| WHAT WAS WRONG WITH MY THINKING In my early years as a child I was sexually abused In my teens I rebelled And went wild I married early at The age of eighteen I did it to get away From my Dad who I felt was really mean My marriage failed Within a very short time My husband did not Understand that I was Not sexually inclined I tried to hide my True feelings, so I lied Fear used to grip me within I hated the thought Of being with him I felt dirty and ashamed Deep inside I believed I was to blame Later I married again Unfortunately he was An alcoholic user I suffered for years From this abuser I was attracted to The wrong type of men What was wrong With my thinking I was going around the bend You think you’re worthless So you allow yourself To be used It gives you some sort Of satisfaction Even though you know You’re abused Thank you Jesus for Accepting me the way I am I now have your love And a wonderful new man It took many years For me to heal Accepting Jesus Was better than any pill ©Natalie Price July 30th 2010 |
MY FUTURE IS WHAT I LIVE FOR Don’t let your memories haunt you The devil will used them to attack You’ll only suffer more of What you went through This will send you right back Many years I suffered guilt Until I found Jesus And stood on what he built Whether we do right or wrong We can do nothing without God who makes us strong The way we think Can change our path You can condemn yourself Or walk away and laugh God is planning Our future with him He is transforming us To overcome our sins I refuse to go backwards And live in the past My future is what I live for Salvation is in my grasp This I will never give up No matter how much Satan plagues my mind I refuse to listen As I’ve healed through time God touched my life In a very special way He helped me to rebuild What, the devil stole away Condemnation, destroys God’s good work in you Believe me this is true I threw negativity out the door The words of my mouth Made a big difference That was for sure Even when things look grim I thank the Holy Spirit within He gives me strength to carry on To reach out and help others There is a battle to be won Hold your head up high You can touch the sky Have faith in yourself Don’t listen to the devil’s tricks You can handle it © Natalie Price July 31st 2010 |
| SOMETIMES WE NEED TO TAKE ACTION I hate being left by myself Mum and Dad go to the pokies Hoping to gain some wealth Dad often comes home drunk He smells putrid like a skunk Then they start to fight Usually it goes on all night Over the money they’ve lost Mum thinks she has Been double crossed Every weekend this goes on I will be glad when I’m old enough to be gone It’s been affecting My schooling Because of their brawling I’ve been praying It will end soon It’s horrible having to spend So much time in my room Weekends I have to Stay home and work Mowing the lawns While they go berserk They are always giving Me jobs to do I have no time for myself This is nothing new It’s hard to study And keep it in my head Some nights I cry My eyes out and Go off to bed I’m thinking seriously Of seeking some advice This will be against my parents For me it’s not very nice Sometimes we need To take some action I cannot bear the thought Of their reaction This should not go on I deserve better And I must stay strong © Natalie Price July 31st 2010 |
ACCEPT THE TRUTH AND BECOME A BELIEVER God is very real This needs to be revealed Every cell in our body Works as a machine It has a job to do Keeping everything in routine Every machine has a maker I call him God my Creator If you were to Magnify every cell You would see them Working so well There is now proof Many Scientists have Found this truth This cannot be disputed Their beliefs in evolution have Been completely uprooted Evolution holds no worth God is the creator of The universe and earth God made everything After its kind Plants, animals and mankind Think deeply and you will see That God created the Heavens, Earth and sea The sun and the moon Have a job to do Just like our living cells That make up you Everything that was made Has been planned With a purpose crafted By God’s Holy hands An Atheist has no purpose No beliefs, no plans They only believe in now With no future for man Eternal life is what God brings An Atheist life, has nothing And continues in sin The devil is the one That is the deceiver Accept the truth And become a believer © Natalie Price August 1st 2010 |
