WHAT IS THE USE
We’re told to report
Any form of abuse
Now I’m thinking
What is the use
No wonder people
Take the law into
Their own hands
I have no respect
For the laws of our land
They lack credibility
That is for sure
Why waste my time
When they
Choose to ignore
I’ve exhausted all
Government departments
They only pass
The complaint on
At the end of the day
I really feel that the
Way they view me
Is like worthless scum
We vote these
Hypocrites in
They wave their
Own banners
And make false promises
Just so they can win
Their only interest is
Gaining more votes
As soon as they win
We’re treated like
Brainless goats
I don’t know where
To turn to anymore
We live in a
Heartless world
There doesn’t seem
Much care around
This is what I’ve found
In the mean time
People are suffering
And being abused
If you sit and think
About this, we’re
The ones that
Are being used
© Natalie McDonnell July 11th 2011
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ANGER DOES DESTROY MY PEACE
Anger does destroy my peace
Every white cloud around me
Becomes heavy and bleak
If I allow the devil’s agitation
To unravel me to the point
Where I react like a wild cat
I will only undo all the good work
That the Lord has done in me
Everything that was clear
Will suddenly darken and
I will be too blind to see
It’s difficult to keep my
Peace when I’m under attack
And if I dwell on it too much
I will certainly go off track
The best way to overcome
This latest attack is
Concentrate on what God
Has called me to do
This is to serve him first
Everything else will fall
Into place and the Lord
Will bring me through
I must control my anger
And completely trust God
To meet my needs
God sorts out the
Good crop from the weeds
The devil plants bad seeds
To uproot the foundation
And destroy our salvation
The enemy wants to ruin
God’s purpose and plans
Satan will never succeed
Because the good work
That God has done in me
He will complete until
The day we meet in eternity
© Natalie McDonnell July 12th 2011
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SHE CHOSE TO BELIEVE A LIE
What has happened
In her life
That has caused
Her to be this way
Her mind tormented
Because she’s been betrayed
Years of anguish over
What was done
She tried to pretend it
Didn’t happen
This is something
She could not face
Instead she turned
Away to run
Her child was sexually
Abuse when she was nine
Her mother couldn’t
Handle the truth
And it twisted her mind
All these years that
Have gone by
Rather than face reality
She turned away
And believed a lie
Now she lies in a
Nursing home bed
I can’t help wondering
What is going on in her head
She seems so far from reality
Her life held on by a thread
She put her love into
Material possessions
These no longer exist
I watch her eyes intently
She can’t go back and wish
It’s like I see this stranger
Yet I hug her and
Give her a kiss
I often wonder what
She’s thinking when
when she looks straight
Into my face
Her thoughts are so
Mixed up, it’s
Extremely sad to see
I pray this torment
Will leave her
Where she will feel
Loved and set free
© Natalie McDonnell July 13th 2011
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ALL YOU NEED TO DO IS PRAY
Mental illness can start
From a traumatic experience
This can severely affect your life
My abuse started at nine years old
Over the years the anguish
Of this has taken its toll
My outlook on life
Became very negative
Rejection was the only
Thing that I could see
This haunted me and
It wouldn’t let me be
I had no confidence
In myself whatsoever
My moods seem to change
Just like the weather
I could never stick
To any one thing
I felt I was in a situation
I just couldn’t win
People soon picked up
That I was not all there
I couldn’t communicate
On their level because of fear
I have Jesus to thank
For the healing in me
If I had of continued
The way I was, I would hate
To know where I would be
Today is a different story
My whole life has been
Changed around
My mind is definitely sound
Make the most out of your days
Thank the Lord daily
Communicate with God
All you need to do is pray
© Natalie McDonnell July 14th 2011
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HE LEAVES HIS VICIOUS MARK
Under attack is
Where I’m at
Satan is desperate to stop
Me in my tracks
He uses everyone
Close to me
I know his work
And dirty deeds
He cannot win
Yet he still tries
The devil is the deceiver
Of this world
He is the father of all lies
