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This page is dedicated to poetry about abuse

The poems on this page have all been contributed by Natalie McDonnell (nee Price), herself a survivor of abuse.
In her poetry, she expresses the pain of abuse and her release from that abuse.
Through her poetry, she endeavours to encourage victims to seek the great help she has found in Christ.
Natalie,  may be contacted through this web site by using the CONTACT form.

Natalie's poems have now been broken up into multiple pages so as to reduce the size of each page.
Each page will now contain a maximum of 20 poems.
You can move from page to page by clicking on the page links to the left.

WHAT WAS WRONG WITH MY THINKING

In my early years as a child
I was sexually abused
In my teens I rebelled
And went wild
I married early at
The age of eighteen
I did it to get away
From my Dad who
I felt was really mean
My marriage failed
Within a very short time
My husband did not
Understand that I was
Not sexually inclined
I tried to hide my
True feelings, so I lied
Fear used to grip me within
I hated the thought
Of being with him
I felt dirty and ashamed
Deep inside I believed
I was to blame
Later I married again
Unfortunately he was
An alcoholic user
I suffered for years
From this abuser
I was attracted to
The wrong type of men
What was wrong
With my thinking
I was going around the bend
You think you’re worthless
So you allow yourself
To be used
It gives you some sort
Of satisfaction
Even though you know
You’re abused
Thank you Jesus for
Accepting me the way I am
I now have your love
And a wonderful new man
It took many years
For me to heal
Accepting Jesus
Was better than any pill

©Natalie Price July 30th 2010

MY FUTURE IS WHAT I LIVE FOR

Don’t let your memories haunt you
The devil will used them to attack
You’ll only suffer more of
What you went through
This will send you right back
Many years I suffered guilt
Until I found Jesus
And stood on what he built
Whether we do right or wrong
We can do nothing without
God who makes us strong
The way we think
Can change our path
You can condemn yourself
Or walk away and laugh
God is planning
Our future with him
He is transforming us
To overcome our sins
I refuse to go backwards
And live in the past
My future is what I live for
Salvation is in my grasp
This I will never give up
No matter how much
Satan plagues my mind
I refuse to listen
As I’ve healed through time
God touched my life
In a very special way
He helped me to rebuild
What, the devil stole away
Condemnation, destroys
God’s good work in you
Believe me this is true
I threw negativity out the door
The words of my mouth
Made a big difference
That was for sure
Even when things look grim
I thank the Holy Spirit within
He gives me strength to carry on
To reach out and help others
There is a battle to be won
Hold your head up high
You can touch the sky
Have faith in yourself
Don’t listen to the devil’s tricks
You can handle it

© Natalie Price July 31st 2010

SOMETIMES WE NEED TO TAKE ACTION

I hate being left by myself
Mum and Dad go to the pokies
Hoping to gain some wealth
Dad often comes home drunk
He smells putrid like a skunk
Then they start to fight
Usually it goes on all night
Over the money they’ve lost
Mum thinks she has
Been double crossed
Every weekend this goes on
I will be glad when
I’m old enough to be gone
It’s been affecting
My schooling
Because of their brawling
I’ve been praying
It will end soon
It’s horrible having to spend
So much time in my room
Weekends I have to
Stay home and work
Mowing the lawns
While they go berserk
They are always giving
Me jobs to do
I have no time for myself
This is nothing new
It’s hard to study
And keep it in my head
Some nights I cry
My eyes out and
Go off to bed
I’m thinking seriously
Of seeking some advice
This will be against my parents
For me it’s not very nice
Sometimes we need
To take some action
I cannot bear the thought
Of their reaction
This should not go on
I deserve better
And I must stay strong

© Natalie Price July 31st 2010

ACCEPT THE TRUTH AND
BECOME A BELIEVER


God is very real
This needs to be revealed
Every cell in our body
Works as a machine
It has a job to do
Keeping everything in routine
Every machine has a maker
I call him God my Creator
If you were to
Magnify every cell
You would see them
Working so well
There is now proof
Many Scientists have
Found this truth
This cannot be disputed
Their beliefs in evolution have
Been completely uprooted
Evolution holds no worth
God is the creator of
The universe and earth
God made everything
After its kind
Plants, animals and mankind
Think deeply and you will see
That God created the
Heavens, Earth and sea
The sun and the moon
Have a job to do
Just like our living cells
That make up you
Everything that was made
Has been planned
With a purpose crafted
By God’s Holy hands
An Atheist has no purpose
No beliefs, no plans
They only believe in now
With no future for man
Eternal life is what God brings
An Atheist life, has nothing
And continues in sin
The devil is the one
That is the deceiver
Accept the truth
And become a believer

