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This page is dedicated to poetry about abuse

The poems on this page have all been contributed by Natalie McDonnell (nee Price), herself a survivor of abuse.
In her poetry, she expresses the pain of abuse and her release from that abuse.
Through her poetry, she endeavours to encourage victims to seek the great help she has found in Christ.
Natalie,  may be contacted through this web site by using the CONTACT form.

Natalie's poems have now been broken up into multiple pages so as to reduce the size of each page.
Each page will now contain a maximum of 20 poems.
You can move from page to page by clicking on the page links to the left.

WHY THEY SAW ME
AS DIFFERENT


Deep in my heart
Is a yearning
To be loved
Where I need
To feel wanted
With plenty of hugs
My life in the past
Has been in a muddle
I wanted people
To like me
This has been
A struggle
I couldn’t understand
Why they saw me
As different
Believing myself to be
Completely deficient
I felt I was the
Odd one out
Totally useless
Without a doubt
My confidence level
Dropped below zero
A feeling that was
Extremely low
I became
Deeply depressed
Not knowing which
Way I could go
God must have
Heard my cry
I was suicidal
And wanted to die
Then I heard his call
I felt I was ten foot tall
His confidence in me
Is all I needed
Believing in him
Is when I succeeded

©Natalie Price 28th May 2010

WE’RE GIVEN THE CHOICE

Don’t blame God
For the sin in the world
The suffering and pain
That the devil has hurled
Many times, I’ve been asked
Why young babies
Are born deformed
While starving people are
Being abused and scorned
Our hospitals, are filled
With the mentally ill
Who have lost their
Hope, purpose and will
The root cause is sin
Humanity made the choice
To let the devil in
God gave us the
Option to choose
If we make the wrong
Decisions, then we lose
Sin causes death
And it’s a curse
It’s destructive and
Makes things worse
Curses fall on generations
Our hope is in Jesus
He offers us salvation
How many turn away
And want their own way
Then when things go wrong
Who do they blame
Many refuse to believe
Sadly they’re being deceived
This curse needs to be reversed
God has given us his word
It’s up to you if you
Want to be heard
We’re given the choice
If the decision is right
You’ll hear God’s voice

©Natalie Price May 30th 2010

HOW PRECIOUS ARE YOU

Lord what would you
Have me do
From now on
I want to do
Everything for you
You’ve blessed
My life beyond measure
The love you
Have given me
Is a treasure
As a new day dawns
My spirit is
Overflowing with
Peace and joy
I’m so happy inside
I feel like a child
With a new toy
The years of heartache
Are a thing of the past
You’ve given me
Something more
Precious than gold
That will last
How can I thank you
My words are
Not enough
I feel so close to you
Our spirits touch
You’ve given me hope
And peace within
You’ve taken my shame
And forgiven my sins
I feel like I’m flying
Like a pure white dove
How precious are you
For given me your love

© Natalie Price June 1st 2010

THANK YOU FOR THIS PRECIOUS GIFT

The beauty I see
Is in your heart
We were both lost
And torn apart
God’s, saving grace
Showed us our
Lives are not a waste
Our hearts cried out
To the Holy Son
We need to be loved
And to be made as one
Thank you Lord
For this precious man
I will cherish him always
As he takes my hand
The gift you have given us
Is your awesome love
I feel this so tenderly
When he gives me a hug
I sense your presence
Is all around
You gave me this
Beautiful man
That you have found
Please guide us on
The path you choose
Thank you for your healing
In the areas, that
Have been bruised
You are the centre
Of our love
Protect us always from above
I give you my love
Heart and soul
You gave me my man
I now feel whole
He is a treasure
More precious than gold
I will love him always
As we grow old
Our journey together
Will go on forever
Thank you for this
Precious gift

© Natalie Price May 31st 2010

JESUS WEEPS AS WE WEEP

We will rise above
The dark clouds
As we walk on this earth
His light through us
Will shine through a crowd
In our darkest moments
He will come and save us
From our opponents
When we’ve
Been wounded
He will lift us up and
Carry us in his arms
Protecting us from harm
Our tears he
Will wipe away
Call on him and just pray
Jesus weeps as we weep
Your pain is his pain
In your shame
He takes your blame
Peace is what he gives
Through you, others
Will see He lives
You will gain strength
As you walk with him
Abide in him and
He will come in
Accept him as your
Lord and Saviour
By doing this
He will give you favour
His grace and mercy
Will fall upon you
Be born again and
Become new
He will stand you on a rock
Built on his foundation
For eternity you will
Have his salvation