He chooses
The weakest vessels
By scheming
And manipulation
Hoping to destroy
Everyone’s salvation
His evil darkness
Is seen everywhere
All around me is
Sadness and despair
Wherever he goes,
He leaves his
Vicious mark
This heaviness is so dark
His evilness continues
He preys on the weak
They lack strength
He makes out he is
Heaven sent
Only he makes everything
He touches miserable
His mind is twisted and bent
My Lord is my only weapon
Against his vicious assault
Without God I can do nothing
This evilness needs to
Be brought to a halt
His reign of terror
Is all over the earth
Destroying everything
With any worth
Start praising God
Your praise is your weapon
Against this ungodly sod
He cannot win if you
Make a conscious effort
To depart from all sin
© Natalie McDonnell July 15th 2011
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GOD WILL COME BACK AND TAKE IT ALL
It’s very disheartening
In trying to find help
It’s frustrating when
No one listens
I have to wonder are they
Just there for themselves
The public is not that stupid
To believe our leaders care
They fight among themselves
All you hear is them
Shout and swear
The mistakes they keep making
Are suppose to be on our behalf
It makes you want to cry
But you’re better off to laugh
They sit there with their
Big fat pay checks coming
In each week
They don’t have to worry
The taxpayer earns their keep
In the meantime people
Are crying out for help
It maybe for their families
Or it maybe for themself
There are so many problems
We’re faced with today
The burdens get heavier
This pressure doesn’t go away
Many people want to give up
They’ve lost what they’ve
Worked hard for
Sadly these people have
Become hardened and abrupt
They cry out, where is our God
This is similar to when the
Egyptians used the Jews as slaves
They cried out but Pharaoh
Hardened his heart and wouldn’t
Let them have their say
He wanted power, his heart
Was full of greed
He ignored the people’s needs
It’s the same today
The heart of Pharaoh is
In our leaders
They want to stand over us
Like the trees of cedar
With everything you do
They want the power over you
One day their mountain will fall
God will come back and take it all
© Natalie McDonnell July 16th 2011
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AT TIMES MY PAST HAUNTS ME
Sometimes people can be
So thoughtless
They could try using a little tact
Maybe they don’t realize
That their heartless words
Feel like you’ve been hit over
The head with a cricket bat
I’m very sensitive
To these things
It doesn’t take much
To pull my heart strings
And break me down in tears
When people say nasty words
It brings back all the fears
Reminding me of the memories
That I would rather forget
For all those many years
I have moved on and I’m
Living a very happy life
But at times my past
Haunts me, when people
Bring up things that
Are not right
Even some of the jokes
They poke at me
Are not jokes at all
Often I find a place
Where I pour my
Heart out and bawl
Generally I try not
To let their comments
Affect me the way they do
It’s not always that easy
To laugh them off
Even though I try too
They tell me that
Words can’t hurt you
But that is not true at all
Mentally I don’t cope
The stress of it
Drains every part of me
Especially when I know
They’re being cruel
© Natalie McDonnell July 17th 2011
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TRUE LOVE CANNOT BE MEASURED
It’s scary when I doubt
Whether I’m truly loved
This comes from all the years
Of being kicked and shoved
The devil is sneaky
He knows how to deplete me
And where it hurts the most
These are the times I
Really need to feel my
Holy Father is close
Dealing with these
Inner fears has been a
Battle for many years
I can go for weeks and
Feel okay, but then
All of a sudden
I feel this chill
This is a horrible feeling
And can make me feel ill
I know I’ve come a long way
Since those dreadful days
God has shown me
I’m truly loved, so why
Does this fear still come
I believe I’m strong
In my faith, this battle
I’m having must be won
My past must never
Catch up with me
I’ve firmly put it
Behind me you see
I need to know
That God really cares
I would never cope
If he wasn’t there
My hope is in God’s peace
He brings me comfort
This brings release
Love is a treasure
True love cannot
Be measured
It’s the greatest gift
On earth and this
Goes on forever
© Natalie McDonnell July 18th 2011
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GOD KNOWS WHAT ITS
