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This page is dedicated to poetry about abuse

The poems on this page have all been contributed by Natalie McDonnell (nee Price), herself a survivor of abuse.
In her poetry, she expresses the pain of abuse and her release from that abuse.
Through her poetry, she endeavours to encourage victims to seek the great help she has found in Christ.
Natalie,  may be contacted through this web site by using the CONTACT form.

Natalie's poems have now been broken up into multiple pages so as to reduce the size of each page.
Each page will now contain a maximum of 20 poems.
You can move from page to page by clicking on the page links to the left.

THE SPIRIT OF LIFE
HAS A BEAUTIFUL SOUND


Animals can
Show their love
The spirit within them
Comes from above
They know how to
Care for their young
They watch over
And protect every one
Every now and again
We see a miracle
Amongst them
Under their wings
They take in a stray
To care and nurture
Them in everyway
It may not be
Their own breed
With their eyes
They see a need
Some say that
Animals have no spirit
The way God works
Within them
It’s more to their merit
How many times
Do we see animals
Show their love
Often they come
To give you a hug
We can learn a lesson
From these
Little creatures
For one they make
Great teachers
Open your eyes
And see what’s around
The spirit of life
Has a beautiful sound

© Natalie Price June 17th  2010

NO PLACE IN THEIR HEART

Their silence
Hurts so much
Less and less
They keep in touch
Why do families
Drift apart
I’m have no place
In their heart
The little things
I used to do
Made them so happy
When they got
Something new
Now they toss it
In a draw
It has no meaning
Any more
Each week
I use to get a call
Now they can’t
Be bothered to return
My calls at all
When I’ve asked
Them for a hand
There are many excuses
They have other plans
I’ve often gone to visit
Their actions couldn’t be
Anymore explicit
They’re always too busy
With very little time
One day I will not be here
To sit with them and dine
The respect I once had
Is no longer there
The love and the hugs
We no longer share
No wonder I want to
Drift away
They give me no reason
Why I should stay

© Natalie Price June 18, 2010

GOLD DIGGING WOMEN

Gold digging women
That is all their
Interested in
Lining their own pockets
While you’re hurting within
Pretty words to suck you in
They say what you
Want to hear
To get under your skin
Everything you do
Is taken for granted
The truth in them
Is very slanted
Can’t you see
They’re using you
Spending your money
To buy things new
They tell you they
Cannot manage
Everything they do
Is for their own advantage
How often do they give
Their only thoughts
Are for themselves
And the way they live
True friendship
Goes both ways
Making sure your
Doing well and okay
The last thing true friends
Want from you
Is to take what you have
To get them through
Love is not full of greed
But all they do is
Complain about
What they need
Face the truth
These manipulators
Are using you
You know in your heart
This to be true

© Natalie Price June 18, 2010

SUFFERING WITH MENTAL ILLNESS

With mental illness
You feel as if you’re alone
In your own wilderness
Our thoughts are
Twisted in confusion
We live in a world of delusion
It’s hard for us to face the crowds
We cannot interact properly
Because we don’t know how
At home and feeling
Very much alone
We live in fear when
People come near
Their conversations seem so weird
We don’t understand
They think we’re queer
Some of us are on medication
It doesn’t always help
With the agitation
Stressful situations can
Rise in leaps and bounds
It doesn’t take much to anger us
We feel we’re being
Kicked into the ground
What people cannot see
They refuse to believe
Physically we seem all right
Inside we’re like a volcano
Ready to ignite
It doesn’t take much
To send us over the edge
Suicidal thoughts come
Into our heads
Everyday situations
We find hard to face
Our world is in misery
In in our dark place
We’re not understood
And definitely not accepted
It’s like the world thinks
We severely infected
In anguish we cry out
Help us please
Tormented and discarded
We’re in desperate need

© Natalie Price June 22, 2010

HIS HANDS REACH OUT TO US

Rejected vessels
Feel no peace
Until the Lord calls you
To be released
Hear his voice
In your quite time
Be still and listen
You will be fine
Surrender your will
Jesus will set you free
From the chains
Of bondage
This is the key
Never think that
You cannot be loved
God loves you from above
When you’re in your
Depth of despair
Jesus carries you
Because he cares
Get to know the
Voice of God
His will is to bring you
Out of the  fog
He is your Father
His promises are true
There is nothing   he
Cannot help you through
Cast your burdens
Before him
Your doors will open
Where all looks grim
He is your redeemer
And deliverer from sin
Jesus never fails
Even when we
Go off the rails
His hands reach
Forth to us
Take hold and
Give him your trust

