God
He saw something
In me, that I thought
I could never be
God believed
That I could change
He gave his Son
In exchange
His life for mine
With a love so divine
No matter how bad
Things become
We can be saved
Through the Son

© Natalie Price May 12th 2010

WHERE HAS THAT
HAPPY GIRL GONE


I’m trying to
Mend bridges and
Let healing flow
The more I try
To show love
She just wants
To let go
Hatred is
Filling her heart
And is tearing
Us apart
She use to be a
Warm hearted girl
Now she is malicious
With insults, she hurls
Her words are
Bitter and cruel
Each time
She speaks
She adds fire
To the fuel
I’ve come to the
End of my road
No matter what I do
She just corrodes
Why does she have
To be so spiteful
At one time
Her nature was
So delightful
Her reasoning now
Is all wrong
Where has that
Happy girl gone
Her personality
Has changed
It’s like she has
Become deranged

© Natalie Price May 14th 2010

BIND US TOGETHER
IN LOVE FOREVER


Oh Lord, my life has been
Empty for so long
This brokenness
Consumes me
I need a place to belong
My relationships, have
Not been successful
At times, when I’m by myself
It becomes very stressful
Mistrust and rejection
Has turned away affection
I am no stranger to abuse
The chains that have
Kept me bound
I have broken loose
I want so desperately
To be loved and
Go to bed at night
And be hugged
Having someone by my side
To fill that void deep inside
My journey in life
Has been alone
No one to depend on
When I come home
All I want is someone
Of my own
Please Lord don’t let
The past rule my head
I must learn to let go instead
The cry of my heart
Has been there for so long
Everyone I’ve met
It’s all been wrong
Take my life Lord
Please guide my path
Fill it with your love
And take away the wrath
Help me to stay strong
When things do go wrong
Lead me to the rock to
Rebuild my foundation on
Bind us together in love forever

© Natalie Price May 17, 2010

THESE ARE THE LOST SHEEP

Walking blindly
Through dark valleys
This oppressive stench
Reeks the air
All around I feel
Their sorrow
Weeping out
In despair
Tortured minds
Lost in a world
That has gone
Out of their mind
Crying and weeping
Is all I hear
You can feel the
Coldness in the air
No one likes them
Does anybody care
All they do is frown
At them and some
Spitefully swear
Their world has
No meaning
Some people
Taunt them in a way
That is very demeaning
The agony in
Their face appears
Their eyes are bloodshot
From all their tears
These are the lost sheep
They have no place
To lay their heads
And go to sleep
You say you love
Your neighbour
Reach out and
Touch their life and
Show God your labour

© Natalie Price May 17th 2010

NO RESPECT OR HONOUR

Please don’t hurt me so
Or I will turn away and go
For what you’ve
Put me through
I know what I need to do
Walk away before
You caused me harm
Within myself
I must stay calm
Why defamed my name
Our relationship
Will never be the same
I’ve lost my trust in you
I don’t know what
I’m going to do
In my quite moments
As I ponder over the
Things you’ve said
It all makes no sense
In the letters I’ve read
You’ve accused and
Judged me unjustly
By victimizing
Me in a public place
Making me out
To be a disgrace
There is no way
In this world
You’ll be blessed
From above
If this is the way
You show your love
No respect or honour
You certainly know
How to dishonour

© Natalie Price May 18th 2010

GOD BRINGS PEACE

Driving home
Gives you plenty
Of time to think
Shadows are
Closing in that
Forcibly make
Your heart sink
Negative thinking
Starts to rise
As you watch the
Car lights pass by
Dark mists start
To surround the hills
Everything seems to
Be closing in
Against your will
Your mind in turmoil
From under all the stress
Maybe it’s time
To take a long hard rest
The mountains I see
Seem so high
Oh Lord
How do I get
Above them, I cry
Is this some
Kind of a test
I’m trying to do my best
I must get my mind
Out of this void
It’s destructive and
Wants to destroy
There is this evil voice
That shouts
I have to learn
How to overcome doubt
When things are right
God brings this peace
When things are wrong
This evil does not cease
Don’t allow our hearts
To be troubled
Neither be afraid
God’s peace will
Be with you
When it’s right
It will stay