| THE DEVIL WANTED ME TO DIE Our ever wise God always Begins his work In the heart of man You can choose to accept him And be guided by his hand Troubled times can Stress out our minds We then may do things That we may regret and Suffer the consequences of its affect The Holy Spirit convicts me When I’ve done a wrong I’ve learnt to listen This has helped me grow strong It’s through his love and grace That I’ve overcome With the rebellious nature I had My only hope was Through Jesus the Son It’s a wonder God did not Slap my ears the way I was carrying on He never gave up on me No matter what I’ve done God knew my heart Would open to his voice I battled inwardly It wasn’t long before I made my choice But still my struggles went on To me everything went wrong Until one day I realized why The devil wanted me to die He knew what I could be Satan tried to blind me So I could not see Every area of my life Was a big black fog The more Satan tried the Closer I became to God My husband to be Will walk with me In a mission to reach out And touch our land When God calls you take his hand We’re willing to go Wherever God takes us In Him we give all our trust He comes in peace You will know his love His love will never cease ©Natalie Price August 3rd 2010 |
PRAISE AND WORSHIP SATAN CANNOT STAND Bitterness and anger Sometimes builds up inside Most times I try hard to hide it Or release it and cry All of a sudden things Catch up with me I think of the past And how it used to be It happens at times Without realizing This is very surprising I try to stay positive Most of the time But every now and then Satan enters my mind As a victim of abuse It’s been a very long battle To rise above it all I forget to let go and Let God take my fall I know I must give Everything to him And let go of the Condemnation of sin We are more than Conquerors when We have Jesus We can overcome When Satan besieges us Depression often sets in If you allow the devil To stay in This happened to me Until I use the weapon That would make him flee Praise and worship Satan cannot stand I’ve learnt this first hand In the name of Jesus It has one Almighty power Remember this in Your dark hour © Natalie Price August 4th 2010 |
| I FELT DEMORALIZED You feel as if you’re Walking on egg shells It’s not much fun Living with someone Who gets angry at A drop of a hat Every word you speak Is scrutinized In many ways You’re really Being brutalized Absolute misery You’re living under Especially if they screech At you like thunder I know what this is like My partner made it Very clear I was never In the right My opinion counted For nothing I felt demoralized Most of the time A useless human And very careful Not to cross the line If I did all hell Would break loose I called it mental abuse Eventually I had enough I knew what I had to do And I knew it Would be rough I took the first step and Have never looked back It was the best decision I’ve made against these Vicious attacks My confidence has Been restored I’ve made a new life For myself serving My Lord © Natalie Price August 5th 2010 |
PRIDE CAN STAND IN YOUR WAY Unspoken words that Should have been said Is it too late By now they could be dead Silence is all They’ve had instead I could have called But I turned The other way I allowed my bitterness To stand in the way They needed me But I didn’t care I wanted to do My own thing While they were In despair Holding a grudge Is the wrong thing to do Especially your loved ones Who have been there For you too Don’t let pride Stand in your way Even if it’s to make sure That they’re okay You could be sorry For turning the Other cheek One day you may be In the same position Desperate and weak If God was to take Our water away We would die and bitterly cry If he was to turn The other cheek and say I’m holding a grudge go away I have things to do And not care what You go through How would you feel Very much the same I would say Love one another As God has loved you Don’t turn away with Other things to do If someone cries out And needs your care Don’t do as I did And not be there ©Natalie Price August 6, 2010 |
| THINK BEFORE YOU ACT What should I do if I Know someone Is being abused Is it my business In some ways I’m confused If I become involved What will it solve It may be a Dangerous situation Interfering may Be meddling And causing Further frustration The best solution I could do Is inform the Proper authorities And let them pursue Sometimes people need Some restraint Especially when you hear of Their constant complaints Advise the abused party To seek professional advice It may be the only Hope they have or They may pay the price If it involves children We need to act fast This is something you Don’t leave to the last Children need our protection No matter whom they are We have a duty of care No matter how bazaar So if you find yourself In this type of situation Think about it first Before you act in desperation © Natalie Price August 4th 2010 |
WHO YOU ARE HAS FAR MORE MEANING Believing we should be thin To be beautiful is a Ridiculous and dangerous lie Some people become Anorexic and die What kind of messages are We giving our children It does not build Their self esteem If they’re a little overweight The media can be Awfully mean Teenagers often Become victims Of advertising pressure To look good You must be thin It can have a Terrible affect within Some even go Into deep depression This affects their thinking Leaving them in a dark World of oppression I had a weight problem Most of my life People were cruel Believe me this is not right Size has nothing to do With whom you are Causing people to feel Bad about themselves Often leaves deep scars True beauty is in the heart The other kind soon departs God created your very being Who you are has Far more meaning © Natalie Price August 8th 2010 |
