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This page is dedicated to poetry about abuse

The poems on this page have all been contributed by Natalie McDonnell (nee Price), herself a survivor of abuse.
In her poetry, she expresses the pain of abuse and her release from that abuse.
Through her poetry, she endeavours to encourage victims to seek the great help she has found in Christ.
Natalie,  may be contacted through this web site by using the CONTACT form.

Natalie's poems have now been broken up into multiple pages so as to reduce the size of each page.
Each page will now contain a maximum of 20 poems.
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LEGAL ABUSE

Living with someone
With an unbalanced mind
Constantly tormented
And on the decline
Unless you can understand
It’s difficult to withstand
Their mood swings
Can alter at anytime
Leaving you thinking
They’re way out of line
They can become violent
And abusive, causing you
Emotional turmoil
It’s not long before
Anger rises and your
Blood starts to boil
Sadly this is on the increase
With the usage of drugs and
Preservatives in our food
It’s poisoning our systems
And changing our moods
They say you are what you eat
I’m starting to believe that
When our minds and bodies
Are growing weak
It’s a serious concern
To say the least
Cancer is also on the increase
There are many different kinds
Of drugs being pumped
Into our systems every day
Our food chain is full of chemicals
I believe we should
Stand together and
Having our say
This treatment is disgusting
We are not that blind
To see all the signs
People are losing control
And going downhill fast
I pray to God it will not last
No wonder there is so
Much abuse around
We’re are being treated
Like scum and being
Kicked into the ground

©Natalie Price August 19th 2010

LIARS ARE SHUNNED

My marriage was
Full of deceit
My partner was
The biggest cheat
He stole from me
And I was his wife
He left me nothing
And believed he
Was right
He was given
More than half
When our divorce
Came through
Greed took over
This was nothing new
Thirty one years
We were married
Four children
That I carried
What he did to me
Was unjust
He violated my trust
I now live my life
Telling others
Encouraging you all
Not to lie but love
One another
When trust is broken
It’s hard to restore
Lying to each other
Will only destroy
Causing you grief and
Hurting you more
Denying that there is a
Problem only causes
You distress
The rest of the family
Will suffer leaving
You in a mess
The bible says
Unless you are faithful
In small matters
You won’t be in
Larger ones
Your life will be fruitless
And liars are shunned

© Natalie Price August 19th 2010

PRAYER TRANSFERS THE PROBLEM

Let the peace that
Christ gives control
Your thinking
I’ve done this and
Truly it’s helped in
Preventing my heart
From sinking
We all get angry at times
And speak words that
Are very unkind
Because of my own hurt
I’ve lashed out and
Treated the people
I love like dirt
The first thing I lost
Is God’s peace when
I stepped out of his will
That’s when I started
To go downhill
Anger destroys his peace
God’s peace will never cease
If you’re doing God’s will
To get his peace you need
To pray about everything
Sing praises and worship him
Tell him about your needs
Get rid of the
Overgrown weeds
Thank him with all your heart
All the miserable words
Will soon depart
Do not give Satan a
Foothold in your mind
The moment you do
You’re on the decline
Prayer transfers the problem
From you to Jesus
Then God listens and sees us

© Natalie Price August 21st 2010

CHOOSING EVIL
IS A BIG MISTAKE


Without hope there
Is no heaven
If we don’t believe
We are not forgiven
Our true battle starts
When we accept
Jesus Christ as Lord
The reason being
Satan will start to war
When our spirits
Are transformed
The devil will
Hurl up a storm
At times we wonder
What has hit us
As it was not the story
We were all told
Being a Christian
Is not an easy path
When the changes
In us unfolds
We will go through
Suffering and pain
Feelings of guilt
And terrible shame
Joy and peace only begin
By accepting Jesus
And his forgiveness of sins
Life on earth is about
Choices we make
Choosing evil is a
Big mistake
Our gift for believing
Is eternal life
Worship God
Under his guiding light
The shadows of death
Are just around the corner
Be victorious and
Not a mourner