© Natalie Price Thursday 20th 2010

NEVER FORGET TO PRAY

Always give thanks
For all the little things
Which come your way
Appreciate every
Wonderful moment
Never forget to pray
Speak words of
Encouragement to uplift
Ones spirit up high
Fill their day
With gladness
You’ll feel like
An eagle that fly’s
Words of kindness
Brings strength
To your body
Mind and soul
Love is the key
That takes control
Give from your heart
Touch a person’s life
Walk on the path
That you know is right
These are the keys
That God has taught me
He’s opened my eyes
To many things I see
My life has not been
Without sadness
Or sorrow
But everyday is blessed
I praise God for tomorrow
Live for everyday
It could be your last
Forgive those that
Hurt you, at times
This is not an easy task
You never know what
Is in store
Rather than revenge
Pray even more

© Natalie Price May 21st 2010

MY SPIRIT WILL LIVE FOREVER

Deep into the
Depth of my mind
Where no one else can go
The hidden secrets
Of the past
Are the ones
No one will ever know
The agony of remembering
Darkens the light in me
It’s hard to comprehend
The person that I use to be
The Spirit of God knows it all
He didn’t turn his back
Instead he took my fall
The heaviness within
Sometimes drags me down
God’s gracious love
In me, now abounds
There is this desire
Within my soul
I want so much
For God to
Make me whole
Filling the air
That I breathe
With love
And compassion
To move down the path
That God has fashioned
My feelings
Go very deep
The spirit is in battle
Even when I’m asleep
The dark enemy is awake
Trying to destroy my spirit
Until I break
So determined am I
I will never give up
Even when I die
My spirit will
Live forever
The devil has no chance
Not now, not ever

© Natalie Price May  22nd 2010

I HOPE AND PRAY
HE FORGIVES


His hands were
Around her throat
Their little boy
Clutching his
Mother, crying
Please daddy don’t
He hated seeing his
Mother abused
His Dad often
Blew his fuse
Fear crept into
This tiny boy’s heart
He loved his Dad
But this was
Ripping them apart
His mum was grieving
She spoke many times
About leaving
How would we live
Where would we go
His mum was so worried
She didn’t know
All he knew was
Arguments and fights
This little boy
So desperately
Wanted to make
Things right
He knew his mum
Could not go
On this way
Sadly for them
There was no
Place to stay
He didn’t want
His mum to be hurt
He cried, Daddy
Don’t treat mum like dirt
Now he sees
Very little of his Dad
It’s affecting him severely
This is very sad
I hope and pray
This boy forgives
It will only destroy him
As long as he lives

© Natalie Price May 22nd 2010

DON’T LET THE DEVIL IN

He comes in like fire
To burn your soul
By destroying your faith
Till you’re out of control
His sinister plan
Is to take you
Out of God’s hands
I can see you’re grieving
Without a doubt
Don’t let the devil in
And don’t kick God out
God has not forsaken you
He is carrying you
All the way through
His hand has been
Upon your life
Drawing you closer
To make things right
This is a trial, you’re in
You’ll overcome it, within in
God does not want us
To make demands
He wants to guide us
Through his hands
You’ve been faithful
For so long
The devil knows
Your faith is strong
Through your loss
He attacks like a fox
Pulling you down
To the ground
You may not think
This trial is fair
God is with you
And he is there
His word says
He will not put on you
More than you can bear
The Lord has heard
Your  many prayers
He really loves you
And he cares