| I LOVE JESUS WITH A PASSION How would you know Jesus is our healer If you’ve never felt pain Sometimes it’s a blessing To find out this and gain Jesus is our deliverer This is the reason he came To lift our burdens from us And take away our shame All you need to do is pray Ask Him for forgiveness You will see the light in your day We need trials to overcome For our victories to be won We need to know sadness To help us understand That Jesus brings comfort And we are in God’s hands God forgives, even though We make mistakes He offers us His Son All we have to do is take Our lives can become In such a mess If we give our Lord our trust In times of trouble God rescues us If we have never Been broken with our Hearts torn in two How would you know That God can make You whole and Bring you through We have problems That only God can solve A family church Can help so much But you need to Do your part and Become involved We need to endure To come out pure Jesus’ suffering Gives us all an Example of what He went through I love Jesus with a passion With all my suffering I’ve learnt compassion © Natalie Price August 9th 2010 |
SEEKING GODLY ANSWERS In this little boy’s heart He really loves his Lord Thriving on everything he hears Listening with his ears This little fella knows What God has done for him Jesus died for his life To take away his sin His child like faith Receives God’s grace You look at this little boy In him you see The Lord’s face His smile is warm It has a comforting effect There is peace all round Because this Child’s love accepts Silently he prays For his mother Sisters and brother Whom he loves so dearly He does this so sincerely God watches over him And his family He hears the cry of his heart Especially when they’re Living unhappily This little boy wants To take his family to church He is seeking Godly answers And wants to do a search It hurts him very deeply These things that go On in his home When he is with God He does not feel alone His bible is his source Of strength As it gives him peace And fills him with content God is his only hope Of protection He believes in The Son of God and His resurrection I know God will bless This lad’s faith He watches over him And keeps him safe © Natalie Price August 9th 2010 |
| NO ONE TO TURN TOO ANYMORE Her innocence is seen In her eyes Sadly this little girl Is despised There is no way She would understand The evilness of man Life for her is Sheer terror Being in the hands Of Pedophile Carer Her mother’s boyfriend Scares her She trembles with fear When he comes near He slyly looks her Up and down She watches him When she turns around There is no option For locking her door No one to turn too anymore Left alone in the house Sometimes she wishes She could hide like a mouse Her mum comes home From work late at night Too tired to listen There is always a fight Help seems so far away This little girl gets Down on her knees and prays Dear God help me please There is no one else here When he comes near, I freeze Mum does not listen To anything I say She tells me I’m story telling And to go away Lord you’re the only one That will listen to me Help me Lord So that I can be free ©Natalie Price August 11th 2010 |
EXPECT THE BEST FOR YOUR LIFE Don’t be afraid to die Your God is on the other side When fear overcomes you Know that God is with you too Fear is the enemy’s Weapon against you The devil uses it every second Believe me, this is true God is preparing for our return The devil knows this So we must stand firm Everyone gets their share Of trouble and heartache But if we endure to the end It will be better for our sake When God leads you To the edge of the cliff Don’t draw away But let God give you a lift Trust him completely And don’t let go No matter what you’re Going through Our Lord knows He will catch you When you fall His power fills you Making you feel Ten foot tall He will teach you to fly So hold your head up high You don’t need to be Bullied anymore You have Jesus Who has evened the score Be happy and expect The very best for your life It will do two things Keep you positive And direct you In God’s light ©Natalie Price August 11th 2010 |
| IT IS LOVE She hears his voice And understands Feeling the warmth In his hands His heart is the finest His love is the kindest Responding like A pure dove The simple message It is love Her spirit dances With glee In her world For the moment She is free Her woes in life Are yet to come At the moment She does not Understand for One so young The simplicity Of her faith Have no barriers To get through Everything to her Is completely new It’s a beautiful Way to be Trusting everyone You see The spirit within Dances with joy When she hears God’s voice She chooses By choice The devil aims To attack this little one He will lose this battle As it’s already been won God protects This little angel In the midst of her life There is constant danger © Natalie Price August 13th 2010 |