© Natalie Price August  22nd 2010

LET’S MAKE OURSELVES HEARD

You can pour your heart out
To doctors who just don’t listen
Some end up committing suicide
Or even ending up in prison
Many times I’ve tried to get
Doctors to hear what I was saying
All they were concerned with
Is what I was paying
The system we have in place
Failed me until I was in a
State of sorrow
Their advice I did try to follow
But it led me no where
Except despair
The mental health
System we have in place
Is absolute disgrace
In my family alone
There were six of us
With serious issues
It’s like hitting your
Head against a
Brick wall and using
Heaps of tissues
No one had the answers
To do any good
In the end my family
Fell apart and
Nobody understood
I honestly believe I
Developed Leukemia
Because of all the
Pressure and stress
This went on for years
My mind was never at rest
Stress kills and destroys
Let’s make ourselves heard
By making a lot of noise
I’m so fed up with the system
That turns their backs on us
No wonder we live in misery
And have lost so much trust

© Natalie Price August 23rd 2010

IF ONLY THEY HAD KNOWN

Don’t allow people
To pull you down
When your work is
Not at your best
God knows what
You’re capable of
He accepts you
Even if it is less
At times we are
Not feeling our
Usual selves
It may be due to us
Not feeling well
Pressures and stress
Can be the root cause
People can be real nasty
And find every flaw
This can have
Long term damage
Especially when 
You’re finding life
Hard to manage
It reflects in
Our schools
I felt one complete idiot
When I was at school
The reason being
My teachers
Thought I was a fool
I found it hard to cope
With my schooling
They didn’t see
I had a problem
All they believed is
I was fooling
There was so much
Going on in my head
What they were seeing
In me they sadly misread
Only if they had known
I was being abused at home

© Natalie Price August 24th 2010

YOU WILL KNOW HE IS THE LORD

Why kick the dog
You dirty rotten sod
How can you be so
Cruel and mean
With your filthy mouth
You’re disgusting
And obscene
I’m sick of seeing
Intimidators like you
Who think they
Can bully anything
They choose
If anything
Is in your way
You just kick it away
Everything you touch
You defile
The anger in your
Voice is so vile
I feel so sorry for
Your wife and kids
Hearing them scream
While you blow
Off your lid
The role model they
Have is full of spite
All you hear from
Your place is
Shouting and fights
It makes you wonder
What affect it will have
On them in later life
This world is full
Of tyrants like you
One day you will get
What you deserve too
You will be judged
With an iron sword
When Jesus returns
You will know
He is the Lord

©Natalie Price August 25th 2010

YOUR CIRCUMSTANCES
CAN CHANGE


I’m at the end
Of my road
Not knowing
Which way to go
All hell breaks loose
When I try
Every day all
I do is cry
I’m sick of all the
Lies and deceit
And treated like
A lump of meat
Nothing I do is
Ever good enough
Things can
Be pretty rough
I try to be
A good mother
And teach my
Family to love
One another
None of my kids
Respect what I say
My husband
Abuses me
And tells me
If you don’t like it
Leave and go away
My home is becoming
Like a morgue
I would leave, but the
High cost of living
I cannot afford
I’m in a dilemma
On wondering
What I should do
It’s hard to cope
With what I’ve
Been put through
Lord I need you to
Answer my prayers
My home life
Is in utter despair
God’s answer to this
Is put your trust in him
Your circumstances
Will change but it
Must start within

© Natalie Price August 26th 2010

GIVE GOD ALL YOUR LOVE

My Lord is with me
Wherever I go
Into my deepest
Depths   of misery
God‘s light glows
Trouble seems to
Follow me
This often gets
Me down
I cry out to my Lord
He’s always
Hanging around
To relieve my
Burdens so
They’re lighter
He gives me strength
To be a fighter
I have a motto
Never to give up
No matter what
Faces me, I refuse
To become unstuck
It doesn’t matter
Which way I turn
The devil is right there
To try and burn
God is my tower
Of strength
Peace he gives me
Instead of torment
Without him
I could not go
Another day
His word speaks
Through me
When I need him
All I do is pray
Cast your burdens
Upon the Lord
And he will give
You rest and
Serve him with
All you love and you
Have done your best