© Natalie Price August 1st 2010

THE DEVIL WANTED ME TO DIE

Our ever wise God always
Begins his work
In the heart of man
You can choose to accept him
And be guided by his hand
Troubled times can
Stress out our minds
We then may do things
That we may regret and
Suffer the consequences of its affect
The Holy Spirit convicts me
When I’ve done a wrong
I’ve learnt to listen
This has helped me grow strong
It’s through his love and grace
That I’ve overcome
With the rebellious nature I had
My only hope was
Through Jesus the Son
It’s a wonder God did not
Slap my ears the way
I was carrying on
He never gave up on me
No matter what I’ve done
God knew my heart
Would open to his voice
I battled inwardly
It wasn’t long before
I made my choice
But still my struggles went on
To me everything went wrong
Until one day I realized why
The devil wanted me to die
He knew what I could be
Satan tried to blind me
So I could not see
Every area of my life
Was a big black fog
The more Satan tried the
Closer I became to God
My husband to be
Will walk with me
In a mission to reach out
And touch our land
When God calls you take his hand
We’re willing to go
Wherever God takes us
In Him we give all our trust
He comes in peace
You will know his love
His love will never cease

©Natalie Price August  3rd 2010

PRAISE AND WORSHIP
SATAN CANNOT STAND


Bitterness and anger
Sometimes builds up inside
Most times I try hard to hide it
Or release it and cry
All of a sudden things
Catch up with me
I think of the past
And how it used to be
It happens at times
Without realizing
This is very surprising
I try to stay positive
Most of the time
But every now and then
Satan enters my mind
As a victim of abuse
It’s been a very long battle
To rise above it all
I forget to let go and
Let God take my fall
I know I must give
Everything to him
And let go of the
Condemnation of sin
We are more than
Conquerors when
We have Jesus
We can overcome
When Satan besieges us
Depression often sets in
If you allow the devil
To stay in
This happened to me
Until I use the weapon
That would make him flee
Praise and worship
Satan cannot stand
I’ve learnt this first hand
In the name of Jesus
It has one Almighty power
Remember this in
Your dark hour

© Natalie Price August  4th 2010

I FELT DEMORALIZED

You feel as if you’re
Walking on egg shells
It’s not much fun
Living with someone
Who gets angry at
A drop of a hat
Every word you speak
Is scrutinized
In many ways
You’re really
Being brutalized
Absolute misery
You’re living under
Especially if they screech
At you like thunder
I know what this is like
My partner made it
Very clear I was never
In the right
My opinion counted
For nothing
I felt demoralized
Most of the time
A useless human
And very careful
Not to cross the line
If I did all hell
Would break loose
I called it mental abuse
Eventually I had enough
I knew what I had to do
And I knew it
Would be rough
I took the first step and
Have never looked back
It was the best decision
I’ve made against these
Vicious attacks
My confidence has
Been restored
I’ve made a new life
For myself serving
My Lord

© Natalie Price August 5th 2010

PRIDE CAN STAND IN YOUR WAY

Unspoken words that
Should have been said
Is it too late
By now they could be dead
Silence is all
They’ve had instead
I could have called
But I turned
The other way
I allowed my bitterness
To stand in the way
They needed me
But I didn’t care
I wanted to do
My own thing
While they were
In despair
Holding a grudge
Is the wrong thing to do
Especially your loved ones
Who have been there
For you too
Don’t let pride
Stand in your way
Even if it’s to make sure
That they’re okay
You could be sorry
For turning the
Other cheek
One day you may be
In the same position
Desperate and weak
If God was to take
Our water away
We would die and bitterly cry
If he was to turn
The other cheek and say
I’m holding a grudge go away
I have things to do
And not care what
You go through
How would you feel
Very much the same I would say
Love one another
As God has loved you
Don’t turn away with
Other things to do
If someone cries out
And needs your care
Don’t do as I did
And not be there

©Natalie Price  August 6, 2010

THINK BEFORE YOU ACT

What should I do if I
Know someone
Is being abused
Is it my business
In some ways
I’m confused
If I become involved
What will it solve
It may be a
Dangerous situation
Interfering may
Be meddling
And causing
Further frustration
The best solution
I could do
Is inform the
Proper authorities
And let them pursue
Sometimes people need
Some restraint
Especially when you hear of
Their constant complaints
Advise the abused party
To seek professional advice
It may be the only
Hope they have or
They may pay the price
If it involves children
We need to act fast
This is something you
Don’t leave to the last
Children need our protection
No matter whom they are
We have a duty of care
No matter how bazaar
So if you find yourself
In this type of situation
Think about it first
Before you act in desperation