© Natalie Price June 3rd 2010

I’M NOT A DISGRACE

We have our highs and lows
But one thing I do know
Is I’m learning as I go
In the past I’ve always felt
Useless with no confidence
In myself at all
I did not get much
Encouragement, I felt
Like bashing my head
Against a wall
It was difficult for me to learn
My school days were no fun
I believed I was worthless
And hopelessly dumb
Can you imagine what
It’s like to feel that way
Where people
Downgrade what you say
There was a time
When I could not
Express myself through fear
I did not want to be
Laughed at and sneered
I was so negative
Believing I could never
Be competitive
People can be so mean
No wonder I had
A low self esteem
I refuse to accept their
Condemning remarks and
Made to feel ashamed
Those days are
Far behind me
Never to show their
Ugly face again
God has shown me
My worth, he has had
A purpose and plan
For me since birth
I’m not a disgrace
Praise God for his grace

©Natalie Price 2nd June 2010

BREAK THESE CHAINS

The wages of sin
Are death
And destruction
Misery and heartache
Defiled by corruption
The stench of evil
Is everywhere
So many live their
Lives in despair
Our streets are
Filled with venom
Conniving drug dealers
Causing rebellion
Coercing innocent
Lives on a
Destructive course
Showing no feeling
Or any remorse
The young and old
Live in fear
With bars on
Their windows
In case depraved
Beings come near
Our Lord is our
Protective shield
Our deliverer on
The battlefield
Without him
We have no hope
No faith, no peace
Break these chains
Of darkness
We need to be released

© Natalie Price June 2010

PRAYER IS A GOOD START

Our flesh and blood
Can tear us apart
No matter what you do
They can break your heart
It’s very easy for them
To be led astray
They’re not interested
In what we say
We do our best to
Bring them up right
At the end of the day
We constantly fight
You’re at your wits end
Trying to do your
Best for them
There’s a time when
They must face
Some responsibility
For their own actions
They know exactly
What to do to gain
You reactions
No more excuses
For their conduct
They must learn
To grow up
Before all the good
You’ve put in
Becomes unstuck
A psychologist
May be able to help
Counseling sometimes
Helps oneself
It’s time you think
About yourself
What it’s doing
To your own health
Prayer is a great start
Commit it to God
He sees your heart

© Natalie Price June 6, 2010

REJOICE, YOU ARE SAVED

The devils dreams 
Are deceiving you
God has showed me
This is true
My Lord gave me a vision
Of your state of mind
It showed me you
Think you’re dying
This has been
Affecting your mind
The devil is filling
Your mind with lies
Rebuke him fiercely
God has heard your cries
It’s the devil’s attack
On your dreams of death
He wants to destroy you
To take your last breath
Depression affects
The way you think
Before too long
You’re life starts to sink
God is going to act
And make you whole
Give him your life
And let him take control
He will give you the
Strength within
With this victory
You will win
Learn to forgive
And get rid of the sin
God has saved you
From this dream of death
It’s truly a lie
Don’t let it take its affect
Rejoice, you are saved
No longer are you enslaved
Accept him as your
Lord and Saviour
He loves you dearly
In God’s heart
You have found favour

© Natalie Price  June 6th 2010

THANK YOU LORD

In our valley of
Darkness and despair
Jesus lets us know
He loves us and cares
Some of us suffer
Unbearable pain
Jesus understands
As he was slain
When our burdens
Become heavily laden
Our world seems to go
Into chaos and mayhem
Jesus knows when
We are weak
He gives us strength
When our world
Is bleak
Jesus guides us
With his wisdom
Helping us to make
The right decisions
Jesus was bruised
For our transgressions
He gave up his life
And all his possessions
Jesus knows
How we all feel
He loves us all and
Wants us healed
Jesus comes when you
Call on his name
He must love us deeply
To take our
Blame and shame
His name is worthy
To be praised
Please thank our God
That he was raised