LIKE LOSING A SON
Three sons he does not see
They don’t want a bar of him
Because they don’t understand
That their parents could not agree
I feel for their dad because he
Would like nothing more
Than having a relationship
With his boys
They’ve rejected his efforts
Thinking its some ploy
Their dad knows he
Has made plenty of mistakes
Those years are behind him
He prays for forgiveness
Not only for himself
But for their sakes
He can only hope
That in time, they
Will change their minds
It’s awful to think this
May go on for years
It breaks my heart
To see their dad in tears
Prayer can change
This situation as there
Is nothing impossible for God
Because he can transform
A hardened heart
I choose to believe for
The very best outcome
May God’s will be done
God knows what its
Like losing a son
© Natalie McDonnell July 18th 2011
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PLEASE HEAR MY VOICE
Please hear my voice
It’s difficult to change things
When I have no choice
You judged me because
I have to live this way
My partner is domineering
I don’t have any say
I’m not game enough
To speak my mind
I’ve been punched
In the face and I
Could have gone blind
I’ve tried to speak
Up in the past
Only to be told not
To speak unless I’m asked
Its easy for others to say
Call the police, if I did that
It would be hell for me
And it would never cease
Our kids are the ones
I worry about
If I tried taking them
He would hunt me down
Then kick me into the ground
My parents warned me
I would be making
A rod for my own back
And I was heading
Down the wrong track
I can’t go home
He would find me there
Besides that, my parents
Don’t want to know or care
There is no forgiveness
With my family, I know
Now I’m on my own
I’ve been told that God
Can transform my life
At first I didn’t believe this
But now I know this is right
First I had to put my trust in him
He promised, if I could believe
What Jesus has done for me
He would forgive my sin
And set me free
I gave God my trust
Then my faith to believe
My life has changed
And I’m happy as can be
© Natalie McDonnell July 19th 2011
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THIS IS A WARNING WE NEED TO HEED
Are we being prepared
Only some of us
Will be spared
Do we have time for God
The only things we have
Time for these days
Is our jobs and
Hoarding up stuff
We don’t need
This is warning we
Need to heed
The time is coming soon
When all these things
Will mean nothing to us
Unless we give God
Our time and trust
Maybe we don’t want
To face this reality
This world is faced
With misery and fatalities
Recently I saw a vision
Of impending doom
The black cloud of evil
Full of oppression and gloom
There was no escape
None whatsoever
Evil filling every part
Of this earth
Bringing the worst
Kind of weather
The devil abuses
Uses and destroys
Everything in his path
He causes upheaval
In our families
Arguments and wrath
The best protection
For your family and friends
Is accepting Jesus
As your friend
The visions I’m having
Are very clear
I’m not telling you this
To bring you fear
We all see what is
Happening in our
World today
Surrender your life
To Jesus and pray
The enemy will flee
As you give God your praise
© Natalie McDonnell 20th July 2011
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LET GOD IN AND
THE DEVIL WILL DEPART
My joy in the Lord
Is my strength
In these hard times
I don’t want to act
Unless I have the Lord’s
Blessings and consent
Most of my life I have
Done things in my
Own selfish way
I thought I didn’t
Need God and I certainly
Didn’t pay attention
To what God was saying
I rebelled in the other
Direction and did
Things my way
Where did that get me
Well I can tell you
Absolutely nowhere
In fact everything I did
Ended up disaster and despair
No wonder I was
Abused for so long
Getting myself into bad
Relationships one by one
I was in a situation
I could not win until
The day Jesus stepped in
And told me to rid
Myself of all this sin
It’s wasn’t easy to let go
Of my worldly ways
But thank you Lord
I started to listen
To what you say
Today my life is full
Of blessings and I’m the
Happiest I’ve ever been
Because I had the faith
To believe in
The things unseen
My advice to anyone
Who has a rebellious heart
Let God in and the
Devil will depart
© Natalie McDonnell July 21st 2011
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WHAT JESUS DID FOR ME
HE CAN DO FOR YOU
Unjustly accused