© Natalie Price June 23, 2010

YESTERDAY IS GONE FOREVER

Yesterday is gone forever
Just like the stormy weather
The misery of the past is no more
Let it go, move on and wait
For God to open the doors
Your day can be full of sunshine
If you let his light shine through
He is our healing God
And he wants to heal you too
The memories of the past
Turn into spiritual growth
God stands on his promises
You can believe in his oaths
Don’t put your security
In useless possessions
We collect so many
It can become an obsession
You can’t take it with you
No matter what you do
Only collect what you need
And give some away too
Lay up your treasures
In his heavenly places
At the end of your days
You will see happy faces
There is no suffering
Or pain, shame or sorrow
When you finally go home
It could be tomorrow
Sometimes we are
Reminded of the past
God wants to protect us
From this terrible wrath
God has a future and
A plan for you
Rise above it and
You will get through

© Natalie Price June 24, 2010

ETERNAL LIFE IS A GIFT

Where do I begin
His life gone
Like the wind
He was well liked
And loved by many
A heart attack took
His young life
Left alone, is his
Son and his wife
It makes you realize
How precious life is
One minute you’re here
Then your life disappears
Do we take life
For granted
I pray to God
That in his heart
A seed was planted
Some of us have
Been rejected
It hurts when
We’re not accepted
We need to think
About the Lord
He was not accepted
His love was rejected
The very hairs on
Our head are counted
The Lord knows our
Beginning and the end
Life is just a shadow
In death we
Don’t know when
The dust of the earth
Will swallow our flesh
When we finally are
Laid down to rest
We are here to
Make a choice
Live for God and
Listen to his voice
Death of the flesh
Can be very swift
Eternal life is a gift

© Natalie Price June 25, 2010

SPLIT PERSONALITY

Who am I
Two people in one
I feel like I’m nobody
Hated and shunned
Lost within
My own identity
Trusting no one with
My confidentiality
Where is my purpose
My hope and dreams
I’m all screwed up
If you know what I mean
Something inside me
Wants to rip people apart
But the other side steps in
And shows some heart
These voices I keep
Hearing in my head
Telling me I’m no good
And better off dead
Nothing good comes
Out of my mouth
I pray for the day
I become myself
Then all of sudden I
Calm down from this rage
It’s like I’m another person
Then suddenly I change
This is a dangerous situation
It causes me
So much frustration
Someone could get hurt
I need to be on the alert
This other personality
Has a serious mentality
The trouble is
I have no control
The devil is trying
To destroy my soul

© Natalie Price June 25th, 2010

IN THIS WORLD OF HORROR

The nightmare of abuse
Does not cease
Anger and torment
Comes from the beast
Horror stories are in
Our daily news
Many crimes
Are caused through
Drugs and booze
Pressure and stress
Fills our lives
No wonder many
Do not survive
Our children
Become easy targets
Manipulated into
Doing drugs
Becoming disorientated
And lethargic
Women and children
Are being sexually abused
In prostitution they
Are being used
People are coerced
Into stealing offences
Violence often takes place
Because they’re not
Coping with expenses
Hard times are ahead
Some cannot deal with it
And wish they were dead
Many have lost hope
With no will to cope
Severely stressed
Some have given up
In doing their best
It’s as evil as
Sodom and Gomorrah
Jesus is  our only hope
In this world of horror

© Natalie Price June 27, 2010

NEGATIVITY WILL
BRING YOU DOWN


Don’t look back
When you’re
Under attack
You know where
This evil is from
The devil is up
To his tricks again
Be strong and he
Will move on
The enemy attacks
Our body and mind
Stand strong
Against him
And you will be fine
The words we speak
Must be strong
And not weak
Negativity will
Bring you down
And before long
You will sink and
Then you will drown
Do not let
The devil win
Jesus took our
Guilt and sin
Nothing is impossible
With him, if you allow
The Holy Spirit
To work within
Some of us take the
Easy way out
By accepting
The devil and all
Of the doubts
Whatever the burden
Give it to God
He will cast it out
With his iron rod