© Natalie Price August 27th 2010

NO WONDER OUR
SUICIDE RATE IS HIGH


He hides away
In his little shell
His mind is in turmoil
He is not doing so well
Thoughts of suicide
Keeping popping
Into his head
These pressures
Are like mountains
He keeps wishing
He was dead
No wonder our
Suicide rate is high
Many times I’ve
Asked why
When people are
Screwed down
It’s like burying them
In the ground
The negative thoughts
Keep filling their minds
Until one day they snap
Their world has
Lost its shine
No more do they
Want to live
But God says its
Not their time
Abuse comes in
Many forms
This type rips
The family apart
So be warned
Sometimes you feel
There is very little
You can do
Our prayers
Do help to
Get them through

© Natalie Price August 28, 2010

KEEP HOLDING ONTO FAITH

Faith is having assurance
Of things unseen
When our lives
Are in a mess
Jesus is the only way
So get yourself redeemed
Trust and faith in God
Is the only way to go
Otherwise I would have
Given up a long time ago
My faith is what has
Kept me strong
And waiting on answers
That seemed so long
Most of my life
I had been abused
And spitefully used
My health suffered
And my head
Was in a spin
Jesus kept knocking
And did not give in
Eventually he
Won my trust
It was the best thing
To happen to us as now
He doesn’t have to
Work as hard
His healing came
And healed my scars
I surrendered
My life to him
God forgave me
And all of my sins
Each day is a new
Blessing I see
Being diagnosed
With cancer
I thought it
Was the end for me
Without God I don’t
Have a new day
Now I sing praises
Hallelujah hooray 

© Natalie Price August 29th 2010

JESUS CALLS THEM

Children are a special gift
So precious in God’s eyes
Given to us to
Love and care
And to help them
Grow up wise
Encourage them
Throughout their life
Showing compassion
And kindness and try
To teach them to
Do what is right
Our homes should be
A place of joy, love
And serenity
A sanctuary that you
Can come home too
And feel the tranquility
Laughter should
Fill every room
Like beautiful flowers
So colourful they bloom
Welcome all
Friends and family
They are more likely
To stay home happily
Get them involved
In things they
Would like to do
This is healthy and
Teaches them too
A family that
Prays together usually
Stays together
Having the presence
Of God in your home
Makes all the difference
And through times
Of trouble you’re
Never alone
Don’t push God
Into their hearts
There is no need
Jesus calls them
We are there to
To help feed his seed

© Natalie Price August 30th 2010

MY WORLD STINKS

My parents
Make me feel ill
They don’t care
How I feel
Always putting me down
And telling me what
I should do
I’m sick and tired
Of listening
Its hell they’re
Putting me through
Life is not easy
When you’re a
Teenage kid
When anything
Goes wrong
They make me feel
It’s something I did
My grades at school
Are falling
But I’m accused
And told I’m fooling
Even when I try
They tell me
I’m telling lies
My mates keep
Telling me to
Leave home
Where do I go
I feel so alone
My home life is a sham
These days I don’t even
Know who I am
Many of my mates
Are into drugs
It’s easy to get hold of
But I’m scared
Of the bullying thugs
I’ve heard many stories
So many are true
I was told if I get
Into that scene
The next victim
Could be you
My mind is mess up
I don’t know
What to think
All I know is that
My world stinks

© Natalie Price August 30, 2010

GOVERNMENTS NEGLECT THEIR OWN

Can you believe that people
On cancer treatment
Have to live on our streets
The horror stories I hear
Makes my heart weep
It’s like sending them
Home to die
Only they don’t
Have a home
Instead they
Whimper and cry
One young girl
Is battling an infection
Her only hope of living
Is amputation
Our cities are
Certainly getting a very
Bad reputation
For the sick and
Starving who are
Living in humiliation
Praise God to all
The volunteers
Who work endlessly
Helping these
Unfortunate people
Not forgetting to mention 
The help from all the
Caring business people
It’s a disgrace to our
Governments who give
So much money over seas
They neglect their own
While our homeless grieve

© Natalie Price September 1st 2010

DISABLED KIDS ABUSED

His world is silent
He cannot hear
In his eyes
You see his tears
His body is limp
From head to toe
His bruises are so
Bad from many
Numerous blows
Disabled kids
Cannot fend for
Themselves
They rely
Completely
On others to
Keep them well
Unfortunately so
Many are abused
The parents
Do not want them
This is not to
Be excused
Often the parents
Are mentally
Disabled themselves
They shouldn’t be
Bearing children and
Raising them as well
I have seen this
So many times
It’s disgraceful
I think our laws
Are way off line
These children
Need protection
In many ways
It’s a crime
The suffering
Of these little
Ones go on
Something
Should be done
As this is wrong