© Natalie Price August 4th 2010

WHO YOU ARE HAS
FAR MORE MEANING


Believing we should be thin
To be beautiful is a
Ridiculous and dangerous lie
Some people become
Anorexic and die
What kind of messages are
We giving our children
It does not build
Their self esteem
If they’re a little overweight
The media can be
Awfully mean
Teenagers often 
Become victims
Of advertising pressure
To look good
You must be thin
It can have a
Terrible affect within
Some even go
Into deep depression
This affects their thinking
Leaving them in a dark
World of oppression
I had a weight problem
Most of my life
People were cruel
Believe me this is not right
Size has nothing to do
With whom you are
Causing people to feel
Bad about themselves
Often leaves deep scars
True beauty is in the heart
The other kind soon departs
God created your very being
Who you are has
Far more meaning

© Natalie Price August 8th 2010

I LOVE JESUS WITH A PASSION

How would you know
Jesus is our healer
If you’ve never felt pain
Sometimes it’s a blessing
To find out this and gain
Jesus is our deliverer
This is the reason he came
To lift our burdens from us
And take away our shame
All you need to do is pray
Ask Him for forgiveness
You will see the light in your day
We need trials to overcome
For our victories to be won
We need to know sadness
To help us understand
That Jesus brings comfort
And we are in God’s hands
God forgives, even though
We make mistakes
He offers us His Son
All we have to do is take
Our lives can become
In such a mess
If we give our Lord our trust
In times of trouble
God rescues us
If we have never
Been broken with our
Hearts torn in two
How would you know
That God can make
You whole and
Bring you through
We have problems
That only God can solve
A family church
Can help so much
But you need to
Do your part and
Become involved
We need to endure
To come out pure
Jesus’ suffering
Gives us all an
Example of what
He went through
I love Jesus with a passion
With all my suffering
I’ve learnt compassion

© Natalie Price August 9th 2010

SEEKING GODLY ANSWERS

In this little boy’s heart
He really loves his Lord
Thriving on everything he hears
Listening with his ears
This little fella knows
What God has done for him
Jesus died for his life
To take away his sin
His child like faith
Receives God’s grace
You look at this little boy
In him you see
The Lord’s face
His smile is warm
It has a comforting effect
There is peace all round
Because this
Child’s love accepts
Silently he prays
For his mother
Sisters and brother
Whom he loves so dearly
He does this so sincerely
God watches over him
And his family
He hears the cry of his heart
Especially when they’re
Living unhappily
This little boy wants
To take his family to church
He is seeking Godly answers
And wants to do a search
It hurts him very deeply
These things that go 
On in his home
When he is with God
He does not feel alone
His bible is his source
Of strength
As it gives him peace
And fills him with content
God is his only hope
Of protection
He believes in
The Son of God and
His resurrection
I know God will bless
This lad’s faith
He watches over him
And keeps him safe

© Natalie Price August 9th 2010

NO ONE TO TURN TOO ANYMORE

Her innocence is seen
In her eyes
Sadly this little girl
Is despised
There is no way
She would understand
The evilness of man
Life for her is
Sheer terror
Being in the hands
Of Pedophile Carer
Her mother’s boyfriend
Scares her
She trembles with fear
When he comes near
He slyly looks her
Up and down
She watches him
When she turns around
There is no option
For locking her door
No one to turn too anymore
Left alone in the house
Sometimes she wishes
She could hide like a mouse
Her mum comes home
From work late at night
Too tired to listen
There is always a fight
Help seems so far away
This little girl gets
Down on her knees and prays
Dear God help me please
There is no one else here
When he comes near, I freeze
Mum does not listen
To anything I say
She tells me I’m story telling
And to go away
Lord you’re the only one
That will listen to me
Help me Lord
So that I can be free

©Natalie Price August  11th  2010

EXPECT THE BEST FOR YOUR LIFE

Don’t be afraid to die
Your God is on the other side
When fear overcomes you
Know that God is with you too
Fear is the enemy’s 
Weapon against you
The devil uses it every second
Believe me, this is true
God is preparing for our return
The devil knows this
So we must stand firm
Everyone gets their share
Of trouble and heartache
But if we endure to the end
It will be better for our sake
When God leads you
To the edge of the cliff
Don’t draw away
But let God give you a lift
Trust him completely
And don’t let go
No matter what you’re
Going through
Our Lord knows
He will catch you
When you fall
His power fills you
Making you feel
Ten foot tall
He will teach you to fly
So hold your head up high
You don’t need to be
Bullied anymore
You have Jesus
Who has evened the score
Be happy and expect
The very best for your life
It will do two things
Keep you positive
And direct you
In God’s light

©Natalie Price August 11th 2010

IT IS LOVE

She hears his voice
And understands
Feeling the warmth
In his hands
His heart is the finest
His love is the kindest
Responding like
A pure dove
The simple message
It is love
Her spirit dances
With glee
In her world
For the moment
She is free
Her woes in life
Are yet to come
At the moment
She does not
Understand for
One so young
The simplicity
Of her faith
Have no barriers
To get through
Everything to her
Is completely new
It’s a beautiful
Way to be
Trusting everyone
You see
The spirit within
Dances with joy
When she hears
God’s voice
She chooses
By choice
The devil aims
To attack this little one
He will lose this battle
As it’s already been won
God protects
This little angel
In the midst of her life
There is constant danger