© Natalie Price June 7th 2010

FEAR OF FAILURE

All through my life
I had a fear of trying
Something new
The thought of being
Laughed at, or jeered
Made me feel I had
A few loose screws
I struggled to keep up
With my peers
The pressure I felt
Left me in tears
When exams came
I was a nervous wreck
The seed of failure
Had taken its affect
The thought
Of a career
Was beyond my dreams
Why did I have
To be so dumb
I almost screamed
Nothing seem to go right
I tried with all of my might
My parents were
Always too busy for me
I failed their
Expectations of what
They hoped I would be
It’s amazing how God
Can change
The way you feel
He believed in me
When I lost my will
Praise God for his love
And his confidence in me
My faith has
Been restored
I’m no longer
What I use to be

© Natalie Price  June 8th 2010

JESUS CAME TO GIVE US HOPE

You’ve brought light
Into my life, I thought
I would never see
Your love has made a big
Difference in me
The emptiness I felt inside
Is now a thing of the past
Now I’m filled with happiness
And all I do is laugh
My spirit within is healing
Peace and contentment
Is what I’m feeling
Everything, I give
Goes into your hands
You’ve reach my heart
For me to understand
When my load is heavy
You make things light
Without you I would have
No peace at night
When I lay my head
Down to sleep
My face is smiling
I do not weep
Awesome is your love
Your mercy and grace
You restored my faith
In your arms
I know I’m safe
I face my days
With anticipation
My heart for you is
Full of admiration
Sharing my testimony
To those who weep
May bring strength
And encouragement
To the weak
Why hang yourself on
The end of a rope
Jesus came to give us hope

© Natalie Price June 9, 2010

DON’T LOSE YOUR SIGHT

Walk the path that
Shines with light
The path of darkness
Is full of spite
Protect the weak
Help them to seek
Show them the way
Before they are lost
Tell them about Jesus
And why he died
On the cross
Hell, is often felt
On this earth
Some are born into it
Right from birth
This is only a reflection
On what evil
There is to come
It’s up to us to make
The choice, which is in
The only begotten Son
Listen to wisdom
When God comes to you
He’s our only hope
To get us through
Our time is going fast
Leave all your concerns
And worries in the past
Allow God’s hands
To lead the way
Be moved by his spirit
Bow down and pray
God is our refuge
Our foundation of strength
He moves the mountains
That have, crushed our tents
He is the way, the truth
And our light
Take hold of him
And don’t lose your sight

© Natalie Price June 10th 2010

SUCCEEDING MEANS BELIEVING

The key to success
Is to do your very best
Not by man’s standards
But by God’s commandments
What you achieve
Depends on how much
You believe
The foundation that
We build upon
Hopefully, is the one
That Jesus is on
I rather be rich in love
With heaps of friends
Whom I can hug
The Lord gave me
A compassionate heart
To reach out to those
Who have been torn apart
I may not have money
Or a degree
I have much more
When my Lord saved me
My past is not a place
I want to be in anymore
The years of
Agony and torment
Have tallied in score
God gave me the key
To undo all the wrong
His grace and mercy
Has made me strong
You do not need
To be condemned
Or hide, who you are
And pretend
Jesus paid the cost
To those who are lost
He came to take the
Sin of the world and
All the blasphemies
That have, been hurled
Succeeding means believing
When you’re empty and dry
Receive Jesus, he does not lie

© Natalie Price June12th 2010

HE FORGAVE MY ALL

Riddled with guilt
From sins of the past
Redeem me Lord
Before I’m an outcast
Help me to see
What I should be
Teach me your ways
So I don’t sway
I’ve hurt so many
People in my life
Even my ex husband
When I was his wife
I did not handle
My situations that well
I often think back
Too ashamed to tell
The cross I bear
Hurts very deep
It taunts my dreams
When I’m asleep
The enemy lies
To destroy your soul
He does all he can
To bring your life
Out of control
God is my tower
Of strength
He fills my heart
With peace and content
The shame of the past
Is no longer there
He forgave my all
And showed me he cared