© Natalie Price June 28, 2010

PRAY FOR PROTECTION

Our home should be a
House of prayer
A sanctuary for God
To meet us there
To bring warmth
And encouragement
Love and care to our
Family and friends
For us to share
Today we live in
A world of fear
Not even our
Families are safe
Even when we’re near
How many children
Have been snatched
From their homes
Playing in the garden
Or in their beds alone
Now we have security
To keep them safe
Protecting our belongings
While the enemy
Watches and waits
Parents take their
Children to school
Predators watch our
Children and drool
It’s sickening to think
About their beguiled minds
Waiting for the opportunity
At the right time
To lure the innocence
Of an unguarded child
The venom in their hearts
Is evil and vile
The safe haven
We now call home
Is a fortress against our
Enemies and the unknown
Evil plots, everywhere
Pray for protection
Under God’s loving care

© Natalie Price June 29, 2010

JESUS KNEW WHAT
MY ANSWER WOULD BE


Serious accidents
Are often caused by
Drunks on our roads
Innocent blood
Cries out as it flows
Many years ago
I nearly lost
My family
To this day I believe
The Lord saved us
From this
Terrible tragedy
God was calling
Me at the time
I remember it clearly
Strange things were
Happening in my mind
A battle was raging
God was forever paging
Christians surrounded me
Calling me to listen
Jesus was not giving up
Until I became
A Christian
He knew what
My answer would be
He had it all planned
Before I was
Born you see
He knows the beginning
And the end
Praise God I accepted
Him as my best friend
Jesus has been with me
To this very day
There is no way
I would want to live
Without him
Jesus is my living Saviour
Thank you for not
Condemning my
Bad behaviour

© Natalie Price June 30 2010

THANK YOU GOD, FOR JESUS

God discovers what’s in you
Before you do
When you’re troubled
And your heart sinks
He knows how you think
Being over sensitive
To what people say
Can cause low self esteem
Often because people
Can be horribly mean
My own mind has been
Twisted many times
I find it hard to work
Under pressure
I may not come up
To their measure
Not because I
Cannot do the work
Its takes me awhile
To learn, but they
They think I’m a jerk
I can work better
On my own
As long as someone
Is not breathing
Down my throat
And leaves me alone
Once I know the job
I am okay
In the work force
You find bullies
Who overdo their say
They like the power
In their  hearts they can
Be really sour
Do they realize
The damage they do
For people like me
Its torment all
The way through
God has shown me
My many talents
I will never again
Succumb to
Their arrogance
It doesn’t take much
To cross that line
Thank you God for Jesus
I know now I’m fine

©Natalie Price July 1st 2010

THEIR BUBBLE WILL BURST

In their minds
They think
No one cares
They’ve tried
To get help
But get nowhere
Rejection has
Caused them
To dwell in
Dark places
The agony
And heartache
Shows in their faces
Not knowing
Which way to turn
No one wants
To understand
Doors close
Without giving
Them a hand
It’s like drowning
In the deep blue sea
A world so dark
You just can’t see
All hope is lost
Society in the end
Will pay a high cost
More and more
We see lost souls
Governments have
No idea or
How to control
The homeless
And suicides
Are on the rise
No one wants to listen
Or hear their cries
It’s time to put
Our proprieties first
And think of our own
Before the bubble
Will burst

© Natalie Price July 2nd 2010

MY MIRACLE OF LOVE

I feel so special
That I could cry
My prayers
Were answered
And not denied
Love evaded me
So it seemed
I never gave up
On my dream
That one day
I would meet the
Love of my life
Sometime soon
I shall become his wife
A match made
In heaven
By God above
I’ve been so
Blessed by this
Beautiful love
Both of us prayed
For God to find us
Our special mate
My miracle happened
It’s never too late
Now I’m engaged
To my beautiful man
In love at last
We take each
Others hands
I look into his eyes
And see his heart
This love is so real
We will never part
It’s a refreshing change
Not to go to
Bed in tears
I’ve lived alone
For many years
This is to encourage
All men and women
Who have not
Found love
Thank you Lord
For what you’ve done
This would not have
Been possible
If it wasn’t for your Son