©Natalie Price September 2nd 2010

FLASHERS ARE DANGEROUS

You dirty filthy
Foul thing
Flashing your
Body parts and
Tossing it to
Make it swing
Women and children
Enter this park
While you
Prey on them
Just like a shark
Our parks should be a
Safe environment
Where children can
Come to play
But danger lurks in
Many of them
Trying to lead our
Children astray
Drug addicts
Rapist to name a few
Hide in their
Dark shadows
Watching you
This has happened
To me a few times
If you ever see this
It’s a serious crime
Sing out and
Tell someone
Or report it
To the police
These kind of
Crimes are on
The increase
Once I saw a flasher
On a train
I was too young
To say anything
Because I thought
It was shame
Teach your children
To observe
Make sure areas
Are safe and that
They can be heard

©Natalie Price September 3, 2010

MANKIND BE WARNED

Where are all
The smiles gone
Worry lines
Fill their faces
The bills keep
Rolling in
Their home
Is no longer
An oasis
The work load
Is taking a toll
On this family
There is nothing
Left over for them
To live happily
This family scrapes
Through from
Week to week
Sometimes there
Is not enough on
The table for
Them to eat
Their clothes
Need replacing
No shoes on
Their feet
They come as
Beggars and
Are very weak
Rising costs
Continue to rise
As people live
In poverty
Until their demise
Some live
Without power
No warmth to
Keep them warm
Where is the love
Mankind be warned
The poor will be
With us right to the end
They’ll be richer
Than the rich with
Jesus as their friend

© Natalie Price September 4, 2010

ANOTHER CHILD
GOES MISSING


Breaking news
Another child
Goes missing
All they have left
Is their memories
And reminiscing
It’s every parents
Worst nightmare
To wake up and
Find them gone
You cannot imagine
Their heartache that
They have undergone
Every time they
Close their eyes
They’re thinking
Of their child’s demise
Yet they never
Give up hope that
They will be found
Hopefully they’re
Not in some shallow
Grave underground
They find no peace
Their joy is gone
Where is their child
It’s been so long
The police say
They are doing
Everything they can
All they can do is
Pray and leave it
In God’s hands
Feeling helpless
Not knowing
What to do
Unbearable suffering
Is what they’re
Going through
Children go
Missing every day
Unfortunately in
Most cases it's
Foul play

©Natalie Price September 4, 2010

YOUR LAW IS A
DISHONOUR TO GOD


Who without sin
Cast the first stone
You can almost
Hear her pitiful cries
As she groans
No man has the
Right to judge
Or use this
Kind of brutality
But sadly this
Has become a reality
She may be
Another man’s wife
But God is the only
One that has the right
To take our life
The laws of your
Land are pure evil
You call that
Honouring God
By destroying a life
And causing the
World upheaval
This is a barbaric act
Stoning a woman
You’re worse than
Wolves in a pack
Ninety nine stripes
With a whip
Her flesh will be
Severely ripped
She’ll be dead
And her blood
Will be on your head
The men of your land
Show no respect
You treat women
Like slaves and
Then you neglect
Adam was given Eve
To be his companion
And best friend
One day you’ll pay
When your life
Comes to an end

© Natalie Price September 6, 2010

INCEST IS AN ABOMINATION

Incest is an abomination
Against your own
Flesh and blood
It brings disgrace
On your family
And you feel
Dirty as mud
The cross you bear
Hardens your heart
Your trust and
Confidence has
Been torn apart
You live with the
Memories for
The rest of your life
When you're
Reminded its
It’s like being
Pierced with a knife
Sometimes you
Harbour these
Inner thoughts
Distressing you
Further until
You’re distraught
Mental illness
Can start
From abuse
Defiled by
These actions
You become
A recluse
The long
Term damage
Can never be undone
Only through
Jesus God’s Holy Son

© Natalie Price September 6th 2010