I did no wrong
Sadly I was confused
At the time I was
Not strong
Previously I had
Been through
Years of heartbreak
In tears from my
Stupid mistakes
I neglected
My Lord’s foundation
In the end I
Finally did break
When I was going
Through these
Traumatic times
I just couldn’t see
It was like I was blind
I could not see an end
To this misery I was in
Sadly I lost my
Contentment within
My actions at the time
May not have been right
The turmoil I was in
Was causing all the fights
I thought everyone
Was against me
And I was in a situation
I could not win
Until I cried out to Jesus
Who told me he would
Wipe away all my sin
I had to let him help me
For my new life to begin
My faith was my assurance
That has gotten me through
What Jesus did for me
He can do for you too
© Natalie McDonnell July 22nd 2011
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IF ONLY I COULD
TURN BACK THE TIME
Self condemnation
Comes from guilt
Shame and blame
As I look at my mum
In her helpless state
I can’t thinking
If only I handled
Things in different way
My mum may not be
In this situation today
After my dad died
My mother was grieving
And sinking into
Severe depression
I felt because of her loss
She wanted me to be
A replacement for dad
I couldn’t handle this
After dad’s death
Everything went bad
I had never seen her
React this way with me
She didn’t want
To see me happy
She wanted me to be
Something I could not be
My mind has
Been in turmoil
Because I should
Have understood
If only I had of
Listened to her cry
But all I could see
Was my own suffering
I look back on this
And ask myself why
Now my mum is
Waiting to die
She looks at me
Sometimes and stares
I want my mother to
Know that I do care
I’m not sure what
Goes on in her mind
I love my mum so much
If only I could
Turn back the time
My own actions
Back then, I do condemn
My mum lost her love
She needed the love
Of her man
I just didn’t understand
© Natalie McDonnell July 23rd 2011
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I CAN’T IGNORE THIS
Alone in my thoughts
As I take my daily walk
I can’t ignore this
Suffering in the world
Millions of people
Dying every day
Some are tortured
Babies not even seeing
The light of day
Medical help is
Far from their reach
They're sick of hearing
The world and what
They preach
Their land is dry
All you can hear
Is the sound of
Their death cry
No water, no food
They have to beg
Trying to feed
Their brood
There is no place
To lay down and rest
Or anything to cover
Them from the
Heat and the cold
Not many of them last
Very few grow old
Their nation is cursed
Many die from thirst
It’s hard to imagine
This is happening today
God says we are to
Love our neighbour
Not to leave them
Suffering and walk away
Everything that lives
God has made
We all have a duty
Of care especially
When it comes to
What God has made
© Natalie McDonnell July 23rd 2011
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MANY TIMES I’VE BEEN
TOLD I’M AN IDIOT
Why don’t they listen
They tell us they care
Every time you call for help
They make the excuse
That they cannot be there
This really does hurt
Yet we go out of our way
To help them
Time and time again
I absolutely hate being used
Society today seems to think
If you allow yourself to be used
Then it’s your own fault
If you’re abused
They forget acts of kindness
Towards your fellow man
These days you’re lucky
If you get an acknowledgement
Or a pleasant shake of the hand
A plain thankyou is
Sometimes enough
So many people like to use you
And then treat you like crap
Especially some
Voluntary organizations
This can make you go
Completely flat
Giving of oneself is
Becoming less and less
Let alone them
Giving their best
I’ve been told many times
I’m an idiot for helping
People the way I do
They’re not very encouraging
I think they are rude
I’ve had enough rejection
In my time and for
People to say things like this
They’re way out of line
One thing I’ve learnt
Is that to give is a blessing
When you’re selfish and mean
That’s when you’re regressing
©Natalie McDonnell July 24th 2011
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THEY HAVE TO EXCRETE
IN THEIR OWN BED
The elderly and frail
Cannot live very well
Their bodies have
Had their day
Wouldn’t it be nice
Since they’re coming
Close to the end
Of their life to try
And help them
In everyway
Some of these
Poor old folk are
Deserted by
Their families
And just left to die
They struggle with
Every small thing