© Natalie Price July 3rd 2010

YOU CAN’T GET HELP
SO WHAT’S THE USE


I get so angry
I don’t understand
Especially when anyone
Tries to demand
The years took its
Toll on my nerves
When anyone strikes
They get what
They deserve
How do I control
This temper of mine
It’s frustrating
Am I losing my mind
The people I love
I hurt so much
They turn away
Not letting me touch
This is something
Very hard to control
I’ve tried very hard
To calm down
Even by going
For a stroll
I live day by day
For me that is
The only way
Some people
Think I am
Vicious and mean
I don’t want to be
This way, but sadly
That is the way it seems
I cry from the
Shadows of my heart
It’s so gloomy for me
And so dark
What professionals
Cannot see
They refuse to believe
Or even help me
No wonder there is
So much abuse
You can’t even
Get help so what
Is the use

© Natalie Price July 3rd 2010

WHAT EVIL IS GOING
THROUGH HER VEINS


Her comments are
Vicious and mean
How can she be this cruel
This really is a bad scene
Her painful words
Cut through me like a sword
Please help me to deal
With this Lord
She says I’ve ditched the family
I don’t understand why
All I did was fall in love
With a beautiful guy
Why does she want
To destroy me and
Cause me to
Break down and cry
I’ve been accused
Of tricking people into
Believing I’m a saint
This grieves me so much
My heart just faints
She says my preaching
Is pathetic, but she’s
The one who is unsympathetic
I do not try to manipulate people
Just to get my own way
This is not my nature
All I did was have my say
How dare she tell me
I am just an act
God knows the truth
She is way off track
My heart is for people
Who are suffering and in pain
Calling me a
So called Christian
I  have to wonder what evil
Is in her going through her veins

©Natalie Price July 5th 2010

LET ME BE ME

Please don’t live
Your life through me
You’ve force me to sing
From the age of three
Let me be myself
I am not interested
In fame or wealth
I’m forced to sing
In front of your friends
And now at concerts
When will it end
I feel like I’m a
Puppet on a string
You pull the ropes
And my act begins
I dread the mornings
We wake up and fight
My tears just flow in
The dark of the night
Don’t you realize
You’re abusing me
While you sit
Back in delight
I hate being
Put on show
This is not what
I want to be
It’s what you
Want for me
Deep inside
I’m in misery
I have hopes
And dreams
I’ve listened
To your threats
You’re so mean
I’m so mixed up
In my head
Being forced to do
What I dread
Just so you can live
Your life through me
Leave me alone
And let me be me

© Natalie Price July 2nd 2010

ALL THIS GREED WILL
END SOME DAY


We live in a world
Full of lies and deceit
It’s hard to trust anyone
That you meet
Contracts are full
Of fine print
Often they use lighter ink
False advertising
Gets you in
Their faces show
Their devious grins
Everywhere you go
People take you down
Their interest
Is your money
This is what I’ve found
As long as they get
What they've asked
It doesn’t matter
If their product
Does not last
You’ve worked hard
For all you’ve got
But they’re ready
And waiting to take the lot
Basic services
Are decreasing
When will it ever cease
People are losing hope
In their dreams
All because people
Are greedy and mean
It does not matter
That you’re
Struggling to survive
Or you can’t pay
Your medical bills
To stay alive
Some doctors have hearts
Harder than bricks
By turning away
The elderly and sick
All we can do is pray
That all this greed will
End some day

© Natalie Price July 8th 2010

THE FIRST STEP STARTS WITH ME

Am I that worthless that
I don’t deserve the best
Accepting the bottom
Of the barrel because
My life is in one big mess
Anyone with half a brain
Would not want to accept me
It wouldn’t be long before
They wanted to be free
My negative thinking has
Come from years of abuse
Sadly I now think
I’m of very little use
My so called friends
Give me very little time
It’s probably because
They feel I’m sadly
Screwed up in my mind
Actually I don’t blame them
When they listen to me
With my negative thinking
Why wouldn’t they flee
I’ve been told that God
Can change the way I feel
All I need to do
Is accept his will
Respecting myself is the
First step I must take
Get rid of this attitude
Life is what I make
Positive thinking
Helps others to see
There is hope for
Abused victims
But it must start with me

© Natalie Price July 8, 2010