THE MAILBOX HAS BECOME A PLACE OF FEAR The misery that is felt With the rising cost Of expenses are Hitting beneath the belt Many families Are struggling Trying to make Ends meet and juggling The family meals are Becoming less and less Their quality of food Is not the best The children’s school needs Are not being met Parents feel hopeless As they have an Increasing debt Work hours have Been decreased Mortgage repayments Have continually increased The mailbox has become A place of fear The bills keep coming in The financial burden Is becoming severe The pressure of it all Is becoming far too much I feel our government Departments are Out of touch Our health system Is falling apart Many people have lost heart No wonder there is So much stress and With all this destitution People are becoming Very disillusioned There are enough resources In this country For everyone’s needs To be met Why make things hard This I cannot understand And never will Be able to accept © Natalie Price August 14th 2010 |
| JESUS BELIEVED IN ME My insecurities Are running wild Coming from my Abuse as a child Always thinking I’m not good enough The path I’ve walked Has been pretty rough Thoughts keep pouring Into my head Until my head feels Heavy like lead It’s difficult to Believe in yourself When you’ve been Pulled down like a Broken down shelf The scars of the past Have gone deep In the dark hours Of the night I’m awake and Cannot sleep Satan attacks when You're weak It’s a good time To talk to the Lord The devil soon flees When he sees God’s Almighty sword God reminds me of His wondrous love His time and effort His spiritual hugs Why do we listen To the devil’s lies Forget the past and Get on with our lives I’ve been attacked Far too long In the mighty name Of Jesus I command You devil, be gone I gave my heart to Jesus Praise God He came for me He opened my eyes For me to see that He believed in me © Natalie Price August 15th 2010 |
LOVE UNITES NOT FIGHTS Love is the best weapon God has given us Against evil to mankind Why do we have To be so blind Love heals deep wounds If only the world Would commune Love is a precious gift It can wipe away tears And give you a lift Love forgives With a passion The heart overflows With compassion Love does not envy Or want power You want God's love to Pour down from heaven Just like a shower Love wants to share And give to others The enemy is Satan So we should stand Up for one another We are sisters And brothers Under one God There is no other Love came to us In the flesh God loved us so much He wanted the best Jesus gave his life To change the world And make things right Love unites not fights Open your eyes to see This precious love That God gave me He changed my life And now I’m free His love is what Has changed me © Natalie Price August 16, 2010 |
| JESUS UNDERSTANDS Jesus was not guilty But he suffered For the ones that are He did this to save The lost and the ones Who have been scarred He became sin so we Would be right with God Before Jesus came We were all in darkness As if we’re in a big black fog We still see suffering and Go through hard times It’s part of life and Very hard to deal With sometimes I really hate to see Someone abused They may not be guilty But they’ve been accused Jesus felt the same way He knows what it’s like To be abused and used Brutally hurt and in pain Jesus was tortured His name was to be shamed No matter what you’ve done Or how far you’ve fallen Jesus understands No matter how appalling He has shed far more tears Than anyone on this earth Jesus had a hard life Even from birth Before he was born Evil men wanted him killed Praise God it wasn’t God’s will He was betrayed and rejected Even his own, found it hard To accept him You may be going through The fiery furnace which Seems like hell There is always someone Worse off than you Jesus understands What you’re going through © Natalie Price August 16, 2010 |
WHAT A WAY TO DIE It’s awful to be rejected And to walk your life alone Where nobody ever cares And nobody visits your home There are many lonely people Waiting out there to hear They sit in their little corner But nobody comes near Eventually they crawl Into their own little shell Hiding themselves away No one misses them To even tell One day you may find Their bare and lifeless body With no flesh on their bones What a way to die When no one comes To your home Some people Lose confidence After many years of abuse It’s difficult to interact When you feel of little use Many end up in institutions So messed up inside They’ve lost all will to live Many just want to die Broken with sadness With no family or friends Each day that goes by They wish it would end Sadly they cannot cope Losing all joy and All their hope © Natalie Price August 17th 2010 |