They feel so helpless
All they can do is cry
Some nursing homes
Are so bare and cold
Their rooms are
Like morgues, so
Depressing and old
No wonder they go
Into their own
Little world and shut
Everyone else out
It must be so unbearable
For them, this I do not doubt
Some of their food
Is like slop, they have to
Eat it or they will
Slowly die and rot
The staff do their best
But they can only do
So much, as more often
Than not, they’re under stress
Some patients have to
Excrete in their own beds
Can you imagine what
This must do in their heads
The shortage of staff
Cannot meet
Their personal needs
These are the things
That most people don’t see
Our older generation
Have given their worth
They deserve better than this
Before they leave this
Misery and the earth
© Natalie McDonnell July 26th 2011
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MY NAME HAS BEEN DEFAMED
AS A MALICIOUS ABUSER
How come evil people seem
To get away with abuse
Every time I’ve tried to do
Something I get nowhere
So what is the use
My name has been defamed
As a malicious abuser
This is sheer viciousness
From my accuser
I have had enough
Of this rubbish to
Last me a lifetime
No one is listening
To what I am saying
I’m being abused
Then my accuser
Is doing the blaming
It seems to me he
Can get away with
Almost murder
For some strange reason
This criminal has
All the rights
So far he seems to
Be winning this fight
What is wrong with
Our system today
No one will be safe
With villains like
These around
Yet as far as the law
Is concern he has
Done no wrong
Even if he kicks
Everything in his path
To the ground
I’m at my wits end
In knowing what to do
This man is so wicked
He must be a pro
I feel like giving up
But I can’t let this go
Too many crooks are
Are out there today
Waiting and ready
It’s sickening that
They’re having their way
© Natalie McDonnell 27th 2011
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THIS AGE WE LIVE IN
How many people walk by
They ignore their pleads and cries
Most people will not get involved
Many have their reasons
Or they may be sick or old
But there is always something
We can do, please remember
This could be your love one
Or this could even be you
People are being abused
And assaulted every day
This problem we have in our
Society is not going away
Yet many are choosing to
Ignore this disgusting crime
Acting as if they’re blind
I hear mothers yelling at
Their kids as if they’re dogs
Most likely when they’re home
They also get flogged
Often I hear blokes
Standing over their women
Belittling them as if they’re fools
Or worse still having an outright brawl
The public place is no longer safe
Even with security guards
People are going mad
Why does the world
Have to be so bad
Teenagers acting like louts
In our suburban streets
Stealing and vandalizing
This age we live in
Is looking very bleak
My hope is in the Lord
My security is in him
No one else on this earth
Can take away all sin
© Natalie McDonnell July 28th 2011
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I DEFINITELY DO NOT WANT
THE DEVIL WINNING
Only God our Father knows
When our time is coming to a close
This earth is full of sin
Evilness it starts within
Satan is causing this upheaval
Because he thrives on us being evil
If you hate and cannot forgive
It will ultimately destroy you
And you will not live
Eternal life is given to those
Who have faith to believe
If you refused Jesus
In the end you will grieve
Hell is not a nice place to go
It’s very real, so what
You reap you will sow
Anger will get you nowhere
It will not bring satisfaction
All it brings is despair
You may not want to
Take any notice of what I say
But one day you will care
The world is approaching a time
Like its never know before
It's a very scary thought
When you read many of the
Prophetic biblical messages
And what the future has in store
We cannot turn our back
And say we’ve heard it all before
All you need to do is open
Your heart to Jesus when he
Comes and knocks on your door
If you want freedom and
To live in peace
You need to learn self control
It’s only Jesus that can
Make you whole
There is so much misery
All around us these days
I definitely do not
Want the devil winning
Or this suffering and pain
Will never go away
We need to do this for our
Family and friends
I want the best for my family
Not a miserable end
© Natalie McDonnell July 29th 2011
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