© Natalie Price May 24th 2010

IN US THEY PUT THEIR TRUST

My heart bleeds
When I see
Children in need
Their feet are cold
Their clothes are
Full of holes and old
Where they live
Is very shabby
Their home needs
A good clean
Their parents sound
Terribly mean
Sometimes the kids
Are not sent to school
Their parents don’t care
If they break any rules
There is hardly any
Nourishment in
Their food
To treat your children
This way
Is disgusting and rude
Our children are
God’s gifts to us
To love and to cherish
In us they put
Their trust
They look for
Encouragement
From us they learn
Respect is something
That has to be earned
These children are
Our future generation
They need our nurturing
If you want them
To fill your expectations
When you water a flower
It blooms
Neglect leads to
Destruction and doom

© Natalie Price May 25, 2010

THIS SCENE IS MAYHEM

The air is heavy
I can hardly breathe
Sick to the stomach
Ready to heave
Clouds of darkness
Fill the air
Vaporizing the blood lost
Everywhere
Tortured victims
Spread out for the
Vultures to consume
Lifeless bodies
Everywhere amongst
The gloom and doom
Evil greediness
That soaks up the power
These murdering devils
They live in dark towers
Their hearts are
Filled with venom
This scene is mayhem
They have risen
To this position
With lies and deceit
Their stomachs
Are lined with poison
As they desecrate
The weak
Innocent children
Mothers and babies
Victims of this carnage
Their homes have
Been pillage
Young women raped
While onlookers just gape
Give thanks to your God
That you live in peace
Give thanks to Jesus
He is our High priest
Give thanks that
He was born
To wear your
Crown of thorns

© Natalie Price 25th May 25, 2010

SADISTIC AND COLD

Listen to their voices
The silent cry
Of their heart
For them, they
Had no choices
Born to parents
With no love
Never knowing
A warm hug
Discarded as
If they had no worth
Not wanted from the
Day of their birth
Their parents are
Sadistic and cold
And spiteful in
Their attitude
You do as
You’re told
Forced into
Prostitution at a
Very tender age
These brutal attacks
Are full of rage
With tears rolling
Down their faces and
Very badly swollen
Their innocence
Has been stolen
This burden of misery
Will be there for life
For these children
They dread the
Darkness of the night
Jesus Christ is the
Only one that can
Put things right

© Natalie Price May 27, 2010

NAGGING ONLY MAKES
THINGS WORSE


If you’re looking
For perfection
You will always find faults
High expectations can bring
You down with a jolt
Your attitude
Can get  in the way
You want them to change
You cannot accept
The way they are
Therefore, you
Try to rearrange
It may be, the
Way they dress
Or the way they
Wear their hair
You’re always going
On at them, this
Is very unfair
I have learnt to accept
People as they are
It’s not up to me
To change them
This can cause deep scars
I’ve lost friends
Many times because
My views were out of line
Its up to God to do
The changing
If people need
To overcome sin
Its best if the changes
Come from within
Nagging only makes
Things worse
Before I speak
I think out things first
Now I give
Encouragement
And love
It makes a huge difference
When you give them a hug

© Natalie Price May 27th 2010

ROBBED AND LEFT FOR DEAD

A little old man
Hobbling along
Minding his
Own business
He’s not very strong
His looks very feeble
Suddenly, attacked
It’s unbelievable
His clothes are
Almost in rags
What he owns
Is in a small bag
Robbed for a
Few small coins
Kicked in his
Stomach and groin
Robbed and left for dead
This poor old soul
Doesn’t even have a bed
You cowards
Are nothing
But evil freaks
Picking on
Someone who
Is elderly and weak
Our streets and homes
Are no longer safe
Especially for
This elderly waif
His face shows sadness
Wherever he goes
He’s alone and lost
As he walks to and fro
Heartless cruel
Sadistic beings
Walking our streets
Just grabbing what
They’re seeing
Without thought
Or feelings
 Except stealing
I pray for this
Evilness to stop
This world is full of rot

©Natalie Price May 28th 2010