© Natalie Price June 13th 2010

DEPRESSION IS LIKE OPPRESSION

The root cause
Of depression
Can be many things
A childhood abuse is one
That severely stings
Your mind can
Become twisted
From one act of abuse
You can think your life
Has no meaning
With no purpose or use
It could be a
Teenage rape
Or you’ve had
Abusive parents
In your world
There is no escape
Depression is
Like oppression
Cruelty of the mind
There is no relief
You feel you’re confined
It could be an unkind word
You may find it
Hard to learn
Or even be heard
No one is listening
Your mind is a blur
Thoughts come
Into your head
That no one cares
You think everyone
Hates you, you find
Life hard to bear
I understand as I’ve
Have been there
Talk to someone
You can trust
For me it was God
Who healed this unjust

© Natalie Price June 15th 2010

WHERE ARE OUR RIGHTS

Consumers, are being warned
Of 3D television dangers
Retailers could not care less
About the lives they endanger
This affects people of any age
This is an outrage
And should never be allowed
We must voice our opinions aloud
This could have a serious affect
We are very concerned of this
Health issue threat
This is a potential risk
To our young children
Pregnant women
In expectancy
And people with epilepsy
We should not need
These warnings
Against dizziness
Headaches and confusion
And giving the public
A false allusion
There should be
Government regulations
To stop this type of crime
It’s not fair on consumers
And it’s way out of line
We’re asked to use caution
There should be no need
For us to take precautions
Where are our laws
Of protection
We pay enough in taxes
And have to vote in elections
Why allow goods that
Jeopardize our health
Their only interest
Is their wealth
Where are our rights
We will stand up and fightwh

© Natalie Price June 15th 2010

GOD MADE ME FACE MY ENEMY

Determined to overcome
My tortured mind
I became very angry
It was about time
The enemy was
Destroying me with fire
Afflicting me inwardly
Taking away my every desire
In my dark world
I wanted to hide
This was killing me inside
There seemed to be no hope
All day I walked around
And moped
I could see no light
It was like being blind
And losing the fight
My face showed my distress
No laughter or joy
My life was a mess
I looked in the mirror
What I saw became clearer
The peace was gone
My emptiness had
Gone on too long
Every muscle was tight
My face looked strained
It gave me a fright
God showed me the
Enemy within me
Deliverance was my
Only hope to get free
I knew I had to take
The first step
Jesus was the one
I had to accept
He gave me the strength
To overcome
Determination and
Now I’ve won

© Natalie Price June 15th 2010

MEANINGLESS LIFE

You think your life is meaningless
Your world is falling apart
Sometimes you wonder
Why you were born
Especially when you’ve
Had a bad start
Your child hood memories
Plague your mind
Tormenting you time after time
Your teenage years
Were full of upheaval
Drugs, sex, alcohol
Nothing but evil
Your relationships
Kept falling apart
Each time breaking your heart
As you look back
On all those years
Your suffering, heartache
And all your tears
What purpose is there
Living in fear
You’ve lost all trust
When anyone comes near
You wonder why you’ve
Gone through all of this
There must be a plan or
Something you’ve missed
You search for an answer
And found only one
This all had to be
For a reason
It had to be In God’s Son
You reach out and cry
And asked God why
You’re weary and about to fall
Jesus takes it all and
Nails it to the cross
To saved you
Because you were lost

© Natalie Price June 16th 2010

AS LONG AS YOU WALK WITH JESUS

You may have
Many relationships
That come to a bitter end
Holding on to bitterness
Will drive you
Round the bend
As long as you walk
With Jesus, you will
Never walk alone
He will never leave
Or forsake you
So really, you're not
On your own
Jesus is with you
Wherever you are
He heals your
Deep wounds
Where your heart
Has been scarred
If you're ever in doubt
God will reveal
Himself to you
Just give him a shout
He will come
And make things new
He will do whatever
It takes to prove
His faithfulness
You will be eternally
Overjoyed in gratefulness
You can trust your heart
In God’s care
He will not give you any more
Than you can bear
Even when you walk
Through the darkest valley
The Lord walks beside you
In every dark alley
Don’t be afraid
He comforts and protects
All you need to do is
Turn to him and accept

© Natalie Price June 16th 2010