© Natalie Price August 13th 2010

THE  MAILBOX HAS BECOME
A PLACE OF FEAR


The misery that is felt
With the rising cost
Of expenses are
Hitting beneath the belt
Many families
Are struggling
Trying to make
Ends meet and juggling
The family meals are 
Becoming  less and less
Their quality of food
Is not the best
The children’s school needs
Are not being met
Parents feel hopeless
As they have an
Increasing debt
Work hours have
Been decreased
Mortgage repayments
Have continually increased
The mailbox has become
A place of fear
The bills keep coming in
The financial burden
Is becoming severe
The pressure of it all
Is becoming far too much
I feel our government
Departments are
Out of touch
Our health system
Is falling apart
Many people have lost heart
No wonder there is
So much stress and
With all this destitution
People are becoming
Very disillusioned
There are enough resources
In this country
For everyone’s needs
To be met
Why make things hard
This I cannot understand
And never will
Be able to accept

© Natalie Price August 14th 2010

JESUS BELIEVED IN ME

My insecurities
Are running wild
Coming from my
Abuse as a child
Always thinking
I’m not good enough
The path I’ve walked
Has been pretty rough
Thoughts keep pouring
Into my head
Until my head feels
Heavy like lead
It’s difficult to
Believe in yourself
When you’ve been
Pulled down like a
Broken down shelf
The scars of the past
Have gone deep
In the dark hours
Of the night
I’m awake and
Cannot sleep
Satan attacks when
You're weak
It’s a good time
To talk to the Lord
The devil soon flees
When he sees
God’s Almighty sword
God reminds me of
His wondrous love
His time and effort
His spiritual hugs
Why do we listen
To the devil’s lies
Forget the past and
Get on with our lives
I’ve been attacked
Far too long
In the mighty name
Of Jesus I command
You devil, be gone
I gave my heart to Jesus
Praise God He came for me
He opened my eyes
For me to see that
He believed in me

© Natalie Price August 15th 2010

LOVE UNITES NOT FIGHTS

Love is the best weapon
God has given us
Against evil to mankind
Why do we have
To be so blind
Love heals deep wounds
If only the world
Would commune
Love is a precious gift
It can wipe away tears
And give you a lift
Love forgives
With a passion
The heart overflows
With compassion
Love does not envy
Or want power
You want  God's love to
Pour down from heaven
Just like a shower
Love wants to share
And give to others
The enemy is Satan
So we should stand
Up for one another
We are sisters
And brothers
Under one God
There is no other
Love came to us
In the flesh
God loved us so much
He wanted the best
Jesus gave his life
To change the world
And make things right
Love unites not fights
Open your eyes to see
This precious love
That God gave me
He changed my life
And now I’m free
His love is what
Has changed me

© Natalie Price August 16, 2010

JESUS UNDERSTANDS

Jesus was not guilty
But he suffered
For the ones that are
He did this to save
The lost and the ones
Who have been scarred
He became sin so we
Would be right with God
Before Jesus came
We were all in darkness
As if we’re in a big black fog
We still see suffering and
Go through hard times
It’s part of life and
Very hard to deal
With sometimes
I really hate to see
Someone abused
They may not be guilty
But they’ve been accused
Jesus felt the same way
He knows what it’s like
To be abused and used
Brutally hurt and in pain
Jesus was tortured
His name was to be shamed
No matter what you’ve done
Or how far you’ve fallen
Jesus understands
No matter how appalling
He has shed far more tears
Than anyone on this earth
Jesus had a hard life
Even from birth
Before he was born
Evil men wanted him killed
Praise God it wasn’t God’s will
He was betrayed and rejected
Even his own, found it hard
To accept him
You may be going through
The fiery furnace which
Seems like hell
There is always someone
Worse off than you
Jesus understands
What you’re going through

© Natalie Price August 16, 2010

WHAT A WAY TO DIE

It’s awful to be rejected
And to walk your life alone
Where nobody ever cares
And nobody visits your home
There are many lonely people
Waiting out there to hear
They sit in their little corner
But nobody comes near
Eventually they crawl
Into their own little shell
Hiding themselves away
No one misses them
To even tell
One day you may find
Their bare and lifeless body
With no flesh on their bones
What a way to die
When no one comes
To your home
Some people
Lose confidence
After many years of abuse
It’s difficult to interact
When you feel of little use
Many end up in institutions
So messed up inside
They’ve lost all will to live
Many just want to die
Broken with sadness
With no family or friends
Each day that goes by
They wish it would end
Sadly they cannot cope
Losing all joy and
All their hope

© Natalie Price August